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Immortalized

Posted on December 25 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Miscellaneous

『Immortalized』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Ozone 8 Elements, iZotope Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181225-00959
LIN (full) : 「599 270 880」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181225-001106
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 5/12

Rating : Questionable - M10
Not recommended for people under... : M10
Reason : possibly confusing content
Restricted on : (none)


This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

桜の上で、彼女は喜んで永遠のために休んでいくよね
死後も、力は宇宙のはるか遠くに輝く星に与えられていた

国によって賞賛された女神の自由と犠牲は決して忘れられない
彼女の優しは宝石だ、人々の心の中に残れてく、死んでいない…

まだ上から声が聞こえて、風を介して甘い言葉を囁きて
暗闇の中でさえて、もう寂しくない、精神は私を見ている

国によって賞賛された女神の自由と犠牲は決して忘れられない
彼女の優しは宝石だ、人々の心の中に残れてく、死んでいない…

国によって賞賛された女神の自由と犠牲は決して忘れられない
彼女の優しは宝石だ、人々の心の中に残れてく、死んでいない

国によって賞賛された女神の自由と犠牲は決して忘れられない
彼女の優しは宝石だ、人々の心の中に残れてく、死んでいない…

Original English text

Above the cherry blossoms, she is happily resting for the eternity
Even after death, her strength has been given to the stars shining far away in the universe

The freedom and the sacrifices of a goddess admired by her nation will never be forgotten
Her kindness is a jewel, she will remain in people's hearts, but she is never dying...

I still hear the voices from above, whispering their sweet words through the wind
I don't feel lonely anymore, even in the darkness, her spirit is watching me

The freedom and the sacrifices of a goddess admired by her nation will never be forgotten
Her kindness is a jewel, she will remain in people's hearts, but she is never dying...

The freedom and the sacrifices of a goddess admired by her nation will never be forgotten
Her kindness is a jewel, she will remain in people's hearts, but she is never dying

The freedom and the sacrifices of a goddess admired by her nation will never be forgotten
Her kindness is a jewel, she will remain in people's hearts, but she is never dying...

And French adaptation!

Au-delà des cerisiers, elle repose paisiblement éternellement
Même après la mort, sa force a été confiée aux étoiles aux confins de l'espace-temps

La liberté et les sacrifices d'une déesse admirée par son peuple ne seront jamais oubliés
Sa gentillesse est précieuse, elle restera dans leurs cœurs, mais ne meurt jamais...

J'entends encore les voix de l'au-delà, chuchotant leurs doux mots à travers le vent
Je ne me sens plus seule, même dans les ténèbres, son esprit me regarde tout le temps

La liberté et les sacrifices d'une déesse admirée par son peuple ne seront jamais oubliés
Sa gentillesse est précieuse, elle restera dans leurs cœurs, mais ne meurt jamais...

La liberté et les sacrifices d'une déesse admirée par son peuple ne seront jamais oubliés
Sa gentillesse est précieuse, elle restera dans leurs cœurs, mais ne meurt jamais

La liberté et les sacrifices d'une déesse admirée par son peuple ne seront jamais oubliés
Sa gentillesse est précieuse, elle restera dans leurs cœurs, mais ne meurt jamais...

Explanations...

I think there is a false note somewhere but it doesn't sound that bad, will try to correct it for album though.
About a woman who did many sacrifices and efforts for her nation, and has been considered as a goddess by them. Such a good person she has been given immortality so she can still watch over her own people.
Music: dark and deep pop with very few beats. Quite atmospheric and ethereal. Lead and bridge by Sakura, pad by FM8, dark pad by DSK Odisea.

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Time for the reveals... (new VOCALOID!)

Posted on December 25 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia there, and merry Christmas everyone!

So, I guess I can finally reveal who was the new singer... Yeah, there were few clues few months before, it's Xin Hua. Japanese voicebank of course since I don't know Chinese at all... Might be very interesting to use her.

Xin Hua!

Here is the cutie!

So her serial is working, that's why I can confirm her only now. Her page is correctly online now. Yeah, I played around a bit with the text.

And the schedule for this week and the next one? Well I can finally reveal it! You might have guessed for yesterday, it was the only track that wasn't for Oniko, being in the December album remaining, "Zoe" for Akari. "Immortalized" is in WIP status right now. Instru is done, lyrics are going to be written. But it was for after it became more difficult...

These are the scheduled songs

12/24 - Zoe (feat. Kizuna Akari)
12/25 - Immortalized (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
12/26 - Adele (feat. Xin Hua)
12/27 - Cosmic Shock (feat. Kizuna Akari)
12/28 - Forest of Tears (feat. Momone Momo)
12/29 - Annachiara (feat. Momone Momo) - album "Towards the Dead Door" gets aired
12/30 - SUZANIA (feat. Kizuna Akari)
12/31 - My Own Little Trauma (feat. Xin Hua)
01/01 - Blackened (feat. Xin Hua)
01/02 - Crawling Under My Skin (feat. Momone Momo)
01/03 - RAENIA (feat. Kizuna Akari)
01/04 - The Worst Ending Ever (feat. Kizuna Akari)
01/05 - Magnilda (feat. Momone Momo)
01/06 - Zerdali (feat. Xin Hua)

 

I'll reveal at the same time the tracklist for January album. The last track will be done after January 7th. Air date is for January 26th. The day before IA's birthday.

