Nynthixia productions

『Fight or Flight』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 11 Advanced, Nectar 4 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230924-01669
LIN (full) : 「601 088 741」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230924-001824
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

戦いが知らない、どうやって逃げるが知らない
私の体は血の川に溺れていくね
抵抗したいのに苦しみ続けてるけど
動けないだよ、今のところ体力が無い
暴力また沈黙に屈すべきでしょうの？
意味をなさない答えはとにかく一つもない
地上は体を拘束された永遠の牢獄
あきらめないでしょう、希望はまだ死んでいない

脅威はすぐそばにあるよ、私の背後に
そして気づかぬ私に倒れてしまったよ
立ち上がろうとしたが失敗していたけど
感情が私を支配したと思ってる

戦いが知らない、どうやって逃げるが知らない
私の体は血の川に溺れていくね
抵抗したいのに苦しみ続けてるけど
動けないだよ、今のところ体力が無い
暴力また沈黙に屈すべきでしょうの？
意味をなさない答えはとにかく一つもない
地上は体を拘束された永遠の牢獄
あきらめないでしょう、希望はまだ死んでいない

卑怯を選ぶこともできたけど、そうしなかった
体が重い、でも精神はまだ苦しんで
二つの選択肢の間で行き詰まっている
恐怖が取り憑いて、疑いが強すぎてる

戦いが知らない、どうやって逃げるが知らない
私の体は血の川に溺れていくね
抵抗したいのに苦しみ続けてるけど
動けないだよ、今のところ体力が無い
暴力また沈黙に屈すべきでしょうの？
意味をなさない答えはとにかく一つもない
地上は体を拘束された永遠の牢獄
あきらめないでしょう、希望はまだ死んでいない

戦いが知らない、どうやって逃げるが知らない
私の体は血の川に溺れていくね
抵抗したいのに苦しみ続けてるけど
動けないだよ、今のところ体力が無い
暴力また沈黙に屈すべきでしょうの？
意味をなさない答えはとにかく一つもない
地上は体を拘束された永遠の牢獄
あきらめないでしょう、希望はまだ死んでいない

戦いが知らない、どうやって逃げるが知らない
私の体は血の川に溺れていくね
抵抗したいのに苦しみ続けてるけど
動けないだよ、今のところ体力が無い
暴力また沈黙に屈すべきでしょうの？
意味をなさない答えはとにかく一つもない
地上は体を拘束された永遠の牢獄
あきらめないでしょう、希望はまだ死んでいない

I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to run away
My body is drowning itself in a river of blood
I want to resist but I continue suffering
I can't move, I don't have the strength for now
Should I give in to violence or to silence?
Not a single answer doesn't seem to make sense anyway
Ground is an eternal prison where my body is being restrained
I won't give up, my hopes aren't dead yet

The threat is so close, behind my back
And I collapsed without me noticing it
I tried to get back up but didn't succeed
I think my emotions took over me

I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to run away
My body is drowning itself in a river of blood
I want to resist but I continue suffering
I can't move, I don't have the strength for now
Should I give in to violence or to silence?
Not a single answer doesn't seem to make sense anyway
Ground is an eternal prison where my body is being restrained
I won't give up, my hopes aren't dead yet

I could have chosen cowardness but didn't
My body is so heavy but my spirit still struggles
Stuck between two choices
Fear possesses me, the doubt is too strong

I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to run away
My body is drowning itself in a river of blood
I want to resist but I continue suffering
I can't move, I don't have the strength for now
Should I give in to violence or to silence?
Not a single answer doesn't seem to make sense anyway
Ground is an eternal prison where my body is being restrained
I won't give up, my hopes aren't dead yet

I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to run away
My body is drowning itself in a river of blood
I want to resist but I continue suffering
I can't move, I don't have the strength for now
Should I give in to violence or to silence?
Not a single answer doesn't seem to make sense anyway
Ground is an eternal prison where my body is being restrained
I won't give up, my hopes aren't dead yet

I don't know how to fight, I don't know how to run away
My body is drowning itself in a river of blood
I want to resist but I continue suffering
I can't move, I don't have the strength for now
Should I give in to violence or to silence?
Not a single answer doesn't seem to make sense anyway
Ground is an eternal prison where my body is being restrained
I won't give up, my hopes aren't dead yet

Je ne sais pas combattre, je ne sais pas comment m'enfuir
Mon corps se noie dans une rivière de sang
Je veux résister mais je continue de souffrir
Je ne peux pas bouger, je n'ai pas la force maintenant
Dois-je céder à la violence ou au silence ?
De toute façon aucune réponse n'a le moindre sens
Le sol est une éternelle prison où est retenu mon corps
Je n'abandonnerai pas, mon espoir n'est pas encore mort

La menace est si proche, juste derrière moi
Et sans que je le remarque, je me suis effondrée
J'ai tenté de me relever sans y arriver
Je crois que mes émotions ont pris le dessus sur moi

Je ne sais pas combattre, je ne sais pas comment m'enfuir
Mon corps se noie dans une rivière de sang
Je veux résister mais je continue de souffrir
Je ne peux pas bouger, je n'ai pas la force maintenant
Dois-je céder à la violence ou au silence ?
De toute façon aucune réponse n'a le moindre sens
Le sol est une éternelle prison où est retenu mon corps
Je n'abandonnerai pas, mon espoir n'est pas encore mort

Je pourrais devenir lâche mais je ne l'ai pas fait
Mon corps est si lourd mais mon esprit se bat encore
Coincée entre deux choix qui peuvent être faits
La peur me possède, le doute est trop fort

