『Murdering Passions』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170629-00572
LIN (full) : 「598 685 114」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170630-000698
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 10/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

あなたを忘れたい、これらの別れの言葉からこの痛みを忘れる
思い出はいつも戻っている、深い傷が心に届きた
幸せにならないならば、この残酷な運命を受け入れることはできない
この燃える気持ちには弱いので、もう一度希望を見つけたい

長い間、あなたがどうやって傷つけることができたのか疑問に思った
できるだけ良く見えるようにすることによって、あまりにも遠くに行った場合
どこで失敗したのか、何をしたのか分からない
あなたが説明すると思ったが、この悩ましい質問に答えを得ていない

あなたを忘れたい、これらの別れの言葉からこの痛みを忘れる
思い出はいつも戻っている、深い傷が心に届きた
幸せにならないならば、この残酷な運命を受け入れることはできない
この燃える気持ちには弱いので、もう一度希望を見つけたい

それから全てを忘れようとすればもっと良いと思った
それは既に手遅れだった痛みとあなたの欠席はすでに耐え難いでした
これらの思い出に気づいて、いつもあなたをもう一度見ないことを恐れる
あなたがこれらの気持ちを受け入れるならば、おそらくこの悲しみは消えるでしょう

希望は全て破壊されたが、私はまだこの炎を内部に感じている
この激しい愛を否定しようとしたが、もはや力がありません
あなたの暖かさをもう一度私の腕の中で感じたかった
私たちが一緒にいる場合でも、なぜあなたの体の寒さを感じることができるの？

I want to forget you, forget this pain from these farewell words
Memories are always coming back, a deep wound reached the heart
I just can't accept this cruel fate, if I can't be happy
I'm so weak against this burning feeling, I want to find again some hope

During a long moment I wondered how I was able to hurt you
If I was gone too far by trying to seem as nice as possible
I don't understand where I failed, what mistake I have done
I thought you would explain, but I got no answer to this tormenting question

I want to forget you, forget this pain from these farewell words
Memories are always coming back, a deep wound reached the heart
I just can't accept this cruel fate, if I can't be happy
I'm so weak against this burning feeling, I want to find again some hope

Then I thought that it would be better if I tried to forget everything
It was already too late, the pain and your absences were already unbearable
Haunted by these memories, always afraid to never see you again
If you accept these feelings, maybe this sorrow will disappear

Hopes were all destroyed, but I still feel this flame inside
I even tried to deny this intense love, but I don't have the strength anymore
I wanted to feel your warmth once again in my arms
Even if we are together, why can I feel coldness in your body?

Je veux t'oublier, oublier cette douleur de tes mots de fin
Une large blessure a lanciné mon cœur, ravivant sans cesse ma mémoire
Si je ne peux être heureuse, je ne peux accepter ce cruel destin
Je suis tellement faible face à ce sentiment brûlant, je veux retrouver un peu d'espoir

Pendant un long moment je me suis demandée comment ai-je pu te blesser
Si je suis allée trop loin en essayant juste d'être aussi gentille que je ne le pouvais
Je ne comprends où j'ai pu échouer, quelle erreur j'ai effectuée
J'ai pensé que tu m'expliquerais, mais de cette question me torturant aucune réponse n'avait été donnée

Je veux t'oublier, oublier cette douleur de tes mots de fin
Une large blessure a lanciné mon cœur, ravivant sans cesse ma mémoire
Si je ne peux être heureuse, je ne peux accepter ce cruel destin
Je suis tellement faible face à ce sentiment brûlant, je veux retrouver un peu d'espoir

Alors j'ai pensé que le mieux serait de tout oublier
Mais tes absences et la douleur m'étaient déjà difficiles à supporter, il était trop tard
Hantée par ces souvenirs, j'avais toujours aussi peur de ne jamais te revoir
Si tu acceptes ces sentiments, peut-être que ce chagrin disparaîtra à jamais

Mes espoirs ont tous été détruits, mais je ressens encore cette flamme en moi brûler
J'ai même essayé de refuser cet amour intense, mais je n'ai plus la force pour lutter
Je voulais juste dans mes bras ressentir ta chaleur encore une fois
Même si nous sommes ensemble, pourquoi ton corps est-il toujours aussi froid ?

Story: If it's not clear... Yeah, the lover has been killed. Just because love can drive some people crazy. The song can be considered as yandere, even if there's no rival, it's still the story of "you don't accept my feelings, then I'll force you to be mine forever". So even if there was a rival, he would be killed as well I guess.
Title: It could be some bad hand made translation from French, but there is a double meaning: "murderer passions" because love is the worst poison ever (you know it very well) and "murdering the passions" in the sense the heroine tries to ignore her love, but she can't.
Music: pluck by both Toxic Biohazard (made the first pad with it as well) and Xpand!2, lead by GMS, second pad by Sawer.