CD24 - "Psycho Ending"

01. My Own Little Trauma (feat. Xin Hua)
02. Adele (feat. Xin Hua)
03. The Worst Ending Ever (feat. Kizuna Akari)
04. RAENIA (feat. Kizuna Akari)
05. Crawling Under My Skin (feat. Momone Momo)
06. Annachiara (feat. Momone Momo)
07. Forest of Tears (feat. Momone Momo)
08. Magnilda (feat. Momone Momo)
09. Cosmic Shock (feat. Kizuna Akari)
10. SUZANIA (feat. Kizuna Akari)
11. Blackened (feat. Xin Hua)
12. Zerdali (feat. Xin Hua)
13. Nothing Off Limits (feat. Xin Hua)

 

See you in few hours on Oniko's page!

Nynthixia

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Zoe

Posted on December 24 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere

『Zoe』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, Ozone 8 Elements, Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181224-00958
LIN (full) : 「599 269 614」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181224-001105
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - 2/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

ような広大な世界で、君なしで一人でいるように感じて
誰が決心しても、君は決して立ち去るべきではないでしょう

望ましい幸せが見つかるまで、至る所で君を探して
たとえその保護者が最後の一息を捧げなければならなくても

涙と叫び声が失われる刑務所にいて
何でも言うことができて、誰にも連絡しない
どの時点で彼らは終焉を望んでか知って
でも、この日は起こらないでしょうと約束してく...

ような広大な世界で、君なしで一人でいるように感じて
誰が決心しても、君は決して立ち去るべきではないでしょう

望ましい幸せが見つかるまで、至る所で君を探して
たとえその保護者が最後の一息を捧げなければならなくても

ある日でも私達は一緒に手を取り合った
人々引き離そうとあらゆる努力をしたね
許さない、持続するにはあまりにも多くなった
皆が覚えているでしょう最後の罰を与えて...

ような広大な世界で、君なしで一人でいるように感じて
誰が決心しても、君は決して立ち去るべきではないでしょう

目は絶望に満ち、自分の体に流れる鮮血を見ていく
小さな復讐、そして今、障害は全て見えなくなっていく

私達を引き離したのはこれが最後だった
全てのように失われる多くの脅威を言って
それなら、なぜこの顔に涙が流れているの?
彼らを殺した、本当に君を愛したので...

ような広大な世界で、君なしで一人でいるように感じて
誰が決心しても、君は決して立ち去るべきではないでしょう

目は絶望に満ち、自分の体に流れる鮮血を見ていく
小さな復讐、そして今、障害は全て見えなくなっていく

Original English text

I feel alone without you in this such vast world
You should never leave, no matter who decides about it

I'll search for you everywhere until I find the desired happiness
Even if its guardians have to give out a last breath

I'm in a prison where tears and screams get lost
I can say anything, I won't reach anyone
I know at which point they want my demise
But I promise this day won't happen...

I feel alone without you in this such vast world
You should never leave, no matter who decides about it

I'll search for you everywhere until I find the desired happiness
Even if its guardians have to give out a last breath

Even on a day we were together holding our hands
People did everything to try to separate us
I won't forgive them, it became too much to sustain
I will give a last punishment everyone will remember...

I feel alone without you in this such vast world
You should never leave, no matter who decides about it

Their eyes full of despair, looking at the fresh blood flowing on their bodies
This is my little revenge, and now the obstacles have all disappeared from sight

This was the last time they separated us
Saying many threats that will be lost like everything
Then why are these tears flowing on your face?
I killed them because I really loved you...

I feel alone without you in this such vast world
You should never leave, no matter who decides about it

Their eyes full of despair, looking at the fresh blood flowing on their bodies
This is my little revenge, and now the obstacles have all disappeared from sight

And French adaptation!

Je me sens seule dans ce monde si vaste sans ta présence à mes côtés
Peu importe qui le décide, tu ne devrais jamais me quitter

Je te chercherai partout jusqu'à trouver le bonheur tant désiré
Même si ses gardiens doivent laisser leur dernier souffle s'échapper

Je suis dans une prison où se perdent les larmes et les hurlements
Je peux dire ce que je veux, sans que personne ne se sente concerné
Je sais à quel point ils souhaitent voir ma destruction autant
Mais je promets que ce jour n'arrivera jamais...

Je me sens seule dans ce monde si vaste sans ta présence à mes côtés
Peu importe qui le décide, tu ne devrais jamais me quitter

Je te chercherai partout jusqu'à trouver le bonheur tant désiré
Même si ses gardiens doivent laisser leur dernier souffle s'échapper

Même si un jour nous étions ensemble à nous tenir la main
Les gens ont tout fait pour essayer de nous séparer
Je ne leur pardonnerai pas, c'est trop à supporter
Je leur donnerai une dernière punition dont ils se souviendront jusqu'à la fin...

Je me sens seule dans ce monde si vaste sans ta présence à mes côtés
Peu importe qui le décide, tu ne devrais jamais me quitter

Leurs yeux remplis de désespoir, regardant le sang frais sur leurs corps s'écouler
C'est ma petite vengeance, et maintenant tous les obstacles se sont évaporés

C'était la dernière fois qu'ils nous ont séparés
Disant tant de menaces qui comme tout seront perdues à jamais
Alors pourquoi ces larmes sur ton visage continuent-elles de s'écouler ?
Si je les ai tués, c'est parce qu'en réalité je t'aimais...

