Nynthixia productions

『Chimene』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160902-00376
LIN (full) : 「598 375 782」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160905-000488
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Forsaken - TRACK 2/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

いつもあなたと一緒にいることに感謝するとき瞬間について覚えている
まだ自分の考えを信頼錯覚に閉じ込められた
誰を傷つけたいと思ったことはないけど選択肢を持っていなかった
これらの創傷からの痛みはゆっくりと成長したが

個別の人生に分離された冒頭に同じ運命
再び会うまではお互いが一緒になっているため同じ関心がされて
いつも自分の弱点や強みについて十分に知っていた
あなたはまだ私を取り巻くこのような錯覚を信じていたが

いつもあなたと一緒にいることに感謝するとき瞬間について覚えている
まだ自分の考えを信頼錯覚に閉じ込められた
誰を傷つけたいと思ったことはないけど選択肢を持っていなかった
これらの創傷からの痛みはゆっくりと成長したが

いつもあなたの甘い思い出での素敵な女の子でした
一方で私の考えは次第に遅く狂気に暗くしました
あなたがこの女の子と何をしていた手遅れに理解した
もうこれらの感情を隠さないしあなたを許したことはないでした

まだ考えながらあなたの妹はあなたがやっていること許してくれる
その後あなたの素朴な精神によって構築されたような錯覚を破壊された
でもこれらの甘い言葉で、私の決定は永遠に同じままになります
あなたは良い選択をした場合、何も失っていないだろう...

I remember about the moments when I always appreciate being with you
Trapped into an illusion where I still trust your thoughts
I never wanted to hurt anybody but I didn't have the choice
While the pain from these wounds was slowly growing

The same fates at the beginning which were separating into distinct lives
Until meeting again each other being together because of a same interest
I always knew enough about your weaknesses and strengths
While you were still believing this illusion surrounding me

I remember about the moments when I always appreciate being with you
Trapped into an illusion where I still trust your thoughts
I never wanted to hurt anybody but I didn't have the choice
While the pain from these wounds was slowly growing

I was always a nice girl in your sweet memories
While my thoughts were progressively darkening into a slow madness
I understood too late what you were doing with this girl
I didn't hide these feelings anymore and never forgave you

While still thinking your sister would forgive what you have done
Then I was destroyed the illusion built by your simple-minded spirit
Even with these sweet words, my decision will stay the same forever
If you made the good choice, I wouldn't have lost anything...

Je me souviens des moments où j'ai toujours apprécié être à tes côtés
Enfermée dans une illusion où j'ai toujours cru à tes pensées
Je n'avais jamais voulu blesser qui ce soit mais tu ne m'as pas laissé le choix
Avec la douleur de ces blessures qui grandissait doucement en moi

Les mêmes destins au début qui se séparaient en deux distinctes vies
Jusqu'à nouveau se rencontrer l'une l'autre avec un même intérêt
J'ai toujours bien connu les forces et les faiblesses qui te définissaient
Pendant que tu croyais encore à l'illusion qui entourait mon esprit

Je me souviens des moments où j'ai toujours apprécié être à tes côtés
Enfermée dans une illusion où j'ai toujours cru à tes pensées
Je n'avais jamais voulu blesser qui ce soit mais tu ne m'as pas laissé le choix
Avec la douleur de ces blessures qui grandissait doucement en moi

Dans tes doux souvenirs, j'étais toujours cette gentille fille que tu voyais
Pendant que mes pensées s'assombrissaient doucement dans une latente folie
J'ai compris bien trop tard ce que tu faisais avec cette fille si jolie
Je n'avais plus caché ces sentiments et ne t'ai jamais pardonné...

Quand tu pensais que ta sœur allait te pardonner pour ce que tu as fait
J'ai brisé ce que ton esprit naïf avait construit comme illusion
Même avec ces doux mots, ma décision restera la même à jamais
Je n'aurais rien perdu si tu avais pris la bonne décision...

I think the lyrics have a better quality than the music for this one, and the reason it took so long to be finished was mainly because of my fatigue. I didn't find any idea of lyrics when I composed the instru and... I just finished it tonight.
Music : pad with TBio, pluck by Morphine and lead by T-Force.
Story : Chimene and her brother had a happy childhood, began different lives then they fell in love with the same girl. While the brother is very nice, Chimene becomes very jealous and began considering her brother as a rival, while trying to maintaining the image of the "sweet little girl" during a good moment... Until her jealousy explodes into rage.
"No matter if you are a member of her family, you would never be forgiven."

Hello, Nynthixia there!

I can't believe the album hasn't been delayed because I had a technical problem... It is on time!

As you know there are 2 albums for this month, one for September 3rd with songs for Lily, Yukari, Ritsu (and a few kokone and IA as guests), one for September 24th with songs for IA, kokone, Totoko and Tei.

DOWNLOAD CLASSIC ALBUM VERSION (13 TRACKS)

So this is the first one. Due to the fact it is an "inter seasons" album, there is only a classic version.
Tracks 2, 3, 4 and 5 are season 2 songs. All other songs are from season 3.