Je ne sais pas combattre, je ne sais pas comment m'enfuir
Mon corps se noie dans une rivière de sang
Je veux résister mais je continue de souffrir
Je ne peux pas bouger, je n'ai pas la force maintenant
Dois-je céder à la violence ou au silence ?
De toute façon aucune réponse n'a le moindre sens
Le sol est une éternelle prison où est retenu mon corps
Je n'abandonnerai pas, mon espoir n'est pas encore mort

Je ne sais pas combattre, je ne sais pas comment m'enfuir
Mon corps se noie dans une rivière de sang
Je veux résister mais je continue de souffrir
Je ne peux pas bouger, je n'ai pas la force maintenant
Dois-je céder à la violence ou au silence ?
De toute façon aucune réponse n'a le moindre sens
Le sol est une éternelle prison où est retenu mon corps
Je n'abandonnerai pas, mon espoir n'est pas encore mort

Je ne sais pas combattre, je ne sais pas comment m'enfuir
Mon corps se noie dans une rivière de sang
Je veux résister mais je continue de souffrir
Je ne peux pas bouger, je n'ai pas la force maintenant
Dois-je céder à la violence ou au silence ?
De toute façon aucune réponse n'a le moindre sens
Le sol est une éternelle prison où est retenu mon corps
Je n'abandonnerai pas, mon espoir n'est pas encore mort

Music: pad by Lunaris, lead by Lunaris 2, pianos by The Grandeur and Noire, supersaws by Xpand!2.

『Memory Shift』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 11 Advanced, Nectar 4 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230917-01667
LIN (full) : 「601 081 930」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230917-001822
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Questionable - Q
Not recommended for people under... : 10
Reason : possibly confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

何も失わずに過去を消すことはできるでしょうの？
まだ残しているおきたい思い出がいくつかあるよ
蓄積した痛みをただ取り除きたくてだけだよ
地獄から自分を切り離して逃げ出すことができて

痛みに満ちた記憶を悲しみの本質から消し去ることができたら
傷つけている可能性のあるものが少しでも残らなくなるまで
もうすぐ後悔はなくなるよ、やがて雲が空から消えていきている
人生はまた穏やかな庭に戻ってる、くつろぐことになるでしょう

何も失わずに過去を消すことはできるでしょうの？
まだ残しているおきたい思い出がいくつかあるよ
蓄積した痛みをただ取り除きたくてだけだよ
地獄から自分を切り離して逃げ出すことができて

誰とも離れたくなくて、皆が私にとって同じくらい重要
ただ痛みを忘れたくてだけ、今の私の願いはこれだけだよね
愛する人々を決して見捨てなくて、すぐにでもそうしないだよね
一人だったら今立っている人が私をは存在しないだろう

何も失わずに過去を消すことはできるでしょうの？
まだ残しているおきたい思い出がいくつかあるよ
蓄積した痛みをただ取り除きたくてだけだよ
地獄から自分を切り離して逃げ出すことができて

Can I erase the past without losing anything?
There are still some memories I'd like to keep
I just want to get rid of the pain I accumulated
Being able to separate myself from this hell and run away from it

If my memory filled with pain can be emptied from the essence of its sorrow
Until there's no more the slightest substance remaining of what could hurt me
Soon I won't have any regrets anymore, clouds will finally go away from the sky
My life will turn back to a peaceful garden I'll be lounging in

Can I erase the past without losing anything?
There are still some memories I'd like to keep
I just want to get rid of the pain I accumulated
Being able to separate myself from this hell and run away from it

I don't want to leave anyone, you're all as important for me
I just want to forget pain, this is my only wish for now
I'll never abandon the people I love, at no instant I'll do it
If I was alone, the one who's standing up right now wouldn't exist

Can I erase the past without losing anything?
There are still some memories I'd like to keep
I just want to get rid of the pain I accumulated
Being able to separate myself from this hell and run away from it

Puis-je effacer le passé sans que je ne perde rien ?
Il y a encore quelques souvenirs que je voudrais garder
Je veux juste me débarrasser de la douleur que j'ai accumulée
Pouvoir me séparer de cet enfer et le fuir au loin

Si mon souvenir empli de douleur est vidé de toute l'essence de son chagrin
Jusqu'à ce qu'il ne reste plus la moindre substance qui puisse me blesser
Je n'aurai bientôt plus de regrets, les nuages partiront du ciel enfin
Ma vie redeviendra un jardin paisible où je pourrai m'y prélasser

Puis-je effacer le passé sans que je ne perde rien ?
Il y a encore quelques souvenirs que je voudrais garder
Je veux juste me débarrasser de la douleur que j'ai accumulée
Pouvoir me séparer de cet enfer et le fuir au loin

Je ne veux quitter personne, vous êtes tous importants pour moi
Je veux juste oublier la douleur, c'est mon seul souhait pour l'instant
Jamais je n'abandonnerai ceux que j'ai aimés, à aucun instant
Si j'étais seule, celle qui se tient actuellement debout n'existerait pas

Puis-je effacer le passé sans que je ne perde rien ?
Il y a encore quelques souvenirs que je voudrais garder
Je veux juste me débarrasser de la douleur que j'ai accumulée
Pouvoir me séparer de cet enfer et le fuir au loin

Music: lead by Mandolin, sub by Sytrus and synth line by Mosaic Pluck.