『Deadly Candle』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170626-00571
LIN (full) : 「598 683 377」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170627-000697
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 5/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

蝋燭を持っている間、この恐ろしい闇の中であなたに連絡したい
あなたはいつも自分にもっと信頼するように言った
もう先に進むことができない、痛みはこれまで以上に集中的に燃えている
他の気持ちがなくなるまで私の考えを灰に変える愛

私の幸せを消していたこの不在からあまりにも苦しんだ
以前の感情を和らげたこの温かい感覚は耐え難きになった
絶望の端に、この人生がもう意味を持たないと感じたとき
苦闘は困難になった、少しの希望を保つためにあなたの力が必要です

蝋燭を持っている間、この恐ろしい闇の中であなたに連絡したい
あなたはいつも自分にもっと信頼するように言った
もう先に進むことができない、痛みはこれまで以上に集中的に燃えている
他の気持ちがなくなるまで私の考えを灰に変える愛

この愛がいつか私を傷つけるだろうと分かっていた
甘くて穏やかなあなたの言葉、それらをたくさん恋しい
ついに、この痛みを私の胸の中で燃え尽きさせる方法がありますよね？
暗闇と悲しみの中で永遠に飲み込まれる前に

I want to reach you in this scaring darkness while holding the candle
You always told me to more trust myself
I just can't go forward anymore, the pain is more intensively burning than ever
A love turning my thoughts into ashes until the disappearance of any other feeling

I suffered too much from this absence that was erasing my happiness
This warm sensation that appeased former feelings became unbearable
At the edge of the despair, when I felt that this life had no meaning anymore
Struggling became difficult, I need your strength to keep a bit of hope

I want to reach you in this scaring darkness while holding the candle
You always told me to more trust myself
I just can't go forward anymore, the pain is more intensively burning than ever
A love turning my thoughts into ashes until the disappearance of any other feeling

I knew that this love was going to hurt me someday
Your words that sounded sweet and calm, I miss them a lot
There is a way to finally get rid of this pain burning in my chest, right?
Before I get swallowed alone in the darkness and the sorrow forever

Je veux t'atteindre dans ces ténèbres effrayantes en tenant ma bougie
Tu m'as toujours dit d'avoir plus de confiance en moi
Je ne peux plus avancer, la douleur brûle plus intensément que jamais en moi
Un amour transformant mes pensées en cendres jusqu'à ce tout autre sentiment se soit évanoui

J'ai trop souffert de cette absence qui effaçait mon bonheur
Cette tiède sensation qui apaisait d'anciens sentiments est devenue difficile à supporter
Au bord du désespoir, quand j'ai senti que ma vie n'avait plus de signification désormais
Se battre est devenu difficile, j'ai besoin de ta force pour garder un peu d'espoir dans mon cœur

Je veux t'atteindre dans ces ténèbres effrayantes en tenant ma bougie
Tu m'as toujours dit d'avoir plus de confiance en moi
Je ne peux plus avancer, la douleur brûle plus intensément que jamais en moi
Un amour transformant mes pensées en cendres jusqu'à ce tout autre sentiment se soit évanoui

Je savais que cet amour allait un jour me blesser
Tes mots qui sonnaient si doux et calmes, ils me manquent horriblement
Il y a un moyen de finalement se débarrasser de cette douleur dans la poitrine, pas vrai ?
Avant d'être engloutie seule dans les ténèbres et le chagrin éternellement

Just a simple tragedy and I let you imagine the possible end.
Music: first lead and pad by Sakura, second lead by Transistor Bass, long lead by Sawer, filtered synth by Harmor. Used also Sytrus for the hard kicks.
flp info : this project has to be opened with FL 12.4.2 b33 or higher (requires Fruity Delay 3 and Transistor Bass).

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Well, finally managed to finish the August tracklist. There will be some scheduled tracks, and normally, everything should be produced during July and until mid-August.

This is the tracklist (and the album title):

CD15 - Necrosis - air date: August 26th 2017 (Sat.) 12:00 AM (Paris time) / 7:00 AM (Japan time)

01. Mandragora (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-) -> scheduled to AUGUST 4TH
02. Love Wounds (feat. Shirahane Totoko) -> scheduled to JULY 10TH
03. Infamous Betrayal (feat. Anna Nyui -raw-) -> will be produced during July
04. Back from Madness (feat. Hoshine Stella)
05. Iphigenia (feat. Hoshine Stella)
06. Latent Thoughts (feat. Hoshine Stella)
07. Re;Verse (feat. MAYU) -> will be produced during July
08. JIMENIA (feat. CUL)
09. Hester (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
10. Damaris (feat. Lily)
11. Isabela (feat. GUMI, Tohoku Zunko)
12. NANZIA (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)

Reminder: the reason I don't air the Meiji's birthday song on August 8th is because I'll be offline on this date, and the 4th is the closest date where I'll still be online.