And this is the changelog of the tracks which are different from their demo version. If you don't see them listed, that means the album version is the same as the demo. Remember : the changes can be a patch (repairing errors in a music), mixdown changes, extensions (most of time) and there can be instrument changes as well.

02. Beyond the Death (feat. Yukari Yuzuki)
[EXTENSION] Extended the beginning + fixing hats

05. Re;Turn (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning, bridge chorus 1/verse 1, end

06. Turn Back (feat. Ritsu Namine)
[INSTRUMENT] Added panned crashes at the end and in the last part of the last verse
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning
[INSTRUMENT] Added the voice SFX before the last verse

08. Melonora (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning and end

09. Out of Time (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning
[INSTRUMENT] Added kicks during all beats parts
[INSTRUMENT] Added a SFX just before the first chorus
[MIXDOWN] Reduced the ending silence

Yeah, for this one, not many changes. Several instrus were a few too long (often when it's more than 4:30 length). However, the lengths of "Re;Turn" and "Melonora" are the most significative improvements. Each of them wins about 40s!

Other news :

1) My Zunko has been received on Monday but her unlock will still be on October 11th. I needed to know the arrival date in case of trouble with the package of the reseller of the box. So you need to wait mid-October before I air some tracks featuring Zunko. I still don't have lyrics plans for her, I still have a few time, but I'll think about it soon. The first album which would feature her would logically be the December one, which will also include tracks with Itako and Kiritan.

2) I had several questions about doing concerts but I hope I will be very clear on it. In order to do this, I need to create a commercial license for the songs (which is currently impossible because the license I use does not permit that), to request a commercial license from each company for each Vocaloid used, to change the singers for several songs (because some UTAUs don't have a commercial license), and finally a room to do this. So I won't do any concerts with my songs, sorry. I rather my works still be "free to use"* for VOCALOID and UTAU users. This is a mess to me, and I want to keep the things easy. Easier for me, easier for you all! (^_^)
* What I mean by "free to use" is using by respecting all the conditions of course. It's not for pissing you off, it's to assure that people who want to do a work on these songs can do it for free without having any troubles. So please don't be mad at me for this, I do this to protect you.

3) "Cenders" will soon be on album status, I'll work on booklet and album tracks (knowing that at least one album track is done but still private). For the people who were wondering, no, "Cenders" has no meaning in English, this is a "between French and English word", the English word being "ashes" and the French one "cendres". Just inverted two letters of the French word. After for the song title "Black Cenders", if I decided to set it without the caps, this is a few normal, "black" being an English word (promised). I maybe a few broke up my rule of "words written with caps"... But no problem I guess. Also if you read the song titles translations table and that you see that "Black Cenders" is translated into French while one of the English words isn't English... This is normal.

4) Still have no news about changing (or not) the slow pace. I have at least less time to work on songs (if you want to know the details I lose a complete afternoon compared to last year), I'll try to follow the usual pace (2/3 songs a week) and if I notice this is too difficult, it will be "1/2 songs a week". There is also a possibility to change the pace of a week of end October or beginning November, but no further news about it, and it probably won't be the fastest pace (maybe the moderate one I used for summer holidays).

5) Concerning "ReLief" and "Re;2" covers : I set up the air date on September 18th (it's on a Sunday). I'll see if I fix up some things. The instru version which will be used will be the piapro one but modified with the real song to get the missing voice SFX.

I think this is all.

Enjoy the album!
Nynthixia

『Unbearable Despair』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160830-00375
LIN (full) : 「598 368 144」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160830-000487
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Forsaken - TRACK 7/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : self harm and suicide references
Restricted on : (none)

 

雨が地面に落下したように、暗い雲に注ぎた
すると全ての日はまさに永遠の繰り返しで同じようだ
泣くと助けを求めるために私を作るこの退屈な日常
もうこののいずれかを負いませんことを知っている

魂を傷つけるまで何度も何度も繰り返し同じ痛み
この血がこの苦しみの間に私の外出を気にされない
これらの傷とこの痛みを伴う生活を耐えるために続行されない
できるだけ早く私はまだ悲鳴と絶望に泣くでしょう

まだこの架空の世界の破損の空気を呼吸していながら
振り返ることなく背後に捨て人生の各断片
直接それに直面する現実を恐れてほしくなかった
最終的にこの問題とこの耐え難い痛みを終了でしょう

魂を傷つけるまで何度も何度も繰り返し同じ痛み
この血がこの苦しみの間に私の外出を気にされない
これらの傷とこの痛みを伴う生活を耐えるために続行されない
できるだけ早く私はまだ悲鳴と絶望に泣くでしょう

La la la...