Je me sens seule dans ce monde si vaste sans ta présence à mes côtés
Peu importe qui le décide, tu ne devrais jamais me quitter

Leurs yeux remplis de désespoir, regardant le sang frais sur leurs corps s'écouler
C'est ma petite vengeance, et maintenant tous les obstacles se sont évaporés

Explanations...

Story: a young girl being in love with another one, but their families hate each other. And since the heroine is quite insane in her head, the only solution she finds to keep her happiness alive is to kill both of their parents.
Music: pad, chords and lead by FM8, long bell by Mikro Prism, flute by M1, piano by FL Keys and the guitar by Slayer.

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Solena

Posted on December 21 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Limited compatibility patch, Tragedy

『Solena』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Ozone 8 Elements, iZotope Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181219-00957
LIN (full) : 「599 265 816」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181220-001104
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 12/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : suicide
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

この運命を待っていた数年が経ちていた
忘れられたかのように、後ろに追いやられた
何も尋ねることができない味のない場所で
他に何もない、本当の気持ちはなかった

両方のために幸せを望んでいたよ
ほんの少し願い、それ以上のことはない
なぜ私の夢は現実にはならないの?
彼が本当に愛しているか知らないよ...

他の誰かとの夜が裏切られていただね
残酷な真実が明らかになるまでだね
だけが知っている、そんなに後悔しているよ
彼がそれを学ぶとき、何になるでしょうのね?

恥ずかしいと感じてた、何も言えなかった
逃げた、できる限り、維持することができない
この罪は私たちにとっては重すぎて
落ちていた、海の深みに連れて行きていた...

Original English text

It's been several years I have been waiting for this fate
I have been left behind, as if I was forgotten
In a tasteless place, where I can't ask anything
There was nothing else, no true feelings

I wanted happiness for both of us
Just a little wish, nothing more than that
Why can't my dreams become a reality?
I don't know if he really loves me...

An evening with someone else betrayal happened
Until the cruel truth gets revealed
Only I know, and I regret so much
What will I become when he will learn it?

I felt ashamed, I couldn't say anything
I ran away, as far as I could, I couldn't sustain it
This sin is too heavy for both of us
I fell, taken into the depths of the sea...

And French adaptation!

Cela fait plusieurs années que j'attendais ce destin que je désirais tant
J'ai été délaissée, comme oubliée
Dans un endroit insipide, où je ne peux rien demander
Il n'y avait rien d'autre, aucun vrai sentiment

Notre bonheur était la seule chose que je souhaitais
Juste un petit souhait, rien de plus que cela
Pourquoi mes rêves ne peuvent-ils se réaliser ?
Je ne sais pas s'il m'aime tant que cela...

Un soir un autre a fait survenir la trahison qui a tout fait basculer
Jusqu'à ce qu'un destin cruel soit révélé
Seule moi le sais, et je regrette tellement ce que j'ai fait
Que deviendrai-je s'il l'apprenait ?

Je me suis sentie honteuse, et je ne pouvais dire quoi que ce soit maintenant
Je me suis enfuie, aussi loin que possible, je ne pouvais le supporter
Ce péché est trop lourd pour nous à porter
Je suis tombée, emmenée par les profondeurs de l'océan...

Explanations...

I set "M14" as rating for the song, but if I hadn't censored the story, I would have got an explicit rating instead. Because this is a topic I really don't like either to be honest. So I could censor as much as I could here.
Music: a married woman living since several years with her husband, who doesn't really care about her. All what she wants is to have a family and make everyone happy. At the same time, one of her friends falls in love with her, and by pure accident, were going to have a child. Impossible to tell her husband what happened so she rathered taking away the truth with her life.
Inspired by Soyo's story from "Vanilla - Garden of Judgement".
Music: airy and at the end sad and melancholic. A huge constrast between the outtro and the rest of the song. Pad and long bells by FM8, ending bells by M1, distorted lead by Morphine, bassline by Transistor Bass, lead, supersaws and arp pad by Hybrid.
Requires 20.1 b795 for the initial project file.

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LILACIA

Posted on December 21 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Limited compatibility patch, Severe yandere

『LILACIA』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, Ozone 8 Elements, Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181217-00956
LIN (full) : 「599 264 187」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181218-001103
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - 11/12

Rating : Explicit - E
Not recommended for people under... : 16
Reason : yandere content, addiction references, explicit themes
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden), YouTube (age restricted), Dailymotion (age restricted), Niconico (age restricted), Soundcloud (explicit content warning), bilibili (explicit content/age restricted)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

あんたの本当の気持ちを気にしなかった
ゲームであり、他には何もなかっただよね
今は後悔してく、許して、許してくれ
あんたが愚か者だと思ってごめんねよ

美しい若い少女が自白を待っているだね
男からの要求を受け入れて、息を盗んだ
これは行ってきた悪魔の少女の種類だったよ
最初の男はついに狂ったようになっていた

あんたの本当の気持ちを気にしなかった
ゲームであり、他には何もなかったよ
今は後悔してく、許して、許してくれ
あんたが愚か者だと思ってごめん

初めてこれらの男の瞬間を楽しんだよ
他の人に疲れているので、変わり続けていた
今この小さなゲームにますます耽っていくよ
辞めることができない、飽きるまでもっと欲しいだよ