For the songs "Re;Verse" and "Infamous Betrayal", I'll explain why I already say they will be for July:

"Re;Verse", like I said in a previous post, will be a modified derivative from a CHARON game ("Full Bokko Youchien") that already has a first translation in English, making it easier to understand to me. Compared to the tracks that will be derivated from the other recent CHARON game, I have more advance in the story and will do the song prioritary to the other ones.

"Infamous Betrayal" will be aired in July because of a physical limitation. For VCV voicebanks such as Itako or Nyui, I have to use a computer that can't be moved (it's not like my working laptop that I can bring with me everywhere, like this I can work wherever I want and whenever I want!) and that is at home. During the offline week and the week after this one (Aug 5th -> Aug 19th), I won't be able to work on songs featuring VCV voicebanks. Since in July I stay at home, I can easily work on songs for Nyui or Itako. Hence the decision.

As for the July album, this is a recap of what has to be done:

This week: "Deadly Candle"* (<- instru is done) then "Murdering Passions"* (definitive order, I can't give any dates though)
Next week (not on July 6th, 8th or 9th): "Encounter", "Red Raspberry", "ROSAPINA"* (order can change)
* possibly not for all audiences.

That will make the song with Totoko... The first one of the CD15 to be aired as a demo?

Also remember that on July 6th the cover of "Ref-Rain" with Yukari -Lin- will be aired on MQube!

Enjoy!
Nynthixia

『Can't Trust』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170624-00570
LIN (full) : 「598 680 216」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170625-000696
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 1/15

Rating : Questionnable - Q
Not recommended for people under... : 10
Reason : possible confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

 

この決定のためになされた約束はもはや立たないでしょう
精神を傷つけ、疑問に満ちた考えはちょうど残っている
あなたを信頼できると思ったが、これはひどい間違いであることが判明した
あなたの意図が良いかどうかまだ分からない

誰もがお互いを信じることはできるの？ それは簡単に見えるの？
誰もが望むように利他的であれば、おそらく希望があるだろう
ある人はお互いに信頼したい、他の人はもっと利己的に考える
善意を持ちたいが、彼らはこの願いを受け入れるだろうか？

誰も何も尋ねなかった、この拷問さえしなかった
裏切りは彼女に耐え忍ぶためにはあまりにも苦痛があるようです
目は無慈悲な気持ちで満たされた、ある種の慈悲に訴える
彼女が実際に欲しかったのは、私たちを信じることだけでした

誰もがお互いを信じることはできるの？ それは簡単に見えるの？
誰もが望むように利他的であれば、おそらく希望があるだろう
ある人はお互いに信頼したい、他の人はもっと利己的に考える
善意を持ちたいが、彼らはこの願いを受け入れるだろうか？

Promises that were made won't stand anymore because of this decision
Wounding the spirits, thoughts filled with doubt are just remaining
I thought I could trust you, but this revealed to be an awful mistake
I still can't know if your intentions are good or not

Can everyone confide each other? Would it would seem easy?
If everyone would be as altruistic as I want, maybe there would be a hope
Some want to trust each other, others think with more selfishness
I want to have a good faith, but will they accept this wish?

Nobody asked for anything, not even this torture
Betrayal seems too much painful for being bearable for her
Eyes filled with an innocent feeling, pleading for some mercy
The only thing she actually wanted was to believe in us

Can everyone confide each other? Would it would seem easy?
If everyone would be as altruistic as I want, maybe there would be a hope
Some want to trust each other, others think with more selfishness
I want to have a good faith, but will they accept this wish?

Les promesses qui ont été faites ne tiennent plus à cause de cette décision
Blessant les esprits, les pensées remplies du doute qui est resté
J'ai cru que je pouvais te faire confiance, mais c'était une erreur de m'allier
Je ne sais toujours pas si tu es plein de pleines intentions

Est-ce que tout le monde peut se croire l'un l'autre ? Ou est-ce trop simple en réalité ?
Si tout le monde était aussi altruiste que je le souhaits, un espoir existerait
Certains veulent faire confiance, d'autres n'agissent que par leurs pensées
Je veux avoir une bonne foi, mais accepteront-ils ce souhait ?

Même cette torture, personne n'a rien demandé
La trahison semble trop pénible pour qu'elle puisse la supporter
Les yeux remplis d'un sentiment innocent, supplie pour obtenir un peu de pitié
La seule chose qu'elle voulait était de croire en nous en réalité

Est-ce que tout le monde peut se croire l'un l'autre ? Ou est-ce trop simple en réalité ?
Si tout le monde était aussi altruiste que je le souhaits, un espoir existerait
Certains veulent faire confiance, d'autres n'agissent que par leurs pensées
Je veux avoir une bonne foi, mais accepteront-ils ce souhait ?

8 years of GUMI, wow... Happy birthday to GUMI!
Story: can't reveal it because too many spoilers, but all I can say is that it's globally inspired by "Virtue's Last Reward". If you have played this game, you would see who I am refering at each part of the song.
Music: lead synth by Toxic Biohazard, supersaw synth by Xpand!2, pad (strings and gated pad, this is the same preset) by PoiZone.
The project uses Fruity Delay 3 and has to be opened with FL 12.4.2 b33 or a more recent version.