As the rain falling on the ground, poured by the dark clouds
Then all the days seem exactly the same in an eternal repetition
This boring daily routine making me to cry and ask for help
I know that I won't bear any of this anymore

The same pain repeating again and again until hurting the soul
I won't care about this blood going out of me during this torment
I won't continue to endure this painful life with these wounds
As soon I will still scream and cry in the despair

While I am still breathing the corrupted air of this illusory world
Each fragment of the life that I abandon behind without looking back
I didn't want to be afraid of the reality to directly face it
I will finally end this problem and this unbearable pain

The same pain repeating again and again until hurting the soul
I won't care about this blood going out of me during this torment
I won't continue to endure this painful life with these wounds
As soon I will still scream and cry in the despair

La la la...

Telle la pluie tombant sur le sol, que les sombres nuages ont déversée
Alors tous les jours semblent parfaitement dans une éternelle répétition se ressembler
Cette routine ennuyeuse me donnant envie d'appeler au secours et de hurler
Je sais que je ne pourrais plus longtemps le supporter

La même douleur qui se répète encore et encore jusqu'à blesser mon esprit
Je ne me préoccuperai plus de ce sang sortant de mon corps pendant ce tourment
Je ne continuerai pas d'endurer avec de telles blessures cette pénible vie
Tant que je continuerai dans le désespoir de hurler et de pleurer éternellement

Pendant que je respire encore l'air corrompu de ce monde illusoire
Chaque fragment de vie que je délaisse derrière sans les revoir
Pour y faire face à la réalité, je ne voulais pas en avoir peur
Je mettrai fin à ce problème et à cette insupportable douleur

La même douleur qui se répète encore et encore jusqu'à blesser mon esprit
Je ne me préoccuperai plus de ce sang sortant de mon corps pendant ce tourment
Je ne continuerai pas d'endurer avec de telles blessures cette pénible vie
Tant que je continuerai dans le désespoir de hurler et de pleurer éternellement

La la la...

When I usually do trance music, this is a bright instru, but... This one is slower and more... Depressing. Well, the current lyrics, not very surprising I guess.
Music : mainly a work of atmo pads, the first one with Morphine, the second one with PoiZone (the lead is also with PoiZone) and the gated pad... You would recognize Harmless. As the song before, all beats are hand made.
Story : if the song seems so depressing, it's because the lyrics talk about depression themselves. For the reason of the depression itself, I didn't give much details about it. But there are many reflections about a depressed person can see : the boredom, a repetition of dark days... And I again went to the extreme side.
More seriously, depression is a real disease, and can lead to serious injuries if you don't find a way to fight against it and if you stay isolated. Never forget it.

『Erased』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160828-00374
LIN (full) : 「598 365 114」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160828-000486
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Forsaken - TRACK 4/16

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : YouTube (forbidden)

あなたを受け入れるしようとしている    常に最高の幸せと
甘い未来を考える    愛の同じ感想
なぜ今残し？    一緒にいるではない？
するとなぜこの恐怖？    それに対して戦うよ

消去された    これら感想のように
消去された    もはや恐怖を感じないこと
太陽光の下で一緒にこの甘い瞬間を楽しみながら
消去された    過去の過ちのように
消去された    永遠私たちのために
この幸せを無駄にできたものは全て消去されます

人生の断片が再構築されている    より良い幸福のため
あなたは一人になることはない    ずっとそこになります
目にこれらの涙    あなたの顔に落下している
悪夢にこの悲しみ     遠くの雲の中に回している

消去された    これら感想のように
消去された    もはや恐怖を感じないこと
太陽光の下で一緒にこの甘い瞬間を楽しみながら
消去された    過去の過ちのように
消去された    永遠私たちのために
この幸せを無駄にできたものは全て消去されます

消去された    これら感想のように
消去された    もはや恐怖を感じないこと
太陽光の下で一緒にこの甘い瞬間を楽しみながら
消去された    過去の過ちのように
消去された    永遠私たちのために
この幸せを無駄にできたものは全て消去されます

When I try to embrace you
Always with the best happiness
Thinking about a sweet future
The same thoughts of love
Why leaving now?
Not being together?
Then why this fear?
I'll fight against it

Erased, like these thoughts
Erased, to not be frightened anymore
While enjoying this sweet moment together under the sunlight
Erased, like the mistakes of the past
Erased, forever for our sake
Anything that could waste this happiness will be erased

Reassembling the fragments of the life
For a better happiness
You will never be alone
I will always be there
These tears in the eyes
Falling on your face
This sadness into a nightmare
Turning into distant clouds

Erased, like these thoughts
Erased, to not be frightened anymore
While enjoying this sweet moment together under the sunlight
Erased, like the mistakes of the past
Erased, forever for our sake
Anything that could waste this happiness will be erased

Erased, like these thoughts
Erased, to not be frightened anymore
While enjoying this sweet moment together under the sunlight
Erased, like the mistakes of the past
Erased, forever for our sake
Anything that could waste this happiness will be erased

Quand j'essaie de t'enlacer
Toujours avec le meilleur bonheur
Pensant à un doux avenir
Les mêmes pensées d'amour
Pourquoi partir ?
Ne pas être ensemble pour toujours ?
Alors pourquoi cette peur ?
Je la combattrai

