Nynthixia productions

『Can't Trust』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170624-00570
LIN (full) : 「598 680 216」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170625-000696
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 1/15

Rating : Questionnable - Q
Not recommended for people under... : 10
Reason : possible confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

 

この決定のためになされた約束はもはや立たないでしょう
精神を傷つけ、疑問に満ちた考えはちょうど残っている
あなたを信頼できると思ったが、これはひどい間違いであることが判明した
あなたの意図が良いかどうかまだ分からない

誰もがお互いを信じることはできるの？ それは簡単に見えるの？
誰もが望むように利他的であれば、おそらく希望があるだろう
ある人はお互いに信頼したい、他の人はもっと利己的に考える
善意を持ちたいが、彼らはこの願いを受け入れるだろうか？

誰も何も尋ねなかった、この拷問さえしなかった
裏切りは彼女に耐え忍ぶためにはあまりにも苦痛があるようです
目は無慈悲な気持ちで満たされた、ある種の慈悲に訴える
彼女が実際に欲しかったのは、私たちを信じることだけでした

誰もがお互いを信じることはできるの？ それは簡単に見えるの？
誰もが望むように利他的であれば、おそらく希望があるだろう
ある人はお互いに信頼したい、他の人はもっと利己的に考える
善意を持ちたいが、彼らはこの願いを受け入れるだろうか？

Promises that were made won't stand anymore because of this decision
Wounding the spirits, thoughts filled with doubt are just remaining
I thought I could trust you, but this revealed to be an awful mistake
I still can't know if your intentions are good or not

Can everyone confide each other? Would it would seem easy?
If everyone would be as altruistic as I want, maybe there would be a hope
Some want to trust each other, others think with more selfishness
I want to have a good faith, but will they accept this wish?

Nobody asked for anything, not even this torture
Betrayal seems too much painful for being bearable for her
Eyes filled with an innocent feeling, pleading for some mercy
The only thing she actually wanted was to believe in us

Can everyone confide each other? Would it would seem easy?
If everyone would be as altruistic as I want, maybe there would be a hope
Some want to trust each other, others think with more selfishness
I want to have a good faith, but will they accept this wish?

Les promesses qui ont été faites ne tiennent plus à cause de cette décision
Blessant les esprits, les pensées remplies du doute qui est resté
J'ai cru que je pouvais te faire confiance, mais c'était une erreur de m'allier
Je ne sais toujours pas si tu es plein de pleines intentions

Est-ce que tout le monde peut se croire l'un l'autre ? Ou est-ce trop simple en réalité ?
Si tout le monde était aussi altruiste que je le souhaits, un espoir existerait
Certains veulent faire confiance, d'autres n'agissent que par leurs pensées
Je veux avoir une bonne foi, mais accepteront-ils ce souhait ?

Même cette torture, personne n'a rien demandé
La trahison semble trop pénible pour qu'elle puisse la supporter
Les yeux remplis d'un sentiment innocent, supplie pour obtenir un peu de pitié
La seule chose qu'elle voulait était de croire en nous en réalité

Est-ce que tout le monde peut se croire l'un l'autre ? Ou est-ce trop simple en réalité ?
Si tout le monde était aussi altruiste que je le souhaits, un espoir existerait
Certains veulent faire confiance, d'autres n'agissent que par leurs pensées
Je veux avoir une bonne foi, mais accepteront-ils ce souhait ?

8 years of GUMI, wow... Happy birthday to GUMI!
Story: can't reveal it because too many spoilers, but all I can say is that it's globally inspired by "Virtue's Last Reward". If you have played this game, you would see who I am refering at each part of the song.
Music: lead synth by Toxic Biohazard, supersaw synth by Xpand!2, pad (strings and gated pad, this is the same preset) by PoiZone.
The project uses Fruity Delay 3 and has to be opened with FL 12.4.2 b33 or a more recent version.

『Never Tell Them』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170621-00569
LIN (full) : 「598 677 216」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170622-000695
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 4/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

明らかにできなかった重い秘密は、深い考えに隠された
誰も傷つけたくない、後悔はあまりにも強力なものになるだろう
彼らの顔に流れている涙が毎晩私を傷つけていた
ちょっと謝罪しなければならなったが、おそらくそれらを拒否するでしょう

あなたの考えについて、両方についてあまりにも多くのことを知った
お互いに気遣う、この怒りは全てを燃やすまで成長する
あなたが私に優しい間、これらの感情を理解しないでした
羽は翼から落ちているが、他に何も残っていない

明らかにできなかった重い秘密は、深い考えに隠された
誰も傷つけたくない、後悔はあまりにも強力なものになるだろう
彼らの顔に流れている涙が毎晩私を傷つけていた
ちょっと謝罪しなければならなったが、おそらくそれらを拒否するでしょう

純真が崩壊したばかりの瞬間に、痛みが浸透し始めた
恐怖は無視するには強すぎて、まだ理解していないでした
突然強い空虚感、何かが世界から消えてしまったの？
あなたの笑顔をもう一度見たいと思ったが、私の目の前で暗闇が見えた

受け入れようとした気持ちを決めなければならないことを覚えている
時間はすでに思ったより速く離れた、恐怖は激しい痛みになった
もしあなたが良心を失うまでお互いに戦ったら、私のためでしたの？
あなたをどれほど愛していたかを伝える勇気はなかった...