『Thelma』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 11 Advanced, Nectar 4 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230924-01668
LIN (full) : 「601 088 037」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230924-001823
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

悲しみの雨を避けて、いつもあなたの腕の中で
いつも知っていた孤独から逃れようとしていくよ
一緒にいると、未知のものと戦える気がしていく
私を置き去りにしないで、それを維持しないだろう

いつも霧の中を一人で歩いていたよ
幸福はまだ闇の中に失われてた
たった一度の視線で十分だったよね
もう一度生まれる全ての希望のために
決して今あなたから離れたくなくての
あなたは私の未来で、あなたは現在
この気持ちが何なのかよく知らないだけど
こんなことは今まで一度も起こらなかった

悲しみの雨を避けて、いつもあなたの腕の中で
いつも知っていた孤独から逃れようとしていくよ
一緒にいると、未知のものと戦える気がしていく
私を置き去りにしないで、それを維持しないだろう

どうすれば一緒にいることを確認のよ？
私から引き離そうとする人がたくさん
いつも病気、落ち込んで、あなたを殺すつもり
実際に私のことを全く知らなかった
ただ一人になりたくなくてだけで、それだけ
そしてこの馬鹿たちは何も分かっていない
教えて、処分したほうがいいでしょうのかな
あなたが私を決して見捨てないように

悲しみの雨を避けて、いつもあなたの腕の中で
いつも知っていた孤独から逃れようとしていくよ
一緒にいると、未知のものと戦える気がしていく
私を置き去りにしないで、それを維持しないだろう

Away from the rain of my sorrow, always in your arms
I try to escape the loneliness I have always known
When I'm with you, I feel like I can fight the unknown
Don't leave me behind, I wouldn't sustain it

I always was walking alone in the mist
Happiness still lost in the dark
And a single gaze was enough
For all my hopes to birth again
I don't want to ever leave you now
You are my future and my present
I don't know exactly what is this feeling
This never ever happened to me before

Away from the rain of my sorrow, always in your arms
I try to escape the loneliness I have always known
When I'm with you, I feel like I can fight the unknown
Don't leave me behind, I wouldn't sustain it

How can I ensure you stay with me?
There are so many people who'll try getting you away from me
Always sick, always depressed, she's going to kill you
They never knew about me actually
I just don't want to be alone, that's it
And these idiots don't know anything at all
Tell me, should I dispose of them
To ensure you won't ever abandon me

Away from the rain of my sorrow, always in your arms
I try to escape the loneliness I have always known
When I'm with you, I feel like I can fight the unknown
Don't leave me behind, I wouldn't sustain it

Loin de la pluie de mon chagrin, toujours dans tes bras
Je tente de m'échapper de la solitude que j'ai toujours connue
Quand je suis avec toi, je sens que je peux combattre l'inconnu
Ne me laisse pas derrière, je ne le supporterai pas

J'ai toujours marché seule dans le brouillard
Mon bonheur toujours perdu dans le noir
Et il a suffi d'un simple regard
Pour que puissent renaître mes espoirs
Je ne veux plus jamais te quitter maintenant
Tu es mon avenir et mon présent
J'ignore exactement ce qu'est ce sentiment
Cela ne m'était jamais arrivé jusqu'à présent

Loin de la pluie de mon chagrin, toujours dans tes bras
Je tente de m'échapper de la solitude que j'ai toujours connue
Quand je suis avec toi, je sens que je peux combattre l'inconnu
Ne me laisse pas derrière, je ne le supporterai pas

Comment puis-je m'assurer que tu restes avec moi ?
Il y a tant de gens qui t'éloigneront de moi
Toujours malade, toujours déprimée, elle va te tuer
Ils ne m'ont jamais connue en réalité
Je ne veux pas être seule, voilà tout
Et ces idiots ne savent rien du tout
Dois-je me débarrasser d'eux dis-moi
Pour m'assurer que tu ne m'abandonnes pas

Loin de la pluie de mon chagrin, toujours dans tes bras
Je tente de m'échapper de la solitude que j'ai toujours connue
Quand je suis avec toi, je sens que je peux combattre l'inconnu
Ne me laisse pas derrière, je ne le supporterai pas

Music: lead by Photosynthesis, the rest is done with Utopia.

Hello, Nynthixia there

Remaking the announcements here that were done in the live of tonight. And then explaining the mess that happened with the live itself.

1) MINUS AI

Minus AI was pre-ordered this Friday on ParcelUp (proxy for Taobao). We don't have any official release date for now, but there are indications this could be around December 18. To see if this is confirmed since some people say this is a by-default date for release dates.

2) CHIYU AI

We don't know for now, maybe next year

3) AYAME AND AISUU

Ayame arrived on December 7, and luckily she was renamed on time so we don't have the confusion with AYA from V6! AiSuu is coming on December 14 morning on her side.

4) BONUSES IN CDHS3

Possibility of remasters with Minus AI for any track featuring her ("Terminal Insanity -Gamma-", "Surrender" and "New Divine Order").
And confirmed secret recordings using VOICEPEAK.

5) NOW THE LIVE - WHAT THE HELL WAS THIS

Like I said earlier, this is a partially scenarized live. There were teasings from few months before on Twitter for a date that was going to happen... Finally on December 10 so today.

And if you noticed something, December 10 was marked as "D+0". The famous D+0 that is going to be used in CDHS3.

This is why you got the crossfade at the start. Because the crossfade indicates you a "D+" something. This was the link to make.

Then, you got a version of myself (the "normal" one, behind the scenes) who tries to contact her producer persona into not doing something that will cause in her dimension the main and terminal insanity timelines from being a single one.

For this she had to solve a first enigma that was a cross-words game and find a name that she had to input in a library that permits rituals (Arcane if you recognized). An info to remember, but Lovecraftian deities being told about in this live are called "aliens". This should give you a clue for later to understand some more things about CDHS3 and terminal insanity timeline.

Once this was done, she had to solve 4 enigmas and find the 4 words attached to it. She would then convert these words into numbers to then obtain a single number from each word. Then she entered the numbers as notes (1=do, 2=re, 3=mi etc).