Effacée, comme ces pensées
Effacée, ne plus être effrayée
Pendant que sous la lumière solaire on profite de ce doux moment
Effacée, comme les erreurs du passé
Effacée, pour notre bien à jamais
Tout ce qui pourrait gâcher ce bonheur sera effacé définitivement

Fragments de la vie qui se sont réassemblés
Pour un meilleur bonheur
Tu ne seras jamais délaissée
Je serai toujours là mon cœur
Ces larmes dans tes yeux mouillés
Tombant sur ton visage
Cette tristesse dans un cauchemar est enfermée
Se transforme en distants nuages

Effacée, comme ces pensées
Effacée, ne plus être effrayée
Pendant que sous la lumière solaire on profite de ce doux moment
Effacée, comme les erreurs du passé
Effacée, pour notre bien à jamais
Tout ce qui pourrait gâcher ce bonheur sera effacé définitivement

Effacée, comme ces pensées
Effacée, ne plus être effrayée
Pendant que sous la lumière solaire on profite de ce doux moment
Effacée, comme les erreurs du passé
Effacée, pour notre bien à jamais
Tout ce qui pourrait gâcher ce bonheur sera effacé définitivement

I never thought I would take so many time to do this song... For a solo song. Four hours of work (at least 2h for composing), mainly because of the beats (yeah, here, all the beat loops are handmade).
Very bright music with PoiZone (atmospheres) and Morphine (bright synths) (and a few of Sytrus) without any lead track. That explains the linearity of many notes.

『Furious Hearts』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160828-00373
LIN (full) : 「598 365 112」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160828-000485
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Cenders - TRACK 7/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

私たちを取り巻く彼らの視線の内部炎がめちゃくちゃ成長し始めた
まだ彼らの破損の考えに対して苦戦を考えていたが
これらの盲目に霊が私たちの愛を守る怒りに直面している
あなたが理解できればこの戦争は役に立たない可能性があります

これらの苦労の原因となる可能性がどこにいつも思っていた
これらの質問に対する答えを見つけることなく何度も思った
彼らが物事の彼らの見解を課すことはできませんでした
これらの脅威は私たちの気持ちに到達することはありません

私たちを取り巻く彼らの視線の内部炎がめちゃくちゃ成長し始めた
まだ彼らの破損の考えに対して苦戦を考えていたが
これらの盲目に霊が私たちの愛を守る怒りに直面している
あなたが理解できればこの戦争は役に立たない可能性があります

真実に近いこと最終的に理解することはそんなにたいと思います
戦うために方法を見つけることを試みながらまだ疑問に取りつかれた
しかし物事が私の周りに起こって参照時間がなかった
尋問のこれらの瞬間の間に、あなたはもうここにいませんでした

それを修復するためにどこでもこの間違いを検索することができます
しかし何も見なかったし全てが暗闇の中に溺死されている
すると改めてそれらを見つけるおよびその存在を終了します
新しい幸福とこの破壊された未来を構築するには...

The flames inside their gazes surrounding us began to insanely grow
While I was thinking to still struggle against their corrupted thoughts
These blinded spirits facing to the rage protecting our love
This war could be useless if you could understand

I was always wondering where could be the cause of these troubles
I thought many times without finding an answer to these questions
I couldn't let them imposing their view of things
These threats will never reach our feelings

The flames inside their gazes surrounding us began to insanely grow
While I was thinking to still struggle against their corrupted thoughts
These blinded spirits facing to the rage protecting our love
This war could be useless if you could understand

I would like so much to be close to the truth and finally understand
Still haunted by the doubt while I tried to find a way to fight
But I didn't have the time to see the things happening around me
During these moments of questioning, you weren't here anymore

I could search for this mistake everywhere to repair it
But I didn't see anything and everything is being drowned into the darkness
Then I'll find them again and end their existence
To build a new happiness and this destroyed future...

And French adaptation!

Les flammes dans leurs regards nous entourant grandissaient fortement
Alors que je pensais à encore me battre contre leurs esprits corrompus
Ces esprits aveuglés faisant face à la rage protégeant notre amour dément
Cette guerre serait inutile si vous compreniez depuis le début

Je me suis toujours demandée ce qui causerait ces soucis
J'y ai pensé tant de fois sans trouver la moindre réponse à ces questions
Je ne pouvais pas les laisser nous imposer cette vision
Ces menaces n'atteindront jamais nos sentiments c'est promis

Les flammes dans leurs regards nous entourant grandissaient fortement
Alors que je pensais à encore me battre contre leurs esprits corrompus
Ces esprits aveuglés faisant face à la rage protégeant notre amour dément
Cette guerre serait inutile si vous compreniez depuis le début

J'aimerais tellement finalement comprendre et être proche de la vérité
Encore hantée par le doute pendant que j'essayais de trouver un moyen de me battre cependant
Mais je n'avais pas eu le temps de voir ce qu'il s'est passé autour de moi pendant ce temps
Alors que je me questionnais, tu n'étais déjà plus à mes côtés

Je pourrais chercher cette erreur n'importe où pour la réparer
Mais je n'avais rien vu et tout se noie dans l'obscurité
Alors je les trouverai à nouveau et je mettrai fin à leurs vies
Pour construire un nouveau bonheur et ce futur détruit...