A heavy secret that I couldn't reveal, hidden in deep thoughts
I didn't want to hurt anybody, the regrets would be too powerful
The tears flowing on their faces were haunting me every night
I just had to make some apologizes, but you would maybe refuse them

I knew too much about both of you, about your thoughts
Againt each other, this rage growing up until burning everything
I didn't understand these emotions while you were nice to me
Feathers are falling down from their wings, nothing else remained

A heavy secret that I couldn't reveal, hidden in deep thoughts
I didn't want to hurt anybody, the regrets would be too powerful
The tears flowing on their faces were haunting me every night
I just had to make some apologizes, but you would maybe refuse them

Innocence just collapsed, the pain began to invade each moment
The fear was too intense to be ignored, and I was still not understanding
A sudden strong feeling of emptiness, did something just disappear from the world?
I wanted to see your smiles again, but just saw darkness in front of me

I remember I had to decide which feelings I was going to accept
Time already went away, faster than I thought, the fears became an intense pain
If you fought each other until losing the conscience, was it because of me?
I never had the courage to tell how much I loved you...

Un lourd secret que je ne pouvais révélé, caché dans de profondes pensées
Je ne voulais pas blesser qui que ce soit, mes regrets m'auraient entièrement rongée
Les larmes coulant sur leurs visages, chaque nuit me hantaient
Je devais juste présenter des excuses, mais vous alliez certainement les refuser

Je savais trop à propos de vous deux, à propos de vos pensées
L'une contre l'autre, la rage grandissant jusqu'à tout brûler
Je ne comprenais pas ces émotions alors que vous sembliez si gentilles avec moi
Les plumes tombent de leurs ailes d'ange, il ne restait plus rien devant moi

Un lourd secret que je ne pouvais révélé, caché dans de profondes pensées
Je ne voulais pas blesser qui que ce soit, mes regrets m'auraient entièrement rongée
Les larmes coulant sur leurs visages, chaque nuit me hantaient
Je devais juste présenter des excuses, mais vous alliez certainement les refuser

L'innocence s'est juste effondrée, la douleur a envahi chaque moment
La peur était trop intense pour être ignorée, et je comprenais toujours pas
Un sentiment de vide fort est soudainement arrivé, quelque chose venait-il de s'évaporer à l'instant ?
Je voulais revoir vos visages, mais je n'ai vu que les ténèbres devant moi

Je me souviens que je devais décider quels sentiments j'allais accepter
Le temps était déjà passé, plus vite que je ne le pensais, mes peurs sont devenues une intense douleur
Si vous vous combattiez l'une l'autre jusqu'à perdre conscience, était-ce à cause de mon cœur ?
Je n'ai jamais eu le courage de dire que toutes les deux je vous aimais...

This is the real birthday song for Itako. It had to have this quality!
Story: about a girl who is confronted to two other girls who have her as lover. Let's clarify a thing: the heroine here is not the yandere, the two other girls are though. What remains at the end? Only a poor girl, who was really confused, and didn't know what to do, knowing both of them really well. I won't do any sister song from the stalkers side, would be a bit too much difficult.
Music: gated pad by Sytrus, pluck by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Sakura (this is very slight but there is one), plus the Slayer.
The project requires FL 12.4.2 b33 and more to open correctly (requiring Fruity Delay 3, no compatibility patch).

Hello, Nynthixia there.

And no I'm not in my bed yet, even if I should, but whatever...

Tmbox decided to move their closure date from April 1st 2018 to... December 31st 2017. Image proof:

(I added the English text)

So this is the new upload chart that I updated, so just a recap:

- no more Tmbox uploads since the upload UI has disappeared on June 6th, people who were on Twitter knew about it when I said "OK change of plans guys! Let's meet on MQube!" (in Japanese of course because most of the people following me on Twitter are from Japan)
- when Soundcloud account will be full, uploads will be done on MQube instead

See? I even made a bilingual version this time! (Of course the originals that are on SC or MQube are also on the blog, it's just a short to say "and blog and Soundcloud" or "and blog and MQube"). Covers and remixes are now just linked to the blog. I'll update the Tmbox links and replace them with the MQube ones when the reuploads will be done.

When will be done the reuploads?

Between November and December 2017. There are 92 works to reupload!! That's a bunch of files! If I do almost 2 every day, I'd finish this 1.5 month after I would have begun. Not that bad.
Please note that the reuploads will be tagged as "[再アップロード]" (= reupload) at the end of the title and that I won't tweet them. Just to not flood the profile with only reuploads, works that may have a bit weaker quality than the current works (well, the quality was already quite high when I began doing this)... New works will be tweeted though.

And your August tracklist?

Still working on it and it's not complete yet, but no worries, I'm still trying to think about some titles. And also about the organization for August...

Just to remind you that on tomorrow (midnight Paris time, 7:00 AM Japan time) I'll air the song "Never Tell Them" with Itako, that I finished on the 22nd, on both the blog and MQube!

Songs of July album that are remaining to do:

Can't Trust (feat. GUMI) -> scheduled on June 26th
Deadly Candle (feat. Tohoku Itako) -> next week
ROSAPINA (feat. Namine Ritsu) -> week of July 3rd*
Murdering Passions (feat. Lily) -> next week
Encounter (feat. Tohoku Zunko) -> week of July 3rd*
Red Raspberry (feat. Tohoku Kiritan) -> week of July 3rd*

* excludes the dates of July 6th (cover) and July 8th (absent all the day because Japan Expo (yay IA has a stand! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ ))
excludes July 9th as well

Enjoy and take care of yourselves

Nynthixia

EDIT June 24th 12:24 PM

『LISANA』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170619-00568
LIN (full) : 「598 675 442」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170620-000694
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 3/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

未来は砕け散って、永遠の苦しみは霊を傷つけ続ける
幸せを見つけるのに役立つものがあると信じていた...