私に怒っているかどうか分かれている
あんたを裏切ったよね、本当にごめんね
誰にも許されないことを知っているだよ
でも敗北が確実なゲームをしていた

Original English text

I didn't care about your true feelings
This was just a game and nothing else
I regret now, so please forgive me, forgive me
I'm sorry for thinking you were all fools

A beautiful young woman waiting for confessions
Accepting requests from men then stealing away their breath
This was the type of demonic girl I have been
And the first one finally became insane

I didn't care about your true feelings
This was just a game and nothing else
I regret now, so please forgive me, forgive me
I'm sorry for thinking you were all fools

First time I was enjoying the whole moment with each of them
I'm tired about everyone else, so I continued changing
I am now more and more addicted to this little game
I can't quit, I want more until becoming tired of it

I understand if you're mad at me
I betrayed you, and I'm really sorry
I know I can't be forgiven by anyone
But I played a game where loss was certain

And French adaptation!

Vos vrais sentiments ne m'intéressaient pas
C'était juste un jeu et rien de plus en réalité
Je regrette maintenant, alors pitié pardonne-moi, pardonne-moi
Je suis désolée pour vous avoir tous pris pour des demeurés

Une magnifique jeune femme qui attend les confessions
Acceptant les requêtes d'hommes pour voler leur souffle dernier
C'était le genre de femme démoniaque que j'ai été
Et le premier dans mes filets a perdu la raison

Vos vrais sentiments ne m'intéressaient pas
C'était juste un jeu et rien de plus en réalité
Je regrette maintenant, alors pitié pardonne-moi, pardonne-moi
Je suis désolée pour vous avoir tous pris pour des demeurés

La première je me languissais du moment avec chacun d'eux
Je me suis fatiguée de tout le monde, alors j'ai changé sans arrêt
Je suis de plus en plus accro à ce petit jeu
Je ne peux m'arrêter, jusqu'à ce que j'en sois vraiment fatiguée

Si tu es en colère contre moi je le comprendrai
Je t'ai trahi, et pour ça j'en suis vraiment désolée
Je sais que personne ne pourra jamais me pardonner
Mais j'ai joué à un jeu où la perte était assurée

Explanations...

A bit more difficult to censor that one. Now see why I rathered a bit Lily to sing this rather than Akari...? *shivers*
Story: Derivated from Lilith's story in "Vanilla - Garden of Judgement". Just censored little bits. Typically a girl who played with others thinking they were fools. Love is such a deadly and addictive game. Especially when the first one who confessed to you becomes quite possessive when they notice you cheating with everyone else. Lilith wears well her name huh.
Music: a bit softer and less darker. Got some fun on some parts. Harp and lead by Sakura, arp pad by Sytrus then modified by Quadrant, sidechained pad by Toxic Biohazard, bells by M1, uplifter by Hybrid.

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Shirleen

Posted on December 21 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Tragedy, Yangire

『Shirleen』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, Ozone 8 Elements, Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181216-00955
LIN (full) : 「599 263 055」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181217-001102
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 10/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere and yangire content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

墨の川は新鮮な雪の上に美しい運命を描いていく
賞賛を求めている、今までに望んでいた唯一のものだった
冬の冷たい風が外に羽ばたくてだよね、まだ諦めないけどね
白い頁で僕の小さな完璧な世界を構築し続けて

誰も夢の庭に入ったことはない、何らかの認識を待ったよ
誰かがついにこの脆い宇宙にいくらかの情熱を捧げた日まで
彼が作品を気にかけていると思った、気持ちはもっと深かった
これは望んでいたものではなくて、これは起こりたい運命ではない

何も求めていないよ、まだ拷問されて
自分の運命の制御を失ったよね
後悔を感じるかと思っていくだよね
ちょうど彼に対して自分を守ろうとした

できる限り遠ざかれていたよ、彼はいつも僕を見つけていたけど
彼を無視しようとした、できることは何でもこの努力は無駄だった
長い瞬間があり、彼がついに僕を忘れてしまったと思った
間違った、彼の強迫観念は僕に本当に病気になれて

あなたに何も感じていないと言った、あなたは僕には何もないよ
すると、まだ僕をあなたの狂った愛の囚人にしたいと思って
僕を脅かす刃が倒れていた、執筆者は危険を乗り越えた
彼を殺したのね? 無実の犠牲者が単なる殺人犯になったよ

どうして彼を殺したのか分からないのね?
もう一度殺すかどうかは関係はない
すでに許されていないことを知っていくよ
一度犯罪が行われると、遅すぎて

Original English text

The river of ink is writing a beautiful fate on the fresh snow
Searching for admiration, that was the only thing that I ever desired
The cold wind of winter is howling outside, but I still don't give up
I continue building my little perfect world on white pages

Nobody entered the garden of dreams, I remained alone waiting for some recognition
Until the day someone finally gave some passion to this fragile universe
I thought he was caring about my works, but his feelings were deeper
This is not what I wanted, this is not the fate that I wanted to happen

I haven't asked for anything yet I'm still tortured
I lost the control of my own fate
I wonder if I even feel regrets
I just tried to defend myself against him

I ran away as far as I could, but he always found me
I tried to ignore him, but these efforts were always vain whatever I could do
A long moment passed then, I thought he finally forgot about me
I was mistaken, his obsession makes me really sick

I said I wasn't feeling anything towards you, you're nothing to me
And you still want to make me prisoner of your insane love
The blade threatening me fell down, my writing friend went through the danger
Did I really kill him? An innocent victim becoming a mere murderer

Why don't you understand why I killed him?
It doesn't matter if I kill again
I know I already can't be forgiven
Once the crime is done, it's too late

And French adaptation!