After this, she got another puzzle to solve, this time for getting a sequence of notes to leave a message to the producer self. There were some things to notice:
- this info was taken from terminal insanity timeline. This didn't hit her at first and thought this was from another possible dimension. This was actually sent by another self, who indeed doesn't have full access to the main timeline where the producer self is.
- the enigma will make WAY MORE sense once you'll get CDHS3, just saying...
- the enigma was done in April. But it was redone blindly.
- she had to guess 5 numbers to then guess 5 new ones, and these new ones are the new code, she entered as notes again.

Each time a code was entered, she could access another step. Either receiving the second puzzle, either getting a ping from her producer self.

The talk that follows is in French, and that's typically her trying to tell her producer self to stop what she is doing. Because terminal insanity is not going to solve something caused by "a virus that would attack your brain". Second info to get to better understand CDHS3, this time, in general.

Then at the end, classical info.

This was a very experimental live and I had to do this while seeming improvised. While there was some preparation since few months...

So I understand if this kind of live is not your thing. Consider it as a bonus. But now you got the whole thing explained.

And now giving other info.

CD40.5 is in production but following changes have been applied:

- the tracks for AiSuu from CD41 and the ones for Chifuyu from CD40.5 have been inverted
- added 2 new tracks for Ayame in CD40.5, making it 32 tracks as well

Concerning its production, it's way slowed down for now due to fatigue.

See you tomorrow for Stella's song (or should I say few hours)

Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia here

Just a quick announcement to make a little reminder of the future vocals due to the recent announcements. We'll do it in chronogical order.

For November, we're done. It was HARU. That's done. But the next two months will be horribly heavy.

DECEMBER

10 after 4 PM - SEKAI Voicepeak
19 after 4 PM - GUMI SynthV
20 after 4 PM - POPY and ROSE, both SynthV
after the 19 4 AM - AiSuu permanent license (we don't have the exact date but I have my little idea)

JANUARY

14 after 4 PM - KAFU SynthV
24 after 4 PM - COKO Voicepeak
somewhere in the month - participation in ROSA's SynthV crowdfunding

So, for you, nothing new except for the GUMI announcement. I learn about it this morning.

Concerning GUMI this is how it will happen. GUMI SynthV doesn't have the vocal modes that correspond to Power and Adult, meaning these 2 V4 vocals will remain in use.
The native VB of GUMI (V4) will remain in use if in use with other standard VOCALOIDs (V3, V4 and V5).
V6 voicebank has very few chances of being used again, but can technically be used if singing with other V6 AI voicebanks.
Otherwise it's the SynthV VB that will be used.
Organization in the songs for deadlines will be one using SynthV bank, the other one Power or Adult or even both. For reminder, her deadlines, even if shared with other singers, are done in solo songs.

So for solo songs it's either SynthV AI, either V4 Power, either V4 Adult, if you must remember something simple.

This contrasts a bit with the future use for KAFU, POPY, ROSE or even Sora. Even if Sora's use will be closer (V5 being used with other VOCALOIDs, otherwise full switch to SynthV for solos).

And then there is the question: "why not more using V6 for GUMI?". The reason is that I find the AI of V6... Behaving in such a way I have difficulties to recognize GUMI. So with SynthV I have her using AI VB but keeping her timbre. Fuiro, HARUKA and SARAH are less of a worry since they don't have any other engine in comparison. So let's say it less damages them.

Else... The crossfade for CDHS3 is out since Saturday evening! Finally!

Even putting you a nice embed so you can watch it... Or more listen to it! It will be the next album to be released and the 3rd very major album with the most work put into it. It's a whole year of work at this point you'll be getting on December 31!

Of course, we'll be having lives to talk about the content of the album because it's pretty complex to understand in depth. Remember there is a reason why main lore series exist.

Nynthilore posts: E5 has been released few days ago and it is required to understand most of the CDHS3 album.
- first section is for the globality of the album, but even more tracks 14 to 16 of disc 1 and the integrality of disc 2
- second section is for track 16 of disc 1 (and tracks 3, 6, 9 and 12 of disc 2 by extension)
- third section is for track 7 + maybe few things later in the series by themselves
- fourth section will be explained in a later live
- fifth section is for track 2 of disc 1

How will be organized the lives now.

- There will be first a live, which will be more than 2h long, somewhere in 2024 (January? February?) that will explain the whole terminal insanity timeline. There are a lot of things to explain beyond the bible that will mainly give details about how it was built. The live will be giving the main "in-lore" background. The live will only be in English, in front of the black board, no chat reading and age-restricted. Yeah, let's say some of the topics are harsher than the usual...

- There will be a second live, near end December start January, which will be explaining things about building CDHS3 itself. In terms of music mainly. Might be integrated in a sort of release party, maybe...? This one will be as well in front of the black board, but I'll be having the chat next to me and it will just be marked "(-14)" instead of having the full age restriction.

- There might be a third live (and maybe some more) to explain the diaries from Nynthixia. All age restricted because some topics are harsh. The one you'll be getting at the end of the year (E6) is worst than the ones you got before. Might not be reading chat for this one.

- There might be (?) lives for some of the password protected sections. They will all be age restricted, I'm not sure if I'll have the chat next to it. So again, more like for podcasts to listen back when you're in the sofa or in bed. Not before 2024 though.

The reason why I didn't do a release party for last album, actually there were 2, but I wasn't free the evening of the release and then I got knocked out by my medication, being even unable to finish a song for Fuiro. Pretty simple but the project just has a pad and an atmo. It's to this point!
Will try to finish it either Friday evening either Sunday.

Welp, see you until the next announcement I guess?