時間が過ぎても、彼女を見た思い出はまだ損なわれていないでした
予測することはできないでしたが、運命を受け入れることに決めた
一人の若い女の子だけが、夜の暗闇の中に隠された
なぜこの最初から何かを忘れることができないの？

未来は砕け散って、永遠の苦しみは霊を傷つけ続ける
幸せを見つけるのに役立つものがあると信じていた
この天使は誰からも崇拝されやすい空から落ちた
誰かが彼女の美しさに触れるなら、決して許されない...

成長しているこの感覚は、私の考え全体を侵略した
あなたの長い休みのそれぞれは、この悲しみが大きくなった
痛みを取り除き、再び笑顔になりたいと思っていた
いつあなたをもう一度見ることができるか知っているの？

それから、ついにあなたを見つけ、激しい悲しみの涙で溺れた
彼はあなたを私から遠ざけようとした後、すでに落ちた
たとえこれが不可能であったとしても、いつもあなたに連絡したかった
彼の体から鮮血が流れているのを見て、全てが終わった...

Future shattered into pieces, the eternal torment continues to wound the spirit
I wanted to believe there was something that could help me finding happiness...

Memories of seeing her were still intact even when the time has passed
Nothing could be predicted but I decided to accept the fate
A young girl alone, hidden in the darkness of the night
Why can't I forget anything from this first time?

Future shattered into pieces, the eternal torment continues to wound the spirit
I wanted to believe there was something that could help me finding happiness
This angel fallen from the sky who could easily be adored by everyone
If someone would touch her beauty, I would never forgive...

This feeling which was growing invaded my whole thoughts
Each of your long absences made this sorrow becoming bigger
I wanted to get rid of the pain, being able to smile again
Do you know when I'll be able to see you once again?

Then I finally found you, drowned in tears of intense sorrow
Already fallen down, after he tried to get you away from me
I always wanted to reach you, even if this was impossible
Both seeing fresh blood flowing from his body, everything was over...

Le futur brisé en morceaux, le tourment éternel continue de blesser mon cœur
Je voulais croire qu'il y avait quelque chose qui pourrait m'aider à trouver le bonheur...

Les souvenirs où je l'ai vue sont restés intacts mais si le temps avait passé pour moi
J'ai décidé d'accepter mon destin même si rien ne pouvait être prédit
Une jeune femme toute seule, cachée dans les ténèbres de la nuit
Pourquoi ne puis-je oublier quoi que ce soit de cette première fois ?

Le futur brisé en morceaux, le tourment éternel continue de blesser mon cœur
Je voulais croire qu'il y avait quelque chose qui pourrait m'aider à trouver le bonheur
Cet ange tombé du ciel qui pouvait facilement être aimée
Si quelqu'un devait toucher sa beauté, jamais je ne pourrai le lui pardonner...

Ce sentiment qui grandissait a envahi toutes mes pensées
Chacune de tes absences n'a fait que grandir le chagrin
Je voulais me débarrasser de cette douleur, pouvoir sourire à nouveau enfin
Sauras-tu lorsque je pourrais à nouveau te rencontrer ?

Puis je t'ai finalement trouvée, noyée dans les larmes d'un intense chagrin
Presque déjà tombé, après qu'il ait essayé de te voler
Je voulais toujours t'atteindre, même si je savais que je ne le pourrais jamais
Nous deux regardant le sang frais couler de son corps, je savais que c'était déjà la fin...

Yeah, you can see it in the identifiants, I made this song few days ago already, it was already prepared. Will be the same case for the next one as well. I just had to upload it just few minutes before the air date (June 23rd midnight Paris time / 7:00 AM Japan time).
Music: everything is Toxic Biohazard. No need to search further, used my little favorite one.
Story: focused on quite a sad story of a yandere, who could almost fall in depression just because she wasn't able to see her lover anymore, because she was already with someone else. When I say love is the worst poison ever.

『Pretending』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170618-000567
LIN (full) : 「598 674 166」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170619-000693
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 2/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

心が痛み、一人でいると感じている、あなたの存在なしに失われている
友情だけが私たちを再会していると言えば、これは隠された嘘です

ふりをやめ、本当に何を感じていたのかを知りたいと思った
長い間この静かな感情が沈黙の中で溺れた
誰もそれを受け入れるつもりはないことを知っている
そして、あなたはちょうど私から遠く離れ、他の誰かに行くでしょう

心が痛み、一人でいると感じている、あなたの存在なしに失われている
友情だけが私たちを再会していると言えば、これは隠された嘘です
これらの考えは私を怖がらせている、もう何をすべきか分からなかった
真実を伝えたいと思ったが、何らかの理由で言葉がまだ詰まっている

あなたの名前だけを泣いて叫ぶことができた、あなたは戻って来なかった
私の考えは徐々に腐っていたので、全てを後悔し始めた
この間に嘘をついたのは、この残酷な世界からあなたを守ることだけでした
しかし、あなたが何度も何度も私を拒否し続けた理由はそれですの？

あなたをもう一度見たとき、あなたはもう一人ではなった
全てを理解した、なぜ拒絶、言い訳、欠席
これが許されていると思ったら、許されない言い訳です
私も間違いを犯しましたが、これはあなたのためだと分かっている

この気持ちからあまりにも苦しんだので、自由にすることができなった
優雅に地面に落ちて、良心は静かに眠り始めます
彼が生きているのを見るだけでは、戦わなければならない障害でした
彼の存在がなければ、あなたはまだ私に同じ言い訳を教えてくれるの？

Heart is in pain, I feel alone and lost without your presence
If I told only friendship was reuniting us, this is just a hidden lie

I wanted to stop pretending and telling what I was really feeling
This heavy emotion that stayed for a long time drowned in the silence
I know that they nobody was going to accept it
And you would just go with someone else, far away from me

Heart is in pain, I feel alone and lost without your presence
If I told only friendship was reuniting us, this is just a hidden lie
These thoughts are scaring me, I didn't know what to do anymore
I wanted to tell the truth, but words are still stuck for some reason

I could only crying and screaming your name, you never came back
My thoughts were slowly rotting, I began to regret everything
If I lied during this time, it was only to protect you from this cruel world
But is it also the reason you kept rejecting me again and again?