La rivière d'encre écrit un merveilleux destin sur la neige fraîchement tombée
Cherchant l'admiration, c'est la seule chose que je désirais
Le vent glacial de l'hiver souffle dehors, mais je n'ai pas encore abandonné
Je continue de construire sur les pages blanches mon petit monde parfait

Personne n'est entré dans le jardin des rêves, j'attendais seule de la reconnaissance
Jusqu'au jour où quelqu'un a donné de la passion à cet univers si fragilisé enfin
Je pensais que c'étaient mes travaux qu'il admirait, mais ses sentiments étaient bien plus intenses
Ce n'est pas ce que je voulais, je voulais pas qu'arrive ce destin

Je n'avais rien demandé et pourtant je me fais torturer
J'ai perdu le contrôle de mon propre destin
Je me demande si je ressens même des regrets
J'ai juste essayé de me défendre contre ce crétin

Je me suis enfuie autant que je le pouvais, il m'a toujours retrouvée
J'ai essayé de l'ignorer, mais mes efforts quoi que je fasse restaient vains
Un long instant est passé, j'ai pensé qu'il m'avait enfin oubliée
Je me trompais lourdement, son obsession me donne envie de vomir

J'ai dit que je ne ressentais rien à ton égard, pour moi tu n'es rien
Et tu veux encore me faire prisonnière de ton amour de cinglé
La lame qui me menaçait est tombée, mon ami d'écriture a bravé le danger
L'ai-je vraiment tué ? Une victime innocente devenue une meurtrière en un soupir

Pourquoi ne comprends-tu pas pourquoi je l'ai tué ?
Et peu importe si j'ose recommencer
Je sais déjà que je ne pourrai être pardonnée
Une fois le crime commis, c'est trop tard pour regretter

Explanations...

Story: a young writer desiring to be admired for what she is doing, until the day a young man falls in love with her, being obsessed with her... And trying to defend herself, she killed him.
Inspired from Sima's story in "Vanilla - Garden of Judgement". I just modified a bit the "agression" by the young man for "Shirleen" because the real thing in the game... It was just "no".
Music: quite violent and deep at some moments, almost uneasing. Intro, arp, pad, short chords and bridge synth by Harmor, chords by GMS, music box by M1, lead by Loom,

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Vantrisia

Posted on December 19 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Psychological, Tragedy

『Vantrisia』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Neutron Elements, iZotope Ozone 8 Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181215-00954
LIN (full) : 「599 262 307」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181216-001101
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 9/12

Rating : Explicit - E
Not recommended for people under... : 16
Reason : severe abuse, suicide, violent lyrics
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden), YouTube (age restricted), Dailymotion (age restricted), Niconico (age restricted), Soundcloud (explicit content warning), bilibili (explicit content/age restricted)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

この腐った体の中で絶え間なく泣き続けていた闇の中で
光が永遠に消滅していくね、外傷の影が残る世界
感情を失い、痛みを伴う記憶を通して空虚になった
まだ全てを覚えている、もう一度失敗する努力をしていたよ

抵抗していなかった間、彼らの手は全てに触れていたね
何が耐えていた、守らなければ何が起こるかを知っていた
これを嫌い、私を虐待した全ての人が嫌いだった
純粋な無邪気は、彼らからの復讐から私を控えた

この腐った体の中で絶え間なく泣き続けていた闇の中で
光が永遠に消滅していくね、外傷の影が残る世界
感情を失い、痛みを伴う記憶を通して空虚になった
まだ全てを覚えている、もう一度失敗する努力をしていたよ

酷いだったよ、嫌なことになったよ、何もできなかったけど
世界は暗くなり、誰も私を愛していないと思った
私に対する君の情熱は、否定できない現実だ
まだ君がなぜ私を愛し続けているのか不思議のかな

精神は砕けて、もはや痛みと記憶を取ることができなかったよ
君に貴重であったとしていくも、体は地面に属していただね
他の世界で私と一緒に参加することを決めた理由だったの?
同じ罪を犯さなければならないなら、罰は分かち合いていくでしょう...

Original English text

In the darkness where I continued to cry incessantly inside this rotten body
A world where the light disappeared forever, where shadows of trauma remain
I lost any emotion, left in the emptiness through the painful memories
I still remember everything, I gave efforts to fail once again

Their hands touched everything, while I wasn't resisting
I knew what I was enduring, and what would happen if I didn't obey
I hated this, I hated every people who abused me
The pure innocence within refrained me from avenging from them

In the darkness where I continued to cry incessantly inside this rotten body
A world where the light disappeared forever, where shadows of trauma remain
I lost any emotion, left in the emptiness through the painful memories
I still remember everything, I gave efforts to fail once again

This was horrible, I became disgusting, but I couldn't do anything
My world became darker, I thought that nobody would love me
Your passion towards me was an undeniable reality
I'm still wondering why you keep loving me though

My spirit shattered, I couldn't take anymore the pain and the memories
Even if I was precious to you, this body belonged to the ground
Was this why you decided to join me in the other world?
If we had to commit the same sin, then the punishment will be shared...