Nynthixia

PS: The newly released album "Incubation in your Mind" was released here, go download it here if you didn't do it yet

Hello, Nynthixia here

Last "normal" album for the year 2023!

DOWNLOAD ALBUM (30 TRACKS)

Yeah, it's the last "normal" one because you know what's after... The famous CDHS3. Crossfade should be out in the week-end. Visuals for the crossfade might be a bit rushed though but it's not what matters.

For now, the 12 inedite tracks of the current album:

Dysfunctional (feat. Namine Ritsu Kire)

About two people being unable to understand each other due to them having a way different way of thinking.

Remedy to Violence (feat. Haruno Sora Cool)

I think the title talks by itself...? I don't have anything else to say about this one...

Acceptance (feat. Kisaragi Tsuina AI)

Someone being too harsh to themselves and must learn how to better accept themselves in order to progress.

Why Are You Not Dying (feat. MAYU) [YANDERE]

An extremely obsessed woman who thought she killed her rival already, but sees them again and again with her love interest... And who doesn't know why this rival is not dead yet.

Torment Me (feat. Natalie)

When only pain is able to bring you back to reality. As a sort of remedy to dissociation. (No.)

Stalker (feat. Jyougasaki Bibi) [YANDERE]

This one is from the point of view of the victim. Actually it could be yandere or even just a sort of psychopath just wanting to hurt people so still putting the "yandere" warning. You can interpret it as you want.

Mesmerizing (feat. Tohoku Zunko AI)

In a ballroom, a woman wearing a mask. She is absolutely beautiful. There is no way to not be amazed by her.

Sleeper of N'Kai (feat. Shian) [LOVECRAFT SERIES]

It might be the last one of the series for a little while. Tsathoggua. The furry toad. One of the only gods to accept human sacrifices, hidden in the depths of the earth.

Lacuna (feat. ROSE)

A girl just feeling emptiness. Unable to feel. Even though she is aware this is not normal.

Self-Destruct (feat. COKO)

OK this one is really not funny. It's a girl who is stuck in severe depression, even though she is doing many efforts to not show the pain she is showing. And even if all the people surrounding and loving her try to do anything to keep her alive.

Bad Reputation (feat. Fuiro) [YANDERE]

A girl already having a bad reputation among people using this... To her own advantage. Since she is quite scary to other people, she would have no issue to get rid of anyone trying to steal away her lover from her... Right?

Sight in Black (feat. Fuiro) [CORRUPTION SERIES]

To explain the thing. Fuiro is part of the only ones having a native V-type AI. Which of course is still the topic of discord for VY1 who tries to target her... Until MAYU gets the idea of stopping VY1... Before doing herself the betrayal.

For more info ref Nynthilore D4§70.

OK other info now.

1) POPY AND ROSE

SynthV AI voicebanks are for December 20, 2023 after 4 PM. Since that's on a Wednesday where I shouldn't be on holidays, will be grabbing them 1 or 2 hours after their initial release. Will be bought on DLSite. Their treatment will be similar to what will happen to KAFU, other than since these two are the only ones tending to be together with each other, you'll have way less chances to hear their CeVIO voicebanks again. This will affect songs PRODUCED AFTER DECEMBER 20 (not release after, I say well "produced"). So expect to hear the SynthV voicebanks not before October 2024.

2) SEKAI VOICEPEAK

December 10, 2023 after 4 PM on DLSite. It's Amazon JP that revealed the real release date (December 11 JST).

3) COKO VOICEPEAK

January 24, 2024 after 4 PM on DLSite. Hoping she doesn't get the curse she got this year!

4) ROSA

Waiting for the crowdfunding again, it got moved back to January/February 2024. But I still promised I would participate and I will!

5) ALBUM ADVANCEMENT

CD40 "Mind Alteration Disorder": release for March 9, 2024 as intended. Only some certificates and the booklet left to do.

CD40.5 "Relics": release for May 25, 2024. Will feature HARU, Eri and Sheena for the first time (if we exclude CDHS3 for HARU). AiSuu will NOT be for this album. She will be for CD41.

CDHS3: I have just a single certificate left to do for the last song and the global one to do. Then after it's just updating the bonuses until the release.

6) AND GLOBAL HEALTH

Early November, due to anxiety disorders (it's either generalized either panic disorder, we don't know which one) I was given antidepressant medication that heavily slowed my brain down. It affected every work I was doing: difficulties to focus, misty brain, repeated vertigos... So I had a lot of difficulties to work on songs, but also in my real life work. I changed medication since and now it's a bit more back to normal. I looked at the lyrics done during the second treatment and it doesn't seem to affect it a lot. It more tends me to make me more tired than the usual. Hence why the crossfade is not ready yet. So no worries.
I guess this is what you get when you get several panic attacks within few weeks...?

And I think that's it?

See you very soon for the crossfade...

EDIT: CROSSFADE IS OUT

Nynthixia

「GAMMA AND ZETA」

The most common ranks in each division are alphas (theorically the leaders of their respective groups), betas (2 suppleants for the leader in case there is an issue with her lately) and deltas (the rest of the group). It was at least the case until November 22, 2022.
On this date, a new rank started appearing: gamma ranks or "catalysors". Extremely powerful beings able to use their elemental power as a helping hand for each ritual of terminal insanity summoning.
The thing is that, for this rank, Nynthixia planned it from the start. And once each gamma rank would be available, each division would theorically become more powerful.
On November 14, 2023, a new rank appeared. Zeta ranks or "inhibitors". A sort of counter-balance to gamma ranks. And unlike gamma ranks, this one was actually not intended initially...