When I saw you again, you weren't alone anymore
I understood everything, why the rejections, the excuses, the absences
If you thought this was tolerable, these unforgivable excuses
I also made mistakes but I know this was for your sake

I was suffering too much from this feeling that I couldn't let free
Graciously falling to the ground, conscience begins to quietly sleep
Just seeing him alive was an obstacle that I had to fight against
Without his presence, will you still tell me the same excuses?

Le cœur endolori, je me sens seule lorsque tu n'es pas à mes côtés
Si j'ai dit que seule de l'amitié nous unissait, ce n'est qu'un mensonge caché

Je voulais arrêter de prétendre et dire ce que je ressentais vraiment
Cette lourde émotion qui est restée en moi noyée dans le silence pendant longtemps
Je savais que personne n'allait vraiment l'accepter
Et tu irais juste avec quelqu'un d'autre, de moi tu allais t'éloigner

Le cœur endolori, je me sens seule lorsque tu n'es pas à mes côtés
Si j'ai dit que seule de l'amitié nous unissait, ce n'est qu'un mensonge caché
Je ne savais plus quoi faire, ces pensées m'effraient
Je voulais dire la vérité, mais j'ignore pourquoi les mots sont encore cachés

Je ne pouvais que pleurer et hurler ton nom, tu n'es jamais revenue
Mes pensées pourrissaient lentement, j'ai commencé à tout regretter
Si j'ai menti pendant tout ce temps, c'était juste pour te protéger de leur cruauté
Mais est-ce aussi la raison pour laquelle je suis rejetée en continu ?

Lorsque je t'ai revue, tu n'étais plus toute seule désormais
J'ai tout compris, pourquoi les rejets, les absences, les excuses
Si tu pensais que j'allais les tolérer, ces impardonnables excuses
J'ai aussi fait des erreurs mais c'était pour te protéger

Je souffrais trop de ce sentiment que je ne pouvais libérer
Tombant gracieusement sur le sol, la conscience commence à s'évaporer
Juste le voir vivant était un obstacle contre lequel je devais lutter
Sans sa présence, est-ce que tes excuses seront toujours utilisées ?

For Tei's birthday!
Music: I tried something... More aggressive. One of the leads by Toxic Biohazard, the rest is all Harmor. It began with a sort of dubstep-like beat loop (homemade), then some other elements of hard electronica style were added. I don't even know how to qualify this.
Story: about a girl who pretended to be a friend just to protect her lover but this last one really believed it and went out with another boy. Can we really talk about a mistake?

『Better than Nothing』

Singers : (in order of solo appearence) Yuzuki Yukari, Tohoku Zunko
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170616-00566
LIN (full) : 「598 673 105」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170618-000692
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 14/15

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

Legend

Both | Zunko | Yukari

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

心の深みに隠された開花の花から生まれた感情
あなたは、これらの恐怖のために私に何かを語ったことはなった
しばしばあなたが理由を正確に知らずに逃げ出すのを見た
言葉は私たちを分けた沈黙を打ち砕くことができなかった

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

すでにあなたを信頼することができれば、実際には知らなった
誰もが耳を傾けて笑ってくれると思った
多分、これは馬鹿げたように思えた、間違いをしたことを知っている
ちょうどより自信を持ち、全てを自由にする必要があった

この決定は永遠に私たちの生活を変えるかもしれない
後退はありませんが、悲しみは消されている
あなたと友達になることについて話したら、受け入れるの？
この気持ちを知っているも、たとえそれが何よりも優れて

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

An emotion born from a blooming flower hidden in the depths of the heart
You never dared telling me anything because of these fears
I often saw you running away without knowing exactly the reason
The words couldn't break down the silence that separated us

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

I actually didn't know if I could already trust you
I thought that everybody could listen and laugh at us
Maybe this seemed stupid, I know I made a mistake
I just had to get some more self-trust and letting everything free

This decision may change our lives forever
There is no going back, but sadness will be erased
If I talk to you about just being friends, will you accept it?
I know about this feeling, even if it's better than nothing

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

Une émotion née d'une fleur s'ouvrant cachée au fond de soi
Tu n'as jamais osé me dire à cause de tes peurs quoi que ce soit
Je t'ai souvent vue t'enfuir sans que je ne sache exactement pourquoi
Les mots ne pouvaient briser le silence qui nous séparait toi et moi

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

Je ne savais si je pouvais te croire en réalité
Je pensais que tout le monde nous écouterait et en rirait
Peut-être que c'était stupide, je sais que c'était une erreur et j'en suis navrée
Je devais avoir plus de confiance en moi et tout libérer

Cette décision risque de changer nos vies à jamais
Il n'y a pas de retour en arrière possible, mais la tristesse sera effacée
Si je te dis juste qu'on reste amies, vas-tu le prendre bien ?
Je connais ce sentiment, même si c'est mieux que rien

The song in a nutshell: "If you can't be lovers with someone, you can maybe still be friends with them."
Music: guitar by Toxic Biohazard, pad by GMS, chords by Xpand!2, lead by Harmor. Some parts sound more techno/trance, others more rock.