And French adaptation!

Dans l'obscurité où j'ai continué de pleurer sans cesse dans ce corps en train de pourrir
Un monde où la lumière a à jamais disparu, où restent les ombres d'un traumatisme permanent
J'ai perdu toute émotion, délaissée dans le vide à travers les douloureux souvenirs
Je me souviens encore de tout, j'ai donné tous mes efforts pour échouer vainement

Leurs mains ont tout touché, et je ne résistais même pas
Je savais ce que j'endurais, et ce qui m'arriverait si je n'obéissais pas
Je détestais ça, je haïssais ceux qui m'avaient abusée
La pure innocence en moi m'a empêchée de me venger

Dans l'obscurité où j'ai continué de pleurer sans cesse dans ce corps en train de pourrir
Un monde où la lumière a à jamais disparu, où restent les ombres d'un traumatisme permanent
J'ai perdu toute émotion, délaissée dans le vide à travers les douloureux souvenirs
Je me souviens encore de tout, j'ai donné tous mes efforts pour échouer vainement

C'était horrible, j'étais devenue dégoûtante, mais je ne pouvais rien y faire
Mon monde s'est assombri, j'ai pensé qu'à personne je ne pourrai plaire
Ta passion envers moi était une réalité indéniable cependant
Je me demande encore pourquoi tu continues de m'aimer autant

Mon esprit s'est brisé, je ne pouvais plus supporter les souvenirs et la douleur
Même si j'étais précieuse à ton égard, ce corps appartenait au sol sous nos pieds
Mais était-ce la raison pour laquelle tu as décidé de rejoindre mon cœur ?
Si nous devions commettre le même péché, notre châtiment sera alors partagé...

Explanations...

Really, really NOT for sensible people. I insist on it, if it gained its explicit rating, it's because there's an excellent reason.
Story: Ugh... How to say... To be honest, I hate this kind of topic. It wasn't easy to censor this. Really. Tried my best, but still remains kind of obvious...
Inspired from Vanilla's story in "Vanilla - Garden of Judgement". Yes, this game is that harsh. What just happened to the girls in this game... It's just horrible, and I wish this never ever happens to any of you. This is just to puke. It's... Not human.
And still I feel like I won't be over with explicit ratings...
Music: dramatic and serious music. The kind of music being a bit uneasing. Sequence pad by FM8, organ pads and arp by M1, sequenced bass by Sakura, piano by FL Keys, gate pad and dry chords by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Hybrid.
Then why I made this song... Maybe because I know I was able to censor bits for other girls and it would have been unfair to treat only one or two.

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STRYCHNIUM

Posted on December 14 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere

『STRYCHNIUM』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Ozone 8 Elements, iZotope Neutron Elements
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181213-00953
LIN (full) : 「599 259 064」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181213-001100
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 3/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

あなたの愛を捜し求めていた、この楽園からの傷で戻った
あなた達の幻想的な話は終わり、もはや後悔しないよね

夢を見ていた、あなたと一緒にいてとても幸せだったよ
自分の人生を感じた限り、錯覚から逃げなかった
小さな庭で一人で、あなたの優しい言葉を待っていた
幸せにならなかった、幻滅が全てを打ち砕く前に

あなたの愛を捜し求めていた、この楽園からの傷で戻った
あなた達の幻想的な話は終わり、もはや後悔しないよね

嘘に苦しんでいる、自分自身に質問し始めていた
嘘つきが大好きだったの? どうしてそんなに馬鹿になったの?
苦しんでいる間、真実は私から隠されていただよね
優しについてはもう気にしないよ、全てを知りたくていくよ

あなたの愛を捜し求めていた、この楽園からの傷で戻った
あなた達の幻想的な話は終わり、もはや後悔しないよね

自分たちを包み込むのを見たとき、心は砕けていたね
どんな気持ちでもなくて、激しい痛みに埋もれてしまったよ
意識が空中で蒸発するのを望んだ、行きたくなかった
代わりに誰か他の人が苦しんだ、何も感じなかった

Original English text

I searched for your love, and I came back with wounds from this paradise
Your illusory story ended, and I don't have any regrets anymore

I was so happy to stay with you, eyes looking at a dream
I didn't run away from the illusion, as long I felt myself life
Alone in my little garden, I waited for your gentle words
I couldn't been happier, before the disillusion shattered everything

I searched for your love, and I came back with wounds from this paradise
Your illusory story ended, and I don't have any regrets anymore

Suffering from the lies, I began asking myself questions
Was I loving a liar? How have I been so stupid?
A truth has been hidden from me, while I'm suffering
I don't care anymore about kindness, I just want to know everything

I searched for your love, and I came back with wounds from this paradise
Your illusory story ended, and I don't have any regrets anymore

My heart shattered when I saw them embracing themselves
I became empty of any feeling, submerged by an intense pain
I wanted my consciousness to evaporate itself in the air, but it didn't want to go
Someone else had to suffer instead, but I didn't feel anything

I searched for your love, and I came back with wounds from this paradise
Your illusory story ended, and I don't have any regrets anymore

And French adaptation!