『Never Tell Them』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170621-00569
LIN (full) : 「598 677 216」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170622-000695
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 4/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

明らかにできなかった重い秘密は、深い考えに隠された
誰も傷つけたくない、後悔はあまりにも強力なものになるだろう
彼らの顔に流れている涙が毎晩私を傷つけていた
ちょっと謝罪しなければならなったが、おそらくそれらを拒否するでしょう

あなたの考えについて、両方についてあまりにも多くのことを知った
お互いに気遣う、この怒りは全てを燃やすまで成長する
あなたが私に優しい間、これらの感情を理解しないでした
羽は翼から落ちているが、他に何も残っていない

明らかにできなかった重い秘密は、深い考えに隠された
誰も傷つけたくない、後悔はあまりにも強力なものになるだろう
彼らの顔に流れている涙が毎晩私を傷つけていた
ちょっと謝罪しなければならなったが、おそらくそれらを拒否するでしょう

純真が崩壊したばかりの瞬間に、痛みが浸透し始めた
恐怖は無視するには強すぎて、まだ理解していないでした
突然強い空虚感、何かが世界から消えてしまったの？
あなたの笑顔をもう一度見たいと思ったが、私の目の前で暗闇が見えた

受け入れようとした気持ちを決めなければならないことを覚えている
時間はすでに思ったより速く離れた、恐怖は激しい痛みになった
もしあなたが良心を失うまでお互いに戦ったら、私のためでしたの？
あなたをどれほど愛していたかを伝える勇気はなかった...

A heavy secret that I couldn't reveal, hidden in deep thoughts
I didn't want to hurt anybody, the regrets would be too powerful
The tears flowing on their faces were haunting me every night
I just had to make some apologizes, but you would maybe refuse them

I knew too much about both of you, about your thoughts
Againt each other, this rage growing up until burning everything
I didn't understand these emotions while you were nice to me
Feathers are falling down from their wings, nothing else remained

A heavy secret that I couldn't reveal, hidden in deep thoughts
I didn't want to hurt anybody, the regrets would be too powerful
The tears flowing on their faces were haunting me every night
I just had to make some apologizes, but you would maybe refuse them

Innocence just collapsed, the pain began to invade each moment
The fear was too intense to be ignored, and I was still not understanding
A sudden strong feeling of emptiness, did something just disappear from the world?
I wanted to see your smiles again, but just saw darkness in front of me

I remember I had to decide which feelings I was going to accept
Time already went away, faster than I thought, the fears became an intense pain
If you fought each other until losing the conscience, was it because of me?
I never had the courage to tell how much I loved you...

Un lourd secret que je ne pouvais révélé, caché dans de profondes pensées
Je ne voulais pas blesser qui que ce soit, mes regrets m'auraient entièrement rongée
Les larmes coulant sur leurs visages, chaque nuit me hantaient
Je devais juste présenter des excuses, mais vous alliez certainement les refuser

Je savais trop à propos de vous deux, à propos de vos pensées
L'une contre l'autre, la rage grandissant jusqu'à tout brûler
Je ne comprenais pas ces émotions alors que vous sembliez si gentilles avec moi
Les plumes tombent de leurs ailes d'ange, il ne restait plus rien devant moi

Un lourd secret que je ne pouvais révélé, caché dans de profondes pensées
Je ne voulais pas blesser qui que ce soit, mes regrets m'auraient entièrement rongée
Les larmes coulant sur leurs visages, chaque nuit me hantaient
Je devais juste présenter des excuses, mais vous alliez certainement les refuser

L'innocence s'est juste effondrée, la douleur a envahi chaque moment
La peur était trop intense pour être ignorée, et je comprenais toujours pas
Un sentiment de vide fort est soudainement arrivé, quelque chose venait-il de s'évaporer à l'instant ?
Je voulais revoir vos visages, mais je n'ai vu que les ténèbres devant moi

Je me souviens que je devais décider quels sentiments j'allais accepter
Le temps était déjà passé, plus vite que je ne le pensais, mes peurs sont devenues une intense douleur
Si vous vous combattiez l'une l'autre jusqu'à perdre conscience, était-ce à cause de mon cœur ?
Je n'ai jamais eu le courage de dire que toutes les deux je vous aimais...

This is the real birthday song for Itako. It had to have this quality!
Story: about a girl who is confronted to two other girls who have her as lover. Let's clarify a thing: the heroine here is not the yandere, the two other girls are though. What remains at the end? Only a poor girl, who was really confused, and didn't know what to do, knowing both of them really well. I won't do any sister song from the stalkers side, would be a bit too much difficult.
Music: gated pad by Sytrus, pluck by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Sakura (this is very slight but there is one), plus the Slayer.
The project requires FL 12.4.2 b33 and more to open correctly (requiring Fruity Delay 3, no compatibility patch).