DOWNLOAD (12 TRACKS + 1 INEDITE TRACK)

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Here is the new album, "Rebirth from Paradise"! With quite a lot of changes because only 2 tracks out of 13 are same as demos.

Changelog time!

01. Master Mind -Rebirth Edit- (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[MIXDOWN] Compressor treatment (AS)
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun

Maybe the slightest change in the whole album. This track is considered as OST.

02. Ariana (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[MIXDOWN] Modified global reverb of capellas
[PATCH] Last phoneme of last chorus doesn't create artifact anymore
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun (chorus)
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Lin (verses)

"Why did you not change everything into -Jun-?" The answer is that the -Lin- voicebank fixes a big issue that the natural Yukari has: the 1/16 and 1/32 phonemes (especially 1/32) that are not performed very well. There should be less cuts. Other patch to resolve a problem of final phoneme that repeated the consonnant.

03. Illogical (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[VOCAL] Changed V3 Yukari to V4 Yukari Jun

I also changed the vocals for "Illogical". The song has been extended a bit.

04. When They Call (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX in intro, before bridge and second chorus
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead instrument (other Sakura preset)

The original Sakura preset was too loud. The album version should sound a bit more natural.

05. ADANTHE (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[INSTRUMENT] Removed some beats at the end
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX for end of beats transition in outtro
[INSTRUMENT] Added kick roll at the end

Changed the dynamics of the song, I also wanted to fix a problem of missing frequencies at the ear, but it seems that it's not possible. The album ver has some more natural transitions though.

07. Juliana (feat. Yurika Sayu)
[EXTENSION] Extended intro
[INSTRUMENT] Added impact at the half of last chorus
[MIXDOWN] Modified volume of harmonic parts (Anti-Saturation)

"Juliana" is a very, very dynamic dance/trance song. Just a little point of impacts was added.

08. DALIANA (feat. Yurika Sayu)
[INSTRUMENT] Added crash rolls and impacts
[MIXDOWN] Remastered impact sound (Maximus treatment instead of NE treatment)
[MIXDOWN] Reverb modified

The impact sound should be more dynamic now. The reverb was a bit problematic: lyrics that are not very understandable and problem of possible harmful high-frequencies. The reverb is now extremely light, and since Sayu sounds quite well human without any modifications...

10. Bad Reasons (feat. Momone Momo)
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead preset (other Autogun preset)
[INSTRUMENT] Extended slayer
[MIXDOWN] Remastered bridge/arp

The original Autogun preset for the lead was a bit too loud.

11. Three Minutes (feat. Momone Momo)
[INSTRUMENT] Changed order of instruments in intro (sequence pad > kicks > lead)
[INSTRUMENT] Added rythm pad, roll+SFX during bridge
[INSTRUMENT] Removed beats in the two last measures of the bridge

I didn't change the timing of the song... On purpose. However, the intro of the demo was quite unusual and I found a better combination.

12. Semira (feat. Momone Momo)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[INSTRUMENT] Changed lead preset (other TBio preset)

Note: the phase of the PoiZone pad has changed a bit, but this is not very obvious, and the quality isn't altered. As for the lead, I left the preset for the pluck, but not for the lead itself (too loud).

13. Master Mind -Despair Edit- (feat. Lily, Namine Ritsu)
Inedite track

New inedite song, the -Despair Edit- of "Master Mind", with Lily as main vocal and Ritsu as backing vocal. Unlike the -Rebirth Edit- that sounds very light, the -Despair Edit- has a more hardcore/hard techno based style. A very good music genre for Lily especially. And promised: this edit has a reduced length (a bit less than 5 minutes) but also a higher BPM (150 versus 130).
Track considered as OST.

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As for Tmbox, there is no upload anymore since the upload interface disappeared on June 6th. I got the surprise while uploading the June cover.
Same system on MQube than on Tmbox: only originals have their download links on, not the covers of the remixes of songs that aren't mine.

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Other reminders:

Before June 18th: "Better than Nothing" (Zunko+Yukari) [this song is in WIP status]
June 19th: "Pretending" (Tei)
June 23rd: "LISANA" (Itako)
June 24th: "Never Tell Them" (Itako)
June 26th: "Can't Trust" (GUMI)
July 6th: cover of "Ref-Rain" (Yukari -Lin-) -> MQube only!
July 15th: album "Never Tell Them"

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There are other things, mainly for August:

- There will be no song for Meiji's birthday, at least on August 8th. The song will be aired on August 4th instead, it is on a Friday, and this is the date that is the closest to August 8th, day included in an offline production week (August 5th to 12th).
- There will be a song for Totoko on July 10th. Title still undecided.
- A song derivated from the CHARON game "Full Bokko Youchien" may be aired soon. It will be with MAYU and will be called "Re;Verse". The game has an English translation so less errors of understanding for me. I may use the "BAD END" as template.
- 5 songs derivated from the CHARON game "Menherafflesia" (sorry if this looks weird, CHARON made a pun between the word "menhera" and the word "rafflesia" from what I understood) will be aired in late July/beginning August. There is the little list of these songs, none of them has a proper schedule though. Unlike the "Full Bokko Youchien" one, I don't have any English translation and used what I understood from the text I knew and the images of the game. There may be some errors!