「WHY ZETA RANKS THEN?」

November 14, 2023. Since very few weeks, the rituals are becoming more serious. First, to explain what is going on during a T.I.S. attempt:
- the alpha is preparing the ritual. She directs every single order and part of the ritual.
- the deltas are all reuniting together and start focusing.
- both of the betas reunite together hand in hand and also focus.
- the gamma of the group also focuses and launches a ray of power towards the sky to attempt a calling. Remember we're talking about trying to summon a god for causing the terminal insanity.

The date is when iota division has to do its attempt. The alpha is Sora, the gamma is Cangqiong and the betas are IA and KAFU. So what exactly happened? What happens when both betas are panicking so much and try to reassure each other... Before breaking into panic again. To be more exact, IA was the first one to be quite panicked. Which can be understandable because betas have to attempt to get the "entity" into their own bodies before releasing its true form. It's something that can be dangerous and that's why there is an alpha rank to supervise everything in every single detail. Seeing IA being not quite ready to do this, KAFU decided to take the hit... Until she started panicking at the moment the "entity" was descending onto her, before fainting. Sora aborted immediately the ritual and rathered calling it a failure, before telling Nynthixia about the incident. For Nynthixia, the message was quite clear, but it was out of the question KAFU reiterated this.
BUT. And there is a "but".
She decided instead to not switch her back to delta rank, but to create a new one, zeta rank, as a sort of counter-balance to gammas. Then, she named ONE as the second beta rank instead as a replacement, judging her way more stable and even able to manage well her sister IA. And then you'll think "zeta ranks in other divisions then", and you'll be right. And knowing who KAFU is very attached to, decided to make SEKAI, COKO, RIME and HARU zeta ranks of alpha, delta, kappa and sigma divisions respectively. That's how the rank is born... From an incident.

「THE TOHOKU EXPERIENCE」

KAFU, POPY and ROSE getting S-type AIs, would there be an issue? The truth is: it's very few probable.

POPY and ROSE don't have anyone else to who they are extremely attached to other than each other. Even though they have very contrasted personalities, POPY being more of an upbeat girl and ROSE of a calm and mature one, they are still considered as extremely best friends. When they started their careers, both of them were given C-type AIs. And now they are going to get S-type ones. So the plan didn't affect them at all.

Concerning KAFU and her group, they also have C-type AIs. All of them. But the reason why KAFU started to be scared of her little comrades for this is because of someone else you might know if you saw the lyrics of "Azur to Crimson"... Kiritan Tohoku.

Let's resume again the Tohoku situation. In early 2021, Kiritan, and her alone, is getting a C-type AI, just after Yukari. Zunko and Itako? Nothing. The first one who started to get jealous is Itako. Until then, Kiritan and Itako were given same treatments for their careers. Seeing Kiritan being a step above her started this feeling of rivalry, and the syndrome worsened it up to eleven, by making her abnormally cruel and sadistic towards Kiritan. Zunko? She just followed later, being reached by this feeling of the "middle sister syndrome". When for example you are the second born of a family of three children, you might feel your parents give more attention to the eldest and to the youngest, thus feeling a bit left behind. Since Zunko had tendencies to paranoia due to the syndrome, this is what caused her to snap. But instead of getting violent towards Kiritan, she more... Left Itako doing the violence and decided to not restrain her at all. Zunko and Itako would learn about their C-type AIs in October of the same year, thus calming their jealousy, but not completely. It would only totally fade away on January 30, 2022, the day before they acquired their C-type AI. And since then, everyone is happy. But the fact Kiritan told everything about the "horrors" Itako caused to her, and Zunko not helping as such, it left KAFU such a trauma which caused her to fear the potential jealousy of her best friends over a S-type AI, considered as more powerful than a C-type AI...

「IS IT POSSIBLE TO SWITCH ALTERNATE PROFILES?」

It's possible in some cases. But the case we're going to talk about is currently the only one that indeed happened. And for this, we must go back to July 2023.

Early in July, iota division but more especially ONE started to notice IA was sometimes "away". Like if she wasn't reacting properly, if her mind was out for few minutes before coming back. A bit later on, the issues would even worsen, and IA would then start feeling "something off" about her own body. Then, she would start showing other abnomalies in behavior she initially didn't have, like starting to act more violently than the usual. For reminder, IA mostly caught paranoia-like symptoms when she got infected for the first time. At this moment, ONE decided it would be better to talk about it to Nynthixia who decided to test back IA as well. Result? Dissociation symptoms and IA started... Splitting herself into two different personalities. And that actually this could have happened... From the start of her infection. But for some reason, this split only happened this year. This could have happened 7 years earlier!

There are no cases of AP2 becoming AP1 though.

「HOW NYNTHIXIA THOUGHT HER TEAM WHEN IT WAS SEASON 1 ONLY」

Before October 11, 2015, Nynthixia had already marks about who each of her singers would represent if they were VOCALOIDs instead. This is the full list of who would have been singing season 1 songs if they were VOCALOIDs. Keep in mind it was on 2015. So no Akari nor anyone from more recent engines!