Hello, Nynthixia there.

And no I'm not in my bed yet, even if I should, but whatever...

Tmbox decided to move their closure date from April 1st 2018 to... December 31st 2017. Image proof:

(I added the English text)

So this is the new upload chart that I updated, so just a recap:

- no more Tmbox uploads since the upload UI has disappeared on June 6th, people who were on Twitter knew about it when I said "OK change of plans guys! Let's meet on MQube!" (in Japanese of course because most of the people following me on Twitter are from Japan)
- when Soundcloud account will be full, uploads will be done on MQube instead

See? I even made a bilingual version this time! (Of course the originals that are on SC or MQube are also on the blog, it's just a short to say "and blog and Soundcloud" or "and blog and MQube"). Covers and remixes are now just linked to the blog. I'll update the Tmbox links and replace them with the MQube ones when the reuploads will be done.

When will be done the reuploads?

Between November and December 2017. There are 92 works to reupload!! That's a bunch of files! If I do almost 2 every day, I'd finish this 1.5 month after I would have begun. Not that bad.
Please note that the reuploads will be tagged as "[再アップロード]" (= reupload) at the end of the title and that I won't tweet them. Just to not flood the profile with only reuploads, works that may have a bit weaker quality than the current works (well, the quality was already quite high when I began doing this)... New works will be tweeted though.

And your August tracklist?

Still working on it and it's not complete yet, but no worries, I'm still trying to think about some titles. And also about the organization for August...

Just to remind you that on tomorrow (midnight Paris time, 7:00 AM Japan time) I'll air the song "Never Tell Them" with Itako, that I finished on the 22nd, on both the blog and MQube!

Songs of July album that are remaining to do:

Can't Trust (feat. GUMI) -> scheduled on June 26th
Deadly Candle (feat. Tohoku Itako) -> next week
ROSAPINA (feat. Namine Ritsu) -> week of July 3rd*
Murdering Passions (feat. Lily) -> next week
Encounter (feat. Tohoku Zunko) -> week of July 3rd*
Red Raspberry (feat. Tohoku Kiritan) -> week of July 3rd*

* excludes the dates of July 6th (cover) and July 8th (absent all the day because Japan Expo (yay IA has a stand! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ ))
excludes July 9th as well

Enjoy and take care of yourselves

Nynthixia

EDIT June 24th 12:24 PM

『LISANA』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170619-00568
LIN (full) : 「598 675 442」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170620-000694
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 3/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

未来は砕け散って、永遠の苦しみは霊を傷つけ続ける
幸せを見つけるのに役立つものがあると信じていた...

時間が過ぎても、彼女を見た思い出はまだ損なわれていないでした
予測することはできないでしたが、運命を受け入れることに決めた
一人の若い女の子だけが、夜の暗闇の中に隠された
なぜこの最初から何かを忘れることができないの？

未来は砕け散って、永遠の苦しみは霊を傷つけ続ける
幸せを見つけるのに役立つものがあると信じていた
この天使は誰からも崇拝されやすい空から落ちた
誰かが彼女の美しさに触れるなら、決して許されない...

成長しているこの感覚は、私の考え全体を侵略した
あなたの長い休みのそれぞれは、この悲しみが大きくなった
痛みを取り除き、再び笑顔になりたいと思っていた
いつあなたをもう一度見ることができるか知っているの？

それから、ついにあなたを見つけ、激しい悲しみの涙で溺れた
彼はあなたを私から遠ざけようとした後、すでに落ちた
たとえこれが不可能であったとしても、いつもあなたに連絡したかった
彼の体から鮮血が流れているのを見て、全てが終わった...

Future shattered into pieces, the eternal torment continues to wound the spirit
I wanted to believe there was something that could help me finding happiness...

Memories of seeing her were still intact even when the time has passed
Nothing could be predicted but I decided to accept the fate
A young girl alone, hidden in the darkness of the night
Why can't I forget anything from this first time?

Future shattered into pieces, the eternal torment continues to wound the spirit
I wanted to believe there was something that could help me finding happiness
This angel fallen from the sky who could easily be adored by everyone
If someone would touch her beauty, I would never forgive...

This feeling which was growing invaded my whole thoughts
Each of your long absences made this sorrow becoming bigger
I wanted to get rid of the pain, being able to smile again
Do you know when I'll be able to see you once again?

Then I finally found you, drowned in tears of intense sorrow
Already fallen down, after he tried to get you away from me
I always wanted to reach you, even if this was impossible
Both seeing fresh blood flowing from his body, everything was over...

Le futur brisé en morceaux, le tourment éternel continue de blesser mon cœur
Je voulais croire qu'il y avait quelque chose qui pourrait m'aider à trouver le bonheur...