01 - JIMENIA (feat. CUL) - derivated from Matsuri's story - from the bad end probably
02 - Hester (feat. IA -ROCKS-) - derivated from Mihomi's story - I hesitate between bad end and happy end for this one
03 - Damaris (feat. Lily) - derivated from Ayume's story - same as Mihomi's, I hesitate since both of the ends are... Hum.
04 - Isabela (feat. Zunko, GUMI) - derivated from Moeko's story - bad end
05 - NANZIA (feat. Yuzuki Yukari) - derivated from Nenene's story - bad end

If you really want to know without spoilers, of each of the 5 "HAPPY ENDS", only 2 are actually happy. REALLY.
And if you want to search for the game, type "メンヘラフレシア" into YouTube or NicoNico web search. Good luck. (Warning: can contain harsh content)

All of these songs will be yandere, at least, normally.
And don't forget I alterate a few between game and songs (especially because I'm mostly doing lesbian yandere, don't forget).

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"And no August tracklist"?
It's still in WIP status, I only have very few title names. But no worries, still working on it, since I'll have an idea, I'll write it down.

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Enjoy!
Nynthixia

『NITRINIUM』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170614-00565
LIN (full) : 「598 669 902」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170615-000691
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 9/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

NOTE: The Japanese lyrics in the zip file contain errors. Please use the lyrics given on this blog post or on MQube, that have been patched.

真実を語った、この気持ちについて言うことができる全て
この感覚を感じる唯一の人だと誤って思っていた
いくつかの失望だけでなく、いくつかの嫌悪感と怒りの始まり
「他の少年に会いに行って、あなたに傷つけるこの愛について教えて」

しかし、もはや彼らの口から来るこれらの痛い言葉に耳を傾けたくない
いつも同じ苦情といつも同じ拒絶反応
彼はあなたの文章を私に向かって操作する人なのですよね？
残酷な人は、そのようなことをすることができる唯一の人です

胸の痛みはゆっくりと成長しており、思考は失われている
私の中の憎しみと怒りによって全てが破壊されている
なぜ彼は何年ものこれらの努力を無駄にしなければならなかったの？
私にとって残っている正気と人間性を破壊するだけです

彼の愛よりも強い私の愛に対するいかなる寛容もなしに
彼は彼女の素朴な精神に影響を与え、甘い文章を毒に変えた
私の思考が溶けて、ほんの数秒で破壊されたと感じた
現実全体を飲み込んだ黒い宇宙に囲まれた

彼らは私の未来はすでに崩壊し、消滅していると考えた
愛する女性と幸せになる可能性がどのように理解せずに
他の人に何を正確に感じているかを伝える必要はなかった
あなたは私が永遠に信頼したい唯一の人だったから

胸の痛みはゆっくりと成長しており、思考は失われている
私の中の憎しみと怒りによって全てが破壊されている
なぜ彼は何年ものこれらの努力を無駄にしなければならなかったの？
私にとって残っている正気と人間性を破壊するだけです

違うので、彼が私を殺すことを脅したことがあるなら
真の現実に気付く前に、別の毒が彼の静脈を傷つけるでしょう

胸の痛みはゆっくりと成長しており、思考は失われている
私の中の憎しみと怒りによって全てが破壊されている
なぜ彼は何年ものこれらの努力を無駄にしなければならなかったの？
私にとって残っている正気と人間性を破壊するだけです

彼の壊れた体がゆっくりと腐って粉塵になった時
あなたの精神をもう一度変えたいと思ったが、すでに遅すぎた
なぜ幸せを取り戻すためにあなたを両方とも殺さなければならなかったの？
知っているとき、これらの間違いのために自分自身を罰する必要があるでしょう...

I told the truth, everything that I could say about this feeling
I mistakenly thought that I was the only person to feel this sensation
Not only some disappointment but also some disgust and a beginning of wrath
"Go to see another boy to tell about this love that hurts you so much"

But I don't want to listen to these painful words anymore coming from their mouths
Always the same complaints and always the same rejections everywhere
He is the one manipulating your sentences against me, right?
A cruel man is the only person able to do such a thing

The pain in the chest is slowly growing, the thoughts are losing themselves
Everything is being destroyed by hatred and anger inside me
Why did he have to waste these efforts of several years?
Only to destroy the sanity and the humanity that remained to me

Without any tolerance for my love that is stronger than his love
He influenced her naive spirit, turning sweet sentences into poisons
I felt my thoughts were melting, destroyed within only few seconds
Surrounded by a black universe that swallowed the whole reality

They thought that my future was already corrupted and condemned to disappear
Without understanding how I could be happy with the woman I love
I didn't have to tell anybody else what I was exactly feeling
Because you were the only person that I want to trust forever

The pain in the chest is slowly growing, the thoughts are losing themselves
Everything is being destroyed by hatred and anger inside me
Why did he have to waste these efforts of several years?
Only to destroy the sanity and the humanity that remained to me

And if he ever threatened about killing me because I'm different
Another poison will corrupt his veins before noticing the true reality

The pain in the chest is slowly growing, the thoughts are losing themselves
Everything is being destroyed by hatred and anger inside me
Why did he have to waste these efforts of several years?
Only to destroy the sanity and the humanity that remained to me

When his broken body was slowly rotting before turning into dust
I wanted to change your spirit again, but it was already too late
Why did I have to kill you both for getting some happiness back?
When I know I'll have to punish myself too for these mistakes...