J'ai cherché ton amour, et suis revenue de ce paradis blessée
Votre histoire illusoire est terminée, et je n'ai plus rien à regretter

J'étais si heureuse de rester avec toi, c'est un rêve que j'admirais
Je ne me suis pas enfuie de l'illusion, tant que je sentais ma vie continuer
Seule dans mon petit jardin, j'attendais tes mots si doux
Je ne pouvais être plus heureuse, avant que la désillusion ne brise tout

J'ai cherché ton amour, et suis revenue de ce paradis blessée
Votre histoire illusoire est terminée, et je n'ai plus rien à regretter

Souffrant des mensonges, je me suis à maintes fois questionnée
Aimais-je une menteuse ? Comment ai-je pu être idiote à ce point ?
Une vérité m'a été cachée, et alors que je souffrais
Peu importe la gentillesse, je voulais tout savoir à la fin

J'ai cherché ton amour, et suis revenue de ce paradis blessée
Votre histoire illusoire est terminée, et je n'ai plus rien à regretter

Mon cœur s'est brisé lorsque je les ai vus s'enlacer
Je me suis vidée de tout sentiment, une intense douleur m'a submergée
Je voulais que ma conscience s'évapore dans l'air, mais elle a refusé de partir
Quelqu'un d'autre devait subir la douleur à ma place, mais je n'ai rien pu ressentir

J'ai cherché ton amour, et suis revenue de ce paradis blessée
Votre histoire illusoire est terminée, et je n'ai plus rien à regretter

Explanations...

A girl madly in love with another woman living her love life secretly with another man.
The music is pretty at some moments but very weird and detuned at some other moments. It just sounds... Wrong sometimes.
Music: all synths by PoiZone.

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Did I forget to tell things?

Posted on December 11 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia here.

It's been a while... But, you're waiting for the tracklist for this month, I revealed some track names... I aired two songs with Stella, one with Akari, one with IA and one with CUL. I still have 4 deadlines to apply next week. This is going to be harsh.

The next song you will have will be normally on Saturday. After this I'll try to do the song for IA (Dec 20th deadline) then the 3 songs for the 22nd (one for Yukari, one for CUL, one for Akari).

 

So... What do I have to say?

 

The tracklist first. This is what you all have been waiting for

CD23.5 - Walking Towards the Dead Door - airdate: December 29th 2018

01. Walking Towards a Dead Door (feat. Kizuna Akari)
02. Zoe (feat. Kizuna Akari)
03. STRYCHNIUM (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
04. MALIZIA (feat. CUL)
05. Immortalized (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
06. Slave of a Twisted Mind (feat. Hoshine Stella)
07. Get Me Out From Hell (feat. Hoshine Stella)
08. Grave (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
09. Vantrisia (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
10. Shirleen (feat. CUL)
11. LILACIA (feat. Lily Kizuna Akari)
12. Solena (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)

Deadlined songs:
- Vantrisia is deadlined for the 20th
- Get Me Out From Hell was for the 11th (today)
- Shirleen, LILACIA and Solena are all for the 22nd (there are chances the songs get at least M14 rating, or even Explicit rating... It will depend on how much I'll be able to censor)

 

Second thing is the Imitation project. The songs are all done. I just have to do the rest.
I'll have to choose an air date, probably January 2019. Yeah, all the songs have been produced on 2018 but the album on 2019... Typically I have a lot of problems with organization lately and for this one, I don't want to do like I do with the monthly albums. This one is a work of several months in a row. There is a whole universe, and I want to do it good. No worries the tracklist and the crossfade will be revealed soon. Keep an eye on the YouTube channel on next weeks.

 

Third thing. Since... 7 or 8 days, I think? There is a "blank link" in the regular singers list just below Zunko's link. And when you go on the page there is no big clue. What I'm going to do is that I'm not going to tell who the new singer will be, but I'll reveal the "why I don't confirm her yet unlike I did for all the others".

I actually had plans for her since few months ago, a bit at the same moment as the ones for Akari came. There was the solution to get her from her company's website, problem is... I'm going to tell you something and you'll guess what's wrong with it:

They accept to ship overseas but they don't accept credit cards made outside of Japan.

Plan A was a bit done, so I went for plan B: request for the ASIN* to a French reseller. They don't have the ASIN in their catalog. Plan B over. Plan C. Last chance, the Japanese reseller (so yeah it's on the Japanese Amazon, and there are some of the packages I got thanks to them). They accept to sell a package BUT... Not "new". Just "used (like new)". Status is acceptable (and I had no other chance sooooo) but I have to check the license when I'll get her so you won't have the confirmation before the 25th... Date where I'll get her in my own little hands. Right now she is gently waiting at home to come under the Christmas tree, she arrived at noon here, now she has to wait...

To help you, no it's not Haruno Sora. Firstly because AHS has no issues with foreign credit cards, and secondly because I don't have the V5 engine. I'm still with the V4. I wait for more stability before getting V5. OK it became a bit better but still... Maybe you have guessed something, who knows?

And that's it for now I guess? Quite slowed down because of constant fatigue and health issues, so sorry... This should get better soon I promise.

Take care of yourselves

Nynthixia

* identifiant of any product for Amazon. With this any reseller can know what you're talking about. And they're common to all Amazon countries services.