Les souvenirs où je l'ai vue sont restés intacts mais si le temps avait passé pour moi
J'ai décidé d'accepter mon destin même si rien ne pouvait être prédit
Une jeune femme toute seule, cachée dans les ténèbres de la nuit
Pourquoi ne puis-je oublier quoi que ce soit de cette première fois ?

Le futur brisé en morceaux, le tourment éternel continue de blesser mon cœur
Je voulais croire qu'il y avait quelque chose qui pourrait m'aider à trouver le bonheur
Cet ange tombé du ciel qui pouvait facilement être aimée
Si quelqu'un devait toucher sa beauté, jamais je ne pourrai le lui pardonner...

Ce sentiment qui grandissait a envahi toutes mes pensées
Chacune de tes absences n'a fait que grandir le chagrin
Je voulais me débarrasser de cette douleur, pouvoir sourire à nouveau enfin
Sauras-tu lorsque je pourrais à nouveau te rencontrer ?

Puis je t'ai finalement trouvée, noyée dans les larmes d'un intense chagrin
Presque déjà tombé, après qu'il ait essayé de te voler
Je voulais toujours t'atteindre, même si je savais que je ne le pourrais jamais
Nous deux regardant le sang frais couler de son corps, je savais que c'était déjà la fin...

Yeah, you can see it in the identifiants, I made this song few days ago already, it was already prepared. Will be the same case for the next one as well. I just had to upload it just few minutes before the air date (June 23rd midnight Paris time / 7:00 AM Japan time).
Music: everything is Toxic Biohazard. No need to search further, used my little favorite one.
Story: focused on quite a sad story of a yandere, who could almost fall in depression just because she wasn't able to see her lover anymore, because she was already with someone else. When I say love is the worst poison ever.

『Pretending』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170618-000567
LIN (full) : 「598 674 166」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170619-000693
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 2/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

心が痛み、一人でいると感じている、あなたの存在なしに失われている
友情だけが私たちを再会していると言えば、これは隠された嘘です

ふりをやめ、本当に何を感じていたのかを知りたいと思った
長い間この静かな感情が沈黙の中で溺れた
誰もそれを受け入れるつもりはないことを知っている
そして、あなたはちょうど私から遠く離れ、他の誰かに行くでしょう

心が痛み、一人でいると感じている、あなたの存在なしに失われている
友情だけが私たちを再会していると言えば、これは隠された嘘です
これらの考えは私を怖がらせている、もう何をすべきか分からなかった
真実を伝えたいと思ったが、何らかの理由で言葉がまだ詰まっている

あなたの名前だけを泣いて叫ぶことができた、あなたは戻って来なかった
私の考えは徐々に腐っていたので、全てを後悔し始めた
この間に嘘をついたのは、この残酷な世界からあなたを守ることだけでした
しかし、あなたが何度も何度も私を拒否し続けた理由はそれですの？

あなたをもう一度見たとき、あなたはもう一人ではなった
全てを理解した、なぜ拒絶、言い訳、欠席
これが許されていると思ったら、許されない言い訳です
私も間違いを犯しましたが、これはあなたのためだと分かっている

この気持ちからあまりにも苦しんだので、自由にすることができなった
優雅に地面に落ちて、良心は静かに眠り始めます
彼が生きているのを見るだけでは、戦わなければならない障害でした
彼の存在がなければ、あなたはまだ私に同じ言い訳を教えてくれるの？

Heart is in pain, I feel alone and lost without your presence
If I told only friendship was reuniting us, this is just a hidden lie

I wanted to stop pretending and telling what I was really feeling
This heavy emotion that stayed for a long time drowned in the silence
I know that they nobody was going to accept it
And you would just go with someone else, far away from me

Heart is in pain, I feel alone and lost without your presence
If I told only friendship was reuniting us, this is just a hidden lie
These thoughts are scaring me, I didn't know what to do anymore
I wanted to tell the truth, but words are still stuck for some reason

I could only crying and screaming your name, you never came back
My thoughts were slowly rotting, I began to regret everything
If I lied during this time, it was only to protect you from this cruel world
But is it also the reason you kept rejecting me again and again?

When I saw you again, you weren't alone anymore
I understood everything, why the rejections, the excuses, the absences
If you thought this was tolerable, these unforgivable excuses
I also made mistakes but I know this was for your sake

I was suffering too much from this feeling that I couldn't let free
Graciously falling to the ground, conscience begins to quietly sleep
Just seeing him alive was an obstacle that I had to fight against
Without his presence, will you still tell me the same excuses?