J'ai dit la vérité, tout ce que je pouvais dire de ce sentiment
J'ai pensé par erreur que j'étais la seule personne avec ce ressentiment
Du dégoût et un début de colère en plus de la déception
"Si cela te fait si mal, t'as qu'à aller voir un autre garçon"

Mais je ne veux plus écouter depuis leurs bouches leurs mots qui me font souffrir autant
Toujours les mêmes complaintes et toujours partout je suis rejetée
C'est lui qui manipule tes phrases contre moi, pas vrai ?
Un homme cruel est la seule personne capable de faire une chose pareille cependant

Je sens mes pensées me perdre, la douleur dans ma poitrine grandit doucement
Tout est détruit par la haine et la rage en moi
Pourquoi avait-il à réduire à néant ces efforts que j'ai accumulés avec le temps ?
Seulement pour détruire ce qu'il me reste de lucidité et d'humanité en moi

Sans aucune tolérance pour mon amour qui est plus fort que le sien
Il a influencé son esprit naïf, transformant de douces phrases en poisons violents
J'ai senti que mes sentiments fondaient, en quelques secondes il n'en restait plus rien
Entourée d'un univers noir qui a avalé la réalité entièrement

Ils ont pensé que mon futur était déjà corrompu et condamné à s'évaporer
Sans comprendre comment je pourrais être heureuse avec la femme que j'aime tant
Je n'avais à dire à personne d'autre ce que je ressentais exactement
Parce que tu étais la seule personne à qui je voulais faire confiance à jamais

Je sens mes pensées me perdre, la douleur dans ma poitrine grandit doucement
Tout est détruit par la haine et la rage en moi
Pourquoi avait-il à réduire à néant ces efforts que j'ai accumulés avec le temps ?
Seulement pour détruire ce qu'il me reste de lucidité et d'humanité en moi

Et si jamais il avait menacé de me tuer sous prétexte que j'étais différente de ces gens
Un autre poison corrompra ses veines avant qu'il ne remarque la réalité de maintenant

Je sens mes pensées me perdre, la douleur dans ma poitrine grandit doucement
Tout est détruit par la haine et la rage en moi
Pourquoi avait-il à réduire à néant ces efforts que j'ai accumulés avec le temps ?
Seulement pour détruire ce qu'il me reste de lucidité et d'humanité en moi

Quand son corps cassé pourrissait doucement avant de n'être que poussière
Je voulais rechanger ton esprit, mais il était trop tard malheureusement
Pourquoi fallait-il que je vous tue tous les deux pour me débarrasser de ma colère ?
Quand je saurais que je devrais pour ces erreurs me punir également...

A bit in the same spirit than "Illogical" for the story, even if some details change.
I used the -Lin- voicebank for all the verses, mix of -Lin-/-Jun- for the main capella of choruses, the cho capella of choruses is with the -Jun- voicebank.
And I really hesitated to set "severe yandere" instead of just "normal". But I guess lyrics are not that worse than the "Illogical" ones...
Music: lead sequence pads by Toxic Biohazard, the beats and the two arp pads by Sytrus. Pretty good when we mess with these two synths together.

『Hypocrite』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170613-00564
LIN (full) : 「598 668 884」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170614-000690
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 8/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

まず敵、あなたは私の言葉を信頼することを決めたまで
これが恐ろしい間違いで、謝罪していると言いた
同じ愛する人のためにお互いに戦っていたとしても
そんな馬鹿げた理由で怒っていると思いましたの？

この白い肌に流れる鮮血の最後の小滴
暖かい息が風の中で失われ、いくつかの言葉を伝えるのに苦労している
あなたの顔に流れる痛みの涙、再び笑いながら
あなたの恐れ、終わりが近づくのを感じるこの感覚を感じたかった

長い間、あなたは私を信頼していた、過去を忘れていた
あなたが痛みを感じていたら、助けてくれるでしょう
他に何も言わなかった、彼女から離れているふりをした
取り除くことができないこの痛い気持ちで常に隠れている

この白い肌に流れる鮮血の最後の小滴
暖かい息が風の中で失われ、いくつかの言葉を伝えるのに苦労している
あなたの顔に流れる痛みの涙、再び笑いながら
あなたの恐れ、終わりが近づくのを感じるこの感覚を感じたかった

残酷な運命は、いつも最も素朴な人のためのものですよね？
あなたは本当に前に信じられない人を信じて、この終わりに値している
この意識を多くの断片に分解する前に、何かを思い出した
全てがあなたのせいであり、あなたは責任がある唯一の人です...

First enemies, until you decided to trust my words
I said this was a horrible mistake, that I was apologizing
Even if we were fighting each other for a same loved person
Did you think that I would be angry for such a stupid reason?

The last droplets of fresh blood flowing on this white skin
A warm breath losing itself in the wind, struggling to tell some words
Tears of pain flowing on your face, while I am smiling again
I wanted to feel your fear, this sensation of seeing the end approaching

During a long time you trusted me and forgot about the past
When you were feeling pain, I would be there to help
I never told anything else, pretended to getting myself away from her
Hidden behind, with always this painful feeling that I can't get rid of

The last droplets of fresh blood flowing on this white skin
A warm breath losing itself in the wind, struggling to tell some words
Tears of pain flowing on your face, while I am smiling again
I wanted to feel your fear, this sensation of seeing the end approaching

Cruel fates are always for the most naive people, right?
You really deserve this end, for trusting someone you couldn't trust before
Before breaking down this consciousness in many fragments, I remembered something
Everything is your fault and you are the only person to blame...

D'abord ennemies, jusqu'au moment où tu as décidé sur parole de me croire
J'ai dit que c'était une horrible erreur, que je m'excusais
Même si nous nous combattions l'une l'autre pour la même personne aimée
Pensais-tu vraiment que pour une si futile raison je me fâcherais ?