To be honest, when I first composed a test for this song, it was a 160BPM remix for Junko's theme (Touhou) but... The lead being too hard to build, I started from zero again with a 140BPM pop song.
Music : only Toxic Biohazard for all the synths!
Story : the heroine already has a girlfriend, but they are the targets of bullying and insults from other people. The heroine tries to understand them but can't, and while she was trying to get some help alone, she noticed that someone stole her girlfriend. She sees this as an insult and promises to kill everyone on her way, everyone who could "steal" her girlfriend. I know this yandere story is a few complicated to understand... And it is.

Hello, Nynthixia there!

For this year, the work paces periods will change... I will do a clear point for the end of 2016.

On tomorrow, the work pace will be "2 to 3 songs a week" (the slowest one) but it will last until... Mid December (and not until mid October). The reason is that I don't have holidays anymore at the end October, so I'll have less time to work on songs. The work pace could even be modified to "1 to 2 songs a week" if I don't have enough time at all.

So if you see I air less songs than usual, don't worry, it's normal. Remember that producing isn't the main "job" in my life (I don't know if I can call that a "job" since this is for non commercial goals).
(Yeah, still a student.)

From August 29th to December 18th : A pace "2 to 3 songs a week"
From December 19th to January 1st : B pace "1 song everyday"
And after, A pace again (more details later!)

Concerning "Welcome to Hell" album... It's done. The album is packaged and you'll have to wait about a month to get the album versions. Also, remember, from this album, transcendent and classic versions are included in the same .zip file. So there will be only one download link but a bigger file (more than 250Mo).

For the demos of "Cenders", "Furious Hearts" will be uploaded in the next days. After, I begin the works for November. And I have no idea at all on what I will work exactly!

Next plans for me? Correcting the covers for September if needed, making the booklet and the transcendent tracks for "Cenders" (yes, it will have a transcendent version) and... Trying to think about the next songs?

Enjoy! And "Perish Songs" album airing on next Saturday, don't forget it, write it somewhere, but you will be able to come download it on September 3rd at 12:00 AM (GMT+1) / 7:00 AM (GMT+8) on the blog and on fichier-zip!

Nynthixia

『Behind the Mirror』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160826-00371
LIN (full) : 「598 362 010」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160827-000484
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Cenders - TRACK 1/13

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

毎回私に対してこれらの言葉に耳を傾けます
他の現実の前でだけ淡い反射を見て
数時間立ち往生同じ思考と離れて歩いて前に
なぜ誰も私が物事を見る方法を理解しようとしませんか？

私の精神のうち身元のこの断片を引きちぎるに締めよ
すると私の考えを導くこの思いやりのある声が止まる
ちょうど一人になりたかった、そのようなことを尋ねたことはない
どのような権利によってあなたは私の人生を決定したいですか？

誰もが人類のために他の業務で忙しいかもしれない
彼らは考えている一方でこの他方の面を破壊することはより重要である
誰も実際に自分の目でそれに直面することができない
なぜ誰も私が物事を見る方法を理解しようとしませんか？

私の精神のうち身元のこの断片を引きちぎるに締めよ
すると私の考えを導くこの思いやりのある声が止まる
ちょうど一人になりたかった、そのようなことを尋ねたことはない
どのような権利によってあなたは私の人生を決定したいですか？

(誰も見ることができない)
(誰も聞くすることができない)

Everytime I listen to these words against me
Seeing just a pale reflection in front of the other reality
Before walking away with the same thoughts stuck for several hours
Then why nobody even tries to understand how I see the things?

Tying to tearing off this fragment of identity out of my spirit
Then to silence this caring voice guiding my thoughts
I never asked such a thing, I just wanted to be alone
By what right you want to decide my life?

Everyone could be busy with other affairs for the sake of humanity
While they are thinking that destroying this other face is more important
Nobody can really face it with their own eyes
Then why nobody even tries to understand how I see the things?

Tying to tearing off this fragment of identity out of my spirit
Then to silence this caring voice guiding my thoughts
I never asked such a thing, I just wanted to be alone
By what right you want to decide my life?

Tying to tearing off this fragment of identity out of my spirit
Then to silence this caring voice guiding my thoughts
I never asked such a thing, I just wanted to be alone
By what right you want to decide my life?

(Nobody can see)
(Nobody can listen)

Chaque fois que j'entends ces mots contre moi
Voyant juste un pâle reflet devant l'autre réalité
Avant de s'en aller avec les mêmes pensées pour plusieurs heures conservées
Alors pourquoi personne n'essaie de comprendre la manière dont je les vois ?