Le cœur endolori, je me sens seule lorsque tu n'es pas à mes côtés
Si j'ai dit que seule de l'amitié nous unissait, ce n'est qu'un mensonge caché

Je voulais arrêter de prétendre et dire ce que je ressentais vraiment
Cette lourde émotion qui est restée en moi noyée dans le silence pendant longtemps
Je savais que personne n'allait vraiment l'accepter
Et tu irais juste avec quelqu'un d'autre, de moi tu allais t'éloigner

Le cœur endolori, je me sens seule lorsque tu n'es pas à mes côtés
Si j'ai dit que seule de l'amitié nous unissait, ce n'est qu'un mensonge caché
Je ne savais plus quoi faire, ces pensées m'effraient
Je voulais dire la vérité, mais j'ignore pourquoi les mots sont encore cachés

Je ne pouvais que pleurer et hurler ton nom, tu n'es jamais revenue
Mes pensées pourrissaient lentement, j'ai commencé à tout regretter
Si j'ai menti pendant tout ce temps, c'était juste pour te protéger de leur cruauté
Mais est-ce aussi la raison pour laquelle je suis rejetée en continu ?

Lorsque je t'ai revue, tu n'étais plus toute seule désormais
J'ai tout compris, pourquoi les rejets, les absences, les excuses
Si tu pensais que j'allais les tolérer, ces impardonnables excuses
J'ai aussi fait des erreurs mais c'était pour te protéger

Je souffrais trop de ce sentiment que je ne pouvais libérer
Tombant gracieusement sur le sol, la conscience commence à s'évaporer
Juste le voir vivant était un obstacle contre lequel je devais lutter
Sans sa présence, est-ce que tes excuses seront toujours utilisées ?

For Tei's birthday!
Music: I tried something... More aggressive. One of the leads by Toxic Biohazard, the rest is all Harmor. It began with a sort of dubstep-like beat loop (homemade), then some other elements of hard electronica style were added. I don't even know how to qualify this.
Story: about a girl who pretended to be a friend just to protect her lover but this last one really believed it and went out with another boy. Can we really talk about a mistake?

『Better than Nothing』

Singers : (in order of solo appearence) Yuzuki Yukari, Tohoku Zunko
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170616-00566
LIN (full) : 「598 673 105」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170618-000692
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 14/15

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

Legend

Both | Zunko | Yukari

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

心の深みに隠された開花の花から生まれた感情
あなたは、これらの恐怖のために私に何かを語ったことはなった
しばしばあなたが理由を正確に知らずに逃げ出すのを見た
言葉は私たちを分けた沈黙を打ち砕くことができなかった

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

すでにあなたを信頼することができれば、実際には知らなった
誰もが耳を傾けて笑ってくれると思った
多分、これは馬鹿げたように思えた、間違いをしたことを知っている
ちょうどより自信を持ち、全てを自由にする必要があった

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

An emotion born from a blooming flower hidden in the depths of the heart
You never dared telling me anything because of these fears
I often saw you running away without knowing exactly the reason
The words couldn't break down the silence that separated us

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

I actually didn't know if I could already trust you
I thought that everybody could listen and laugh at us
Maybe this seemed stupid, I know I made a mistake
I just had to get some more self-trust and letting everything free

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

Une émotion née d'une fleur s'ouvrant cachée au fond de soi
Tu n'as jamais osé me dire à cause de tes peurs quoi que ce soit
Je t'ai souvent vue t'enfuir sans que je ne sache exactement pourquoi
Les mots ne pouvaient briser le silence qui nous séparait toi et moi

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

Je ne savais si je pouvais te croire en réalité
Je pensais que tout le monde nous écouterait et en rirait
Peut-être que c'était stupide, je sais que c'était une erreur et j'en suis navrée
Je devais avoir plus de confiance en moi et tout libérer

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

The song in a nutshell: "If you can't be lovers with someone, you can maybe still be friends with them."
Music: guitar by Toxic Biohazard, pad by GMS, chords by Xpand!2, lead by Harmor. Some parts sound more techno/trance, others more rock.

DOWNLOAD (12 TRACKS + 1 INEDITE TRACK)

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Here is the new album, "Rebirth from Paradise"! With quite a lot of changes because only 2 tracks out of 13 are same as demos.

Changelog time!

01. Master Mind -Rebirth Edit- (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[MIXDOWN] Compressor treatment (AS)
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun

Maybe the slightest change in the whole album. This track is considered as OST.

02. Ariana (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[MIXDOWN] Modified global reverb of capellas
[PATCH] Last phoneme of last chorus doesn't create artifact anymore
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun (chorus)
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Lin (verses)

"Why did you not change everything into -Jun-?" The answer is that the -Lin- voicebank fixes a big issue that the natural Yukari has: the 1/16 and 1/32 phonemes (especially 1/32) that are not performed very well. There should be less cuts. Other patch to resolve a problem of final phoneme that repeated the consonnant.

03. Illogical (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun

I also changed the vocals for "Illogical". The song has been extended a bit.

04. When They Call (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX in intro, before bridge and second chorus
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead instrument (other Sakura preset)

The original Sakura preset was too loud. The album version should sound a bit more natural.

05. ADANTHE (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[INSTRUMENT] Removed some beats at the end
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX for end of beats transition in outtro
[INSTRUMENT] Added kick roll at the end

Changed the dynamics of the song, I also wanted to fix a problem of missing frequencies at the ear, but it seems that it's not possible. The album ver has some more natural transitions though.