Les dernières gouttes de sang frais qui coulent sur sa blanche peau
Un dernier souffle chaud qui se perd dans le vent, se battant pour dire quelques mots
Les larmes de douleur qui coulent sur ton visage, alors que de nouveau je souriais
Je voulais ressentir ta peur, la sensation de sentir la fin approcher

Pendant un long moment tu m'as fait confiance et oublié le passé
Si tu avais mal, j'avais dit que je serais là pour t'aider
Je n'ai jamais rien dit d'autre, prétendu de m'en éloigner
Cachée derrière, avec ce pénible sentiment dont je ne peux me débarrasser

Les dernières gouttes de sang frais qui coulent sur sa blanche peau
Un dernier souffle chaud qui se perd dans le vent, se battant pour dire quelques mots
Les larmes de douleur qui coulent sur ton visage, alors que de nouveau je souriais
Je voulais ressentir ta peur, la sensation de sentir la fin approcher

Les destins cruels sont toujours pour les plus naïfs, pas vrai ?
Pour croire en quelqu'un à qui tu ne faisais pas confiance avant, tu mérites vraiment cette fin
Avant de briser cette conscience en innombrables fragments, je me suis souvenue enfin
Tout est de ta faute et tu es la seule personne à blâmer...

Yeah, I know what you are thinking. This woman is really evil and cruel. Maybe a good reason she was an enemy.
Music: arp pad by Poizone, rhythm pad by Sawer, chords by Harmor.
Project requires FL 12.4.2 b33 and more (Fruity Delay 3 is needed) to be opened. No compatibility patch.

『Coven』

Singers : (in order of solo appearence) Lily, MAYU, kokone, Tohoku Zunko, IA, Yuzuki Yukari
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170609-00563
LIN (full) : 「598 664 455」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170609-000688
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Never Tell Them - TRACK 15/15

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content (+ possible censored yandere content)
Restricted on : piapro (not recommended)

Legend

Everyone | Lily | MAYU | kokone | Zunko | IA | Yukari

私たちを傷つける人たちには、呪いと毒が続けている
この世界から遠く離れていると、復讐は暗闇の言葉で召喚されている
彼らはいつも「これらの女性は悪化し、衰弱するでしょう」と言った
この町の罪は間もなく地獄に燃やされている...

これらの文章、これらの誤った非難に苦しんでいなければならない
彼らの考えを制御したい、もう痛みを感じないようにしたかった
彼らが美しさや優しい笑顔のためだけに私を欲しかったとしても
彼らはもう去ることはない、永遠にこの素晴らしい石を保つでしょう

暗闇は私のいくつかの才能を世話した唯一のものでした
これらの人々はそれを破壊しようとしたが、薬はこの苦しみを終了している
あなたは私たちを森に送り込んであなたのために良いと思ったの？
誰も真実をよく知っているわけではなく、ゆっくりと静脈に流れ込む甘い毒

言葉で十分ですので、誰も何が起こったのか理解できない
この社会の終焉が到来し、あなたは遅すぎることに気付きた
彼らがこの町全体が死んだと思ったとき、誰も戻ってこなかった
影と死体が実際に目を覚ましていないと本当に確信しているの？

Original English text

Curses and poison will follow the people who dared hurting us
Alone far away from this world, revenge will be summoned by the words of darkness
They always said "these women are diabolic and will be demise"
The sins of this town will soon be burnt into hell...

I had to suffer from these sentences, these false accusations
I wanted to control their thoughts, not feeling the pain anymore
Even if they wanted me just for the beauty or a gentle smile
They won't go away anymore, I'll keep forever this wonderful stone

Darkness was the only thing that took care of my several talents
While these people tried to destroy it, a medicine will end this suffering
Did you think to send us into the woods would be better for you?
Nobody knows well the truth, the sweet poison slowly flowing in the veins

Words are enough so nobody understands what happened
Demise of this society has arrived, and you noticed it too late
When they thought this whole town would be dead, nobody would come back
Are you really sure the shadows and the corpses are not actually awake?

Malédictions et poisons suivront les personnes qui ont osé nous blesser
Loin de ce monde, la vengeance sera par les mots des ténèbres invoquée
Ils ont toujours dit "ces femmes sont diaboliques et seront notre destruction"
Les péchés de cette ville brûleront en enfer pour de bon...

J'ai dû souffrir de ces phrases, de ces accusations erronées
J'ai voulu contrôler leur pensées, pour ne plus avoir à ressentir la douleur
Même s'ils me voulaient pour ma beauté ou pour un sourire venant du cœur
Ils ne s'en iront plus jamais, je garderai cette pierre à jamais

L'obscurité est la seule chose à s'occuper de mes nombreux talents
Alors que ces gens voulaient la détruire, cette potion mettra fin à leur douleur
Pensiez-vous que nous envoyer dans les bois réparerait votre erreur ?
Personne ne sait la vérité, le doux poison qui coule dans vos veines doucement

Les mots sont assez pour que personne ne comprenne ce qui s'est passé
L'effondrement de cette société est arrivé, et ce n'est que trop tard que vous l'avez remarqué
Quand ils pensaient que toute la ville serait défunte, personne ne reviendrait
Êtes-vous sûrs que les ombres et les cadavres ne sont pas réveillés pour de vrai ?

Explanations...

Music: very complex project mixing some electronica and medieval-like instruments. Pad and lead by Toxic Biohazard, organ by Morphine, bridge arp by GMS, gated pads: one by Harmor (the first one), the other with a Kontakt 5 instrument (the second one).
This song has actually a concept behind it, the stories of the witches are not full yet, but I tried with all info I got by playing Town of Salem (Coven expansion).
Project requires FL 12.4.2 b33 or more to be opened correctly (Fruity Delay 3 is needed). No compatibility patch for former versions.