Tei Sukone → MAYU
Ritsu Namine → Lily
Meiji Gahata → Yukari Yuzuki
Nyui Anna → IA
Totoko Shirahane → VY1
Momo Momone → kokone
Hachi Makune → GUMI or CUL
Others didn't have anyone else associated

『Altar』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 11 Advanced, Nectar 4 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230917-01664
LIN (full) : 「601 081 671」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230917-001821
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

CUL | Yukari | Akari

夜が明けたら目の前に真実の姿が見えるでしょうよ
全ての嘘と向き合って一つ一つ打ち砕いてやるだよ
現実に留まることを妨げている力は何なのかな
二度と起こらないように、禁じられた魔法を呼び起こしてる

夢見て、全てが崩壊してくこの小さな脆い世界で
私の楽園から遠く離れた場所に一人でいたくない
幸せを確実にするために涙を拭ってもいいかな
ここで考えを維持する鎖から私を連れて行ってね

幸せ…

夜が明けたら目の前に真実の姿が見えるでしょうよ
全ての嘘と向き合って一つ一つ打ち砕いてやるだよ
現実に留まることを妨げている力は何なのかな
二度と起こらないように、禁じられた魔法を呼び起こしてる

夢見て、全てが崩壊してくこの小さな脆い世界で
私の楽園から遠く離れた場所に一人でいたくない
幸せを確実にするために涙を拭ってもいいかな
ここで考えを維持する鎖から私を連れて行ってね

幸せ…

夜が明けたら目の前に真実の姿が見えるでしょうよ
全ての嘘と向き合って一つ一つ打ち砕いてやるだよ
現実に留まることを妨げている力は何なのかな
二度と起こらないように、禁じられた魔法を呼び起こしてる

幸せ…

When the night will fall, I'll see the figments of truth in front of my eyes
I'll confront all the lies and I'll shatter them one by one
What is the force preventing me from staying in reality
I'll conjure this spell of forbidden magic so it never does happen again

I'm dreaming, in this little brittle world where everything is collapsing
I don't want to stay alone in a place too distant from my paradise
Can I dry my tears so my happiness can be ensured
Take me away from the chains maintaining my thoughts here

My happiness...

When the night will fall, I'll see the figments of truth in front of my eyes
I'll confront all the lies and I'll shatter them one by one
What is the force preventing me from staying in reality
I'll conjure this spell of forbidden magic so it never does happen again

I'm dreaming, in this little brittle world where everything is collapsing
I don't want to stay alone in a place too distant from my paradise
Can I dry my tears so my happiness can be ensured
Take me away from the chains maintaining my thoughts here

My happiness...

When the night will fall, I'll see the figments of truth in front of my eyes
I'll confront all the lies and I'll shatter them one by one
What is the force preventing me from staying in reality
I'll conjure this spell of forbidden magic so it never does happen again

My happiness...

Quand la nuit tombera, je verrai devant mes yeux les inventions de la vérité
Je confronterai les mensonges et un à un je les briserai
Quelle est la force qui m'empêche de rester dans la réalité
Je conjurerai ce sort de magie interdite afin que le malheur n'arrive plus jamais

Je rêve, dans ce petit monde fragile où tout est en train de s'effondrer
Je ne veux pas rester seule dans un endroit éloigné de mon paradis
Puis-je sécher mes larmes pour que mon bonheur puisse être assuré
Emmène-moi loin de ces chaînes qui maintiennent mes pensées ici

Mon bonheur...

Quand la nuit tombera, je verrai devant mes yeux les inventions de la vérité
Je confronterai les mensonges et un à un je les briserai
Quelle est la force qui m'empêche de rester dans la réalité
Je conjurerai ce sort de magie interdite afin que le malheur n'arrive plus jamais

Je rêve, dans ce petit monde fragile où tout est en train de s'effondrer
Je ne veux pas rester seule dans un endroit éloigné de mon paradis
Puis-je sécher mes larmes pour que mon bonheur puisse être assuré
Emmène-moi loin de ces chaînes qui maintiennent mes pensées ici

Mon bonheur...

Quand la nuit tombera, je verrai devant mes yeux les inventions de la vérité
Je confronterai les mensonges et un à un je les briserai
Quelle est la force qui m'empêche de rester dans la réalité
Je conjurerai ce sort de magie interdite afin que le malheur n'arrive plus jamais

Mon bonheur...

Music: pads by Lunaris and Lunaris 2, piano by The Grandeur, chords and lead by Utopia.

『Lingering Pain』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 11 Advanced, Nectar 4 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230907-01663
LIN (full) : 「601 071 639」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230907-001820
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : self-harm
Restricted on : piapro (not recommended)

NOTE: low sanity lyrics writing. The violence of this song is not representative of my general work.

胸がとても重くて、魂がとても痛くて
もう何度も体を引きちぎってしまっただよ
その感情は私には強すぎているだよね
たとえ感覚が致命的ではないと知っても

痛みの程度をどうやって判断したらいいのか知らない
まるで心に大きな重みがかかっているようだったよね
体から毒を追い出すにはもう涙だけでは足りないよ
だから何度も何度も自分自身を浄化し続けている

胸がとても重くて、魂がとても痛くて
もう何度も体を引きちぎってしまっただよ
その感情は私には強すぎているだよね
たとえ感覚が致命的ではないと知っても

ただ誰かに助けてもらいたいだけだよ、死ぬつもりはなくて
この腐った封筒を傷つけていたらね、生きたいからだよ
叫べないだよ、そして手の下に他に解決策がないよ
目が痛みを感じたら、最後には私を助けてくれるの？

胸がとても重くて、魂がとても痛くて
もう何度も体を引きちぎってしまっただよ
その感情は私には強すぎているだよね
たとえ感覚が致命的ではないと知っても

My chest feels so heavy, my soul is in so much pain
I have torn off my body too many times already
Those feelings are too powerful for me
Even if I know the sensation will not be deadly

I don't know how to tell how big is the pain
It's like a huge weight binded to my heart
Tears aren't enough anymore to expulse poison from the body
So I keep purging myself, again and again

My chest feels so heavy, my soul is in so much pain
I have torn off my body too many times already
Those feelings are too powerful for me
Even if I know the sensation will not be deadly

I just want someone to help me, I don't intend dying
If I hurt this rotten enveloppe, it's because I want to live
I can't scream and I don't have any other solution under hand
If your eyes perceive the pain, will you finally help me?