Essayant d'arracher ce fragment d'identité hors de mon esprit
Puis de réduire au silence cette voix attentive qui guidait mes pensées
Je n'ai jamais demandé une telle chose, je voulais juste que l'on me laisse en réalité
De par quel droit vous pouvez décider ainsi de ma vie ?

Tout le monde pourrait être occupé avec d'autres affaires pour le bien de l'humanité
Alors qu'ils pensent qu'il est plus important de détruire cet autre visage en moi
Avec leurs propres yeux, personne ne peut vraiment faire face à cette réalité
Alors pourquoi personne n'essaie de comprendre la manière dont je les vois ?

Essayant d'arracher ce fragment d'identité hors de mon esprit
Puis de réduire au silence cette voix attentive qui guidait mes pensées
Je n'ai jamais demandé une telle chose, je voulais juste que l'on me laisse en réalité
De par quel droit vous pouvez décider ainsi de ma vie ?

Essayant d'arracher ce fragment d'identité hors de mon esprit
Puis de réduire au silence cette voix attentive qui guidait mes pensées
Je n'ai jamais demandé une telle chose, je voulais juste que l'on me laisse en réalité
De par quel droit vous pouvez décider ainsi de ma vie ?

(Personne ne peut regarder)
(Personne ne peut écouter)

Sometimes, the personalities or the characters the schizophrenic people see aren't always bad. They can also be good and caring. But in both cases, other people want to get rid of them. And the ill people don't want when their other comrade isn't evil. They'll always deny it. It's like "erasing a friend".
Music : PoiZone as main synth, Harmless as other synth and... Morphine with a very very light lead, that you'll have difficulties to hear even in the instrumental (especially for the choruses).

『Straight to the Target』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160824-00370
LIN (full) : 「598 362 010」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160826-000482
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Cenders - TRACK 2/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : murder and bullying references
Restricted on : piapro (not recommended)

困難な瞬間および悲しい思い出で構築された過去に直面している
痛みはもう無視できないがまだ苦労していなければならない
あなたが全ての苦しみを取得するための単純な犠牲者でした
この憎しみを感じたがゆっくりと私の思考の内側に成長している

常に暗闇の中で泣いているおよびこれらの恐ろしいことを考えます
全てのこの時間の間に復讐のこの苦い味を保ったが
あなたが考えた場合はちょうどこのような他の人を傷つけることができます
それからこの幻滅を破ると正義の誰もが値する得るでしょう

困難な瞬間および悲しい思い出で構築された過去に直面している
痛みはもう無視できないがまだ苦労していなければならない
あなたが全ての苦しみを取得するための単純な犠牲者でした
この憎しみを感じたがゆっくりと私の思考の内側に成長している

あなたの目で見ていたが、この強い気持ちが強化しました
全ての私の謝罪を言うだろうが時間が非常に速く離れて飛んでいる
あなたはあなたの運命を確保するために初めから間違った人を選んだ
この人生はすでに今終わるだろうと誰を推測することができますか？

Facing to a past built with difficult moments and sad memories
A pain that I can't ignore anymore but I still must struggle
I was a simple victim for you to get all the suffering
While I was feeling this hatred slowly growing inside my thoughts

Always crying in the darkness and thinking about these horrible things
While I was keeping this bitter taste of revenge during all this time
If you thought you could just hurt other people like this
Then I'll break this disillusion and get the justice everyone deserves

Facing to a past built with difficult moments and sad memories
A pain that I can't ignore anymore but I still must struggle
I was a simple victim for you to get all the suffering
While I was feeling this hatred slowly growing inside my thoughts

While I was looking in your eyes, this strong feeling strengthened
I would tell all my apologizes but the time is flying away very fast
You chose the wrong person since the beginning to assure your fate
Who could guess that this life would end now already?

Faisant face à un passé construit de tristes souvenirs et de difficiles moments
Une douleur que je ne peux plus ignorer et contre laquelle je dois combattre cependant
Je n'étais qu'une simple victime pour toi, prête à recevoir toute cette souffrance
Alors que je sentais la haine grandir dans mes pensées en silence

Pensant à ces horribles choses alors que je pleure dans l'obscurité
Pendant que je gardais en moi cette amère revanche depuis tout ce temps passé
Si tu pensais que tu pouvais juste blesser les autres gens en toute impunité
Alors je briserai cette désillusion et je rendrai la justice que tout le monde a mérité

Faisant face à un passé construit de tristes souvenirs et de difficiles moments
Une douleur que je ne peux plus ignorer et contre laquelle je dois combattre cependant
Je n'étais qu'une simple victime pour toi, prête à recevoir toute cette souffrance
Alors que je sentais la haine grandir dans mes pensées en silence

Pendant que je regardais dans tes yeux, ce fort sentiment s'est encore renforcé
J'aurais voulu m'excuser mais le temps s'envole trop vite pour le remarquer
Tu as choisi la mauvaise personne depuis le début pour assurer ton destin
Qui aurait pu deviner que c'était déjà ta propre fin ?