07. Juliana (feat. Yurika Sayu)
[EXTENSION] Extended intro
[INSTRUMENT] Added impact at the half of last chorus
[MIXDOWN] Modified volume of harmonic parts (Anti-Saturation)

"Juliana" is a very, very dynamic dance/trance song. Just a little point of impacts was added.

08. DALIANA (feat. Yurika Sayu)
[INSTRUMENT] Added crash rolls and impacts
[MIXDOWN] Remastered impact sound (Maximus treatment instead of NE treatment)
[MIXDOWN] Reverb modified

The impact sound should be more dynamic now. The reverb was a bit problematic: lyrics that are not very understandable and problem of possible harmful high-frequencies. The reverb is now extremely light, and since Sayu sounds quite well human without any modifications...

10. Bad Reasons (feat. Momone Momo)
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead preset (other Autogun preset)
[INSTRUMENT] Extended slayer
[MIXDOWN] Remastered bridge/arp

The original Autogun preset for the lead was a bit too loud.

11. Three Minutes (feat. Momone Momo)
[INSTRUMENT] Changed order of instruments in intro (sequence pad > kicks > lead)
[INSTRUMENT] Added rythm pad, roll+SFX during bridge
[INSTRUMENT] Removed beats in the two last measures of the bridge

I didn't change the timing of the song... On purpose. However, the intro of the demo was quite unusual and I found a better combination.

12. Semira (feat. Momone Momo)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead preset (other TBio preset)

Note: the phase of the PoiZone pad has changed a bit, but this is not very obvious, and the quality isn't altered. As for the lead, I left the preset for the pluck, but not for the lead itself (too loud).

13. Master Mind -Despair Edit- (feat. Lily, Namine Ritsu)
Inedite track

New inedite song, the -Despair Edit- of "Master Mind", with Lily as main vocal and Ritsu as backing vocal. Unlike the -Rebirth Edit- that sounds very light, the -Despair Edit- has a more hardcore/hard techno based style. A very good music genre for Lily especially. And promised: this edit has a reduced length (a bit less than 5 minutes) but also a higher BPM (150 versus 130).
Track considered as OST.

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As for Tmbox, there is no upload anymore since the upload interface disappeared on June 6th. I got the surprise while uploading the June cover.
Same system on MQube than on Tmbox: only originals have their download links on, not the covers of the remixes of songs that aren't mine.

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Other reminders:

Before June 18th: "Better than Nothing" (Zunko+Yukari) [this song is in WIP status]
June 19th: "Pretending" (Tei)
June 23rd: "LISANA" (Itako)
June 24th: "Never Tell Them" (Itako)
June 26th: "Can't Trust" (GUMI)
July 6th: cover of "Ref-Rain" (Yukari -Lin-) -> MQube only!
July 15th: album "Never Tell Them"

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There are other things, mainly for August:

- There will be no song for Meiji's birthday, at least on August 8th. The song will be aired on August 4th instead, it is on a Friday, and this is the date that is the closest to August 8th, day included in an offline production week (August 5th to 12th).
- There will be a song for Totoko on July 10th. Title still undecided.
- A song derivated from the CHARON game "Full Bokko Youchien" may be aired soon. It will be with MAYU and will be called "Re;Verse". The game has an English translation so less errors of understanding for me. I may use the "BAD END" as template.
- 5 songs derivated from the CHARON game "Menherafflesia" (sorry if this looks weird, CHARON made a pun between the word "menhera" and the word "rafflesia" from what I understood) will be aired in late July/beginning August. There is the little list of these songs, none of them has a proper schedule though. Unlike the "Full Bokko Youchien" one, I don't have any English translation and used what I understood from the text I knew and the images of the game. There may be some errors!

01 - JIMENIA (feat. CUL) - derivated from Matsuri's story - from the bad end probably
02 - Hester (feat. IA -ROCKS-) - derivated from Mihomi's story - I hesitate between bad end and happy end for this one
03 - Damaris (feat. Lily) - derivated from Ayume's story - same as Mihomi's, I hesitate since both of the ends are... Hum.
04 - Isabela (feat. Zunko, GUMI) - derivated from Moeko's story - bad end
05 - NANZIA (feat. Yuzuki Yukari) - derivated from Nenene's story - bad end

If you really want to know without spoilers, of each of the 5 "HAPPY ENDS", only 2 are actually happy. REALLY.
And if you want to search for the game, type "メンヘラフレシア" into YouTube or NicoNico web search. Good luck. (Warning: can contain harsh content)

All of these songs will be yandere, at least, normally.
And don't forget I alterate a few between game and songs (especially because I'm mostly doing lesbian yandere, don't forget).

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"And no August tracklist"?
It's still in WIP status, I only have very few title names. But no worries, still working on it, since I'll have an idea, I'll write it down.

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Enjoy!
Nynthixia