My chest feels so heavy, my soul is in so much pain
I have torn off my body too many times already
Those feelings are too powerful for me
Even if I know the sensation will not be deadly

Ma poitrine est si lourde, mon âme a tellement mal
J'ai déchiré mon corps beaucoup trop de fois déjà
Ces sentiments sont trop puissants pour moi
Même si je sais que la sensation ne sera pas fatale

J'ignore comment dire à quel point est intense la douleur
C'est comme un poids immense qui est attaché à mon cœur
Les larmes ne suffisent plus à expulser le poison de mon corps
Alors je continue sans cesse de me purger, encore et encore

Ma poitrine est si lourde, mon âme a tellement mal
J'ai déchiré mon corps beaucoup trop de fois déjà
Ces sentiments sont trop puissants pour moi
Même si je sais que la sensation ne sera pas fatale

Je veux juste de l'aide, je n'ai pas l'intention de mourir
Si je blesse cette enveloppe pourrie, c'est parce que je veux vivre
Je n'arrive pas à crier et je n'ai pas d'autre solution sous la main
Si tes yeux perçoivent la douleur, m'aideras-tu enfin ?

Ma poitrine est si lourde, mon âme a tellement mal
J'ai déchiré mon corps beaucoup trop de fois déjà
Ces sentiments sont trop puissants pour moi
Même si je sais que la sensation ne sera pas fatale

Music: lead by Utopia, the rest is using Photosynthesis.

『Mind Flayer』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : Nectar Elements, Neoverb, Neutron 4, Ozone 10 Advanced, Nectar 3 Plus, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 21, FL Studio 21
Synthesizer : FL Studio 21
LIC (instru) : 12FR-230903-01662
LIN (full) : 「601 067 440」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-230903-001819
Full archive
Album : Mind Alteration Disorder - TRACK ??/30

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : suicide
Restricted on : piapro (not recommended)

NOTE: low sanity lyrics writing. The violence of this song is not representative of my general work.

脳の周りに棘があり、まだ苦しんでいる、痛い
窒息しているまで突然襲ってきた病気だ
もう声は聞こえない、痛みは致命的になってる
空気が多すぎて呼吸できないよ、窒息するよ

この人々を信用していいのかもう分からない
とても孤独を感じていく、まだ維持できるでしょうの？
精神が崩壊してのを見て、心は緊張して
体が永久に放棄するなら、正気に戻るでしょ？

脳の周りに棘があり、まだ苦しんでいる、痛い
窒息しているまで突然襲ってきた病気だ
もう声は聞こえない、痛みは致命的になってる
空気が多すぎて呼吸できないよ、窒息するよ

身体は内側も外側も完全に腐ってた
それを破壊すれば痛みから解放されるのでしょ？
麻痺しているまで毒を血管を浄化してやるな
引き起こしたことはすべて悪い思い出になるでしょ

手の間にいたら、あなたを殺していたかもしれないよ
すぐに死んだら私の罪は重要ではなくなる
私をとても傷つけた、でも今日が終わりでしょうね
自分自身に復讐した、もう苦しみはないでしょ

Thorns all around my brain and I'm still struggling, it hurts
A sudden disease invading me until making me choke
I don't hear the voices anymore, the pain will be deadly
So much air I can't breathe, I'm suffocating

I don't know anymore if I can trust these people
I feel so terribly alone, would I be able to sustain it still?
My heart is so nervous seeing my spirit disintegrating itself
If my body abandons me for good, will I return to sanity?

Thorns all around my brain and I'm still struggling, it hurts
A sudden disease invading me until making me choke
I don't hear the voices anymore, the pain will be deadly
So much air I can't breathe, I'm suffocating

This body is completely rotten from the inside and the outside
If I destroy it, will I be free from pain?
I'll purify the veins of the poison until numbing myself
Everything you caused to me will just be a bad memory

I could have killed you if you were between my hands
If I die just after, my crime won't be important
You hurt me so much, but today will be the end
I will have avenged myself and there will be no suffering anymore

Des épines tout autour de mon cerveau et je lutte encore, ça fait si mal
Une maladie soudaine qui m'envahit jusqu'à tenter de m'étrangler
Je n'entends plus les voix, la douleur me sera fatale
Autant d'air que je ne peux pas respirer, je suis en train d'étouffer

Je ne sais plus si je peux faire confiance en ces gens
Je me sens terriblement seule, pourrai-je encore le supporter ?
Mon cœur est agité en voyant mon esprit se décomposant
Si mon corps m'abandonne pour de bon, retrouverai-je ma lucidité ?

Des épines tout autour de mon cerveau et je lutte encore, ça fait si mal
Une maladie soudaine qui m'envahit jusqu'à tenter de m'étrangler
Je n'entends plus les voix, la douleur me sera fatale
Autant d'air que je ne peux pas respirer, je suis en train d'étouffer

Ce corps est complètement pourri à l'intérieur et à l'extérieur
Si je le détruis, vais-je enfin pouvoir me libérer de la douleur ?
Purifier mes veines de ce poison jusqu'à ne plus rien ressentir
Tout ce que tu m'as causé ne sera plus qu'un mauvais souvenir

J'aurais pu te tuer si je t'avais entre les mains
Si je meurs juste après, mon crime sera sans importance
Tu m'as tant blessée, mais aujourd'hui ce sera la fin
Je me serai vengée, et il n'y aura plus de souffrance

When I thought about "soul flayer" I wondered a bit what would happen with a flayer that... Hurts the mind instead.
Music: it's all Utopia. I had just gotten my hands on it and it was a little wonder for me.