Sorry for the quality of lyrics, but I got several problems for writing them.
Music : main pad with TBio, plucks with Harmor and Morphine, and lead track with Harmless. Yeah, lots of S03 synths.
Story : a few similar to "Unease;Disease" but the bully is targeting several people and in their list... The heroine, a quite mad girl who decides to give justice to everyone, with a... Special way. Also, this girl is not a yangire (unlike the one in "Unease;Disease").

『Patricia』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Sony Vegas Pro 13
Voice SFX : acapela
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160822-00355
LIN (full) : 「598 357 971」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160822-000467
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Cenders - TRACK 11/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

思考は絶望と強い愛を保護するために怒りの中に溺れた
このような脆弱な錯覚上に構築されたこの世界は最終的に崩壊している
これらの気持ちの甘味を通じ、この復讐はまだ苦いでした
次にあなたが赦されるために全てのあなたの希望を失うことができます

沈黙のこれらの他の瞬間にそれらを一緒に見ていました
初めから、彼が彼の未来を保証するために私と一緒に嘘つきを知っていた
深い憎しみによって侵入、この運命は身を任せることができなかった
私の思考を控えこのような錯覚を打破する準備ができていた

思考は絶望と強い愛を保護するために怒りの中に溺れた
このような脆弱な錯覚上に構築されたこの世界は最終的に崩壊している
これらの気持ちの甘味を通じ、この復讐はまだ苦いでした
次にあなたが赦されるために全てのあなたの希望を失うことができます

初めから、これらの全ての文章だけの独特な意味を持っていた
あなたは私があなたを保護するための偽の愛を作ることによってと思いました
これらの嘘のための唯一の報酬は致命的な罰でしょう
どのように十分に愚かなことだろうと第二のために考えるだろうか？

この鮮血が流れて見ていたが私の幸福は成長していた
なぜ彼女はまだ愛とこの致命的なミスの後にあなたを許すだろうか？
彼女は真実を学びますとき愛されることができる唯一の人物でしょう
幸せな未来についてのこの夢は最終的に真となります...

暗闇の中で泣いこの許せない嘘つきを待っている貧しい少女
私の同情が消去されたことを見て、彼女は逃げた
なぜあなたは幸せに満ちこの避けられない未来を逃れているか？
この時点で全ての私の希望はこの錯覚で崩壊された...

The thoughts drowned into the despair and the rage to protect a strong love
This world built on a such fragile illusion finally collapses
Through the sweet taste of these feelings, this revenge was still bitter
Then you can lose all your hopes to be forgiven

I was seeing them together during these other moments of silence
Since the beginning I knew he was a liar with me to assure his future
Invaded by a deep hatred, I couldn't let this fate happen
I was ready to break down this illusion that refrained my thoughts

The thoughts drowned into the despair and the rage to protect a strong love
This world built on a such fragile illusion finally collapses
Through the sweet taste of these feelings, this revenge was still bitter
Then you can lose all your hopes to be forgiven

Since the beginning, all these sentences only had an unique meaning
You thought by creating a fake love for me would protect you
The only reward for these lies will be a deadly punishment
How could you think for a second that I would be stupid enough?

While I was seeing this fresh blood flowing, my happiness was growing
Why would she still love and forgive you after this fatal mistake?
When she will learn the truth, I will be the only person who can be loved
This dream about a happy future will finally be true...

The poor girl waiting for this unforgivable liar crying in the darkness
Seeing that my compassion was erased, she ran away
Why are you fleeing this unavoidable future full of happiness?
At this moment all my hopes were collapsing with this illusion...

Les pensées noyées par la rage et le désespoir pour protéger cet amour puissant
Ce monde construit sur une illusion si fragile s'effondre finalement
À travers la douceur de ces sentiments, cette vengeance amère est restée
Alors tu perdras tout espoir d'être pardonné

Pendant ces moments de silence, ensemble je les voyais
Depuis le début je savais que pour assurer son avenir il me mentait
Envahie par une haine profonde, je ne pouvais laisser ce destin arriver
J'étais prête à briser son illusion qui retenait mes pensées

Les pensées noyées par la rage et le désespoir pour protéger cet amour puissant
Ce monde construit sur une illusion si fragile s'effondre finalement
À travers la douceur de ces sentiments, cette vengeance amère est restée
Alors tu perdras tout espoir d'être pardonné

Depuis le début, toutes ces phrases et mots qui avaient une unique signification
Tu pensais qu'un amour fait de toutes pièces te protégerait
La seule récompense pour tous ces mensonges sera une mortelle sanction
Comment pourrais-tu penser ne serait-ce qu'une seconde que je serais assez stupide pour croire à tes idées ?

Pendant que je regardais ce sang frais couler, mon bonheur grandissait
Après cette erreur fatale, comment pourrait-elle encore t'aimer et te pardonner ?
Quand elle saura la vérité, je serai la seule personne qu'elle pourra aimer
Ce rêve d'un futur heureux pourrait enfin se réaliser...

La pauvre fille qui attendait ce menteur impardonnable, pleurant dans l'obscurité
Elle s'est enfuie lorsqu'elle a vu que ma compassion s'était effacée
Pourquoi est-ce que tu fuis ce futur inévitable rempli de gaieté ?
À ce moment, avec cette illusion, tous mes espoirs se sont effondrés...

6 years of Lily already... Yay! <3 Happy birthday Lily!
I remembered that a very good song I made with Lily was her version of "Painful", which was a techno song (she even performed it better than IA). I wanted to get the same spirit for her birthday track and... First time I use Slicex (this software has a very cool gijinka by the way <3). Other inspiration for this song : the Technoboy remix of "Sky High" (DJ Zany) (I let you search that on YT).
This isn't possible to sing this correctly, especially the fast part (for 160BPM).
Finally, there was so much work on this track, I usually compose for 30/60 minutes... This one... About 2h.
Story : Imagine you're a guy in love with a girl and that this girl... Is the target of a yandere. You know very well who the yandere is. What do you think to do? Well... Trying to pretend that the yandere is the person you love. Only works if the yandere is dumb and... It's very very rarely the case. No, that's clearly not the good thing to do.

『Lara』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Sony Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160820-00354
LIN (full) : 「598 357 399」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160822-000466
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Cenders - TRACK 6/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

この強力な愛は長い時間の間に隠されたまま
いつかこの未知の真実についての全てを明らかにすることを決めた
それを最初に気付いたが次第に発見しそれを受け入れていない
場合でもこれらの感情や言葉は信じることは不可能でしょう

あなたに近いこととこのような希望の幸せを共有したいと思った
ちょうどその自分自身の全てを伝えるこの甘い沈黙を聞いて
彼の無意味な魂はこの世から消去されていたが
これら全ての邪悪な嘘つきであなただけを残すことは決してないだろう

これらの脅威は決定的に忘れされるまで一つずつ崩壊している
あらゆる思考の空あらゆる人生の見捨てこれらの視線
真実を知ることができず大きな詐欺に目がくらん
私たちは完全にお互いを知ることができる唯一の者です...

あなたに近いこととこのような希望の幸せを共有したいと思った
ちょうどその自分自身の全てを伝えるこの甘い沈黙を聞いて
彼の無意味な魂はこの世から消去されていたが
これら全ての邪悪な嘘つきであなただけを残すことは決してないだろう

This strong love remaining hidden during a long time
Someday I decided to reveal everything about this unknown truth
Not noticing it first but progressively discovering and accepting it
Even if these feelings and words would be impossible to believe

I wanted to be close to you and share this such wanted happiness
Just listening to this sweet silence then telling ourselves everything
While his pointless soul was being erased from this world
I'll never leave you alone with all these evil liars

These threats collapsing one by one until being definitively forgotten
These gazes empty of any thoughts and deserted of any life
Blinded by a large deception without being able to know the truth
We are the only persons who can perfectly know each other...

I wanted to be close to you and share this such wanted happiness
Just listening to this sweet silence then telling ourselves everything
While his pointless soul was being erased from this world
I'll never leave you alone with all these evil liars

Ce fort sentiment d'amour que je cachais en moi depuis longtemps
Un jour j'ai décidé de tout révéler à propos de cette inconnue vérité
Sans le remarquer au départ mais petit à petit je le découvrais et l'acceptais
Même si ces sentiments et mots auraient été difficiles à croire cependant

Je voulais juste être à tes côtés et échanger ce bonheur tant désiré
En écoutant juste ce doux silence puis que nous dévoilions tout ce que nous avions sur le cœur
Pendant que de ce monde, son âme inutile était effacée
Je ne laisserai jamais seule avec tous ces menteurs

Ces menaces qui s'effondrent une à une jusqu'à être définitivement oubliées
Ces regards désertés de toute vie et vides de pensées
Aveuglées par une grande tromperie sans être capable de discerner la vérité
Nous sommes les seules personnes qui peuvent parfaitement l'une l'autre se connaître, pas vrai...

Je voulais juste être à tes côtés et échanger ce bonheur tant désiré
En écoutant juste ce doux silence puis que nous dévoilions tout ce que nous avions sur le cœur
Pendant que de ce monde, son âme inutile était effacée
Je ne laisserai jamais seule avec tous ces menteurs

To be honest, for the lyrics, I hesitated to rate between "light" and "normal" yandere, but in the doubt... I rathered setting a higher rating.
Music : almost exclusive TBio test, the real lead track being very very light. (For those who didn't understand : TBio = Toxic Biohazard)
Story : this one doesn't happen in a very very bad way unlike many others, because... It's too huge to know "what is the problem". I explain. This wasn't very obvious in the lyrics, but the heroine offered everyone a gift of chocolates... To almost every classmates she knew, including her lover. However, only the lover had a normal box, all others having poisoned boxes.
Maybe you could think it was very very bad luck? Not sure.
"It's when it's very big that you don't see it."