EDIT December 13th: Sorry forgot to change, LILACIA in the album is by Akari and not by Lily. However I might do a ver with Lily, who knows?

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Get Me Out From Hell

Posted on December 11 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Limited compatibility patch, Psychological, Tragedy

『Get Me Out From Hell』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Ozone 8 Elements, iZotope Neutron Elements, Phasis
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 16
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-181210-00952
LIN (full) : 「599 256 039」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-181210-001099
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Towards the Dead Door - TRACK 7/12

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

この世界全体を捜索して何も見つけなかっただよね
暗闇の囚人、救いはすでに遠い瞬間に夢である
あなたの声から離れて、重い沈黙の中で苦しめてく
この場所を離れているよ、この悪夢から飛び出ろうとしてくれ...

呼吸させてくれ...
自由になりたい...

燃え尽きた土地に私を留めている債券を粉砕してく
白い手を見て、皮膚はひどく焦げている、熱で溶けてしまったね
この脆い体に与えられた痛みを見ることさえていたね
維持するのに激しい拷問だったよ、持続しなかったけどね

呼吸させてくれ...
自由になりたい...

叫んでもあなたの声に到達しないことを知って
私を上から見ても、地獄から出ることはないよ
この世界は平和な楽園ではない、知っているの?
誰かがこの地獄から追い出すことができたらいいな...

この世界全体を捜索して何も見つけなかっただよね
暗闇の囚人、救いはすでに遠い瞬間に夢である
あなたの声から離れて、重い沈黙の中で苦しめてく
この場所を離れているよ、この悪夢から飛び出ろうとしてくれ...

叫んでもあなたの声に到達しないことを知って (呼吸させてくれ...)
私を上から見ても、地獄から出ることはないよ (自由になりたい...)
この世界は平和な楽園ではない、知っているの? (呼吸させてくれ...)
誰かがこの地獄から追い出すことができたらいいな... (自由になりたい...)

Original English text

I searched through this entire world to find nothing
Prisoner of darkness, deliverance is already a dream in a so distant instant
Far away from your voice, I suffer in the heavy silence
I want to leave this place, let me fly away from this nightmare...

Let me breathe...
I want to be free...

I'll shatter the bonds retaining me to the burning ground
I looked at my white hand, the skin has been severely burnt, melting in the heat
Even when I seeing the pain inflicted to this fragile body
It was such an intense torture to sustain, but it wouldn't last

Let me breathe...
I want to be free...

I know screaming will never reach your voice
Even if you see me from above, I won't get out from hell
This world is far away from being a peaceful paradise, did you know?
I just wish someone could get me out from this hell...

I searched through this entire world to find nothing
Prisoner of darkness, deliverance is already a dream in a so distant instant
Far away from your voice, I suffer in the heavy silence
I want to leave this place, let me fly away from this nightmare...

I know screaming will never reach your voice (Let me breathe...)
Even if you see me from above, I won't get out from hell (I want to be free...)
This world is far away from being a peaceful paradise, did you know? (Let me breathe...)
I just wish someone could get me out from this hell... (I want to be free...)

And French adaptation!

J'ai cherché à travers ce monde entier pour ne rien y trouver
Prisonnière des ténèbres, la délivrance est déjà un rêve si éloigné
Loin de ta voix, je souffre dans le lourd silence
Je veux quitter cet endroit, m'envoler de cette souffrance...

Laisse-moi respirer...
Je veux être libérée...

Je briserai les liens qui me retiennent au sol brûlant
J'ai regardé ma main blanche, dont la peau sévèrement brûlée, dans la chaleur fondant
Même lorsque je vois la douleur qu'à mon corps on m'a infligé
Une intense torture à supporter, mais cela ne pouvait pas durer

Laisse-moi respirer...
Je veux être libérée...

Je sais que hurler n'atteindra pas ta voix
Même si tu me vois depuis l'au-delà, je ne sortirai pas de l'enfer
Ce monde est loin du paradis paisible, ne le savais-tu pas ?
Je souhaite juste que quelqu'un puisse me sortir de l'enfer...

J'ai cherché à travers ce monde entier pour ne rien y trouver
Prisonnière des ténèbres, la délivrance est déjà un rêve si éloigné
Loin de ta voix, je souffre dans le lourd silence
Je veux quitter cet endroit, m'envoler de cette souffrance...

Je sais que hurler n'atteindra pas ta voix (Laisse-moi respirer...)
Même si tu me vois depuis l'au-delà, je ne sortirai pas de l'enfer (Je veux être libérée...)
Ce monde est loin du paradis paisible, ne le savais-tu pas ? (Laisse-moi respirer...)
Je souhaite juste que quelqu'un puisse me sortir de l'enfer... (Je veux être libérée...)

Explanations...

Quite hid it but this is a woman who regrets about her crimes and mainly about killing the people she admired. While she is being punished in hell.
I used ACT2 for the whole song except for the long notes where I used the most recent VCV. Quite works. Plus the Phasis doing its little distortion...
Music: ambient and deep trance music. Riser by Hybrid, atmo by Toxic Biohazard, gated pad by FM8, piano by FL Keys and supersaw chords by Xpand!2.
Compatibility patch info: project done under FL 20.1. Available for FL 12.5.1 and more. (Fruity Delay 3)
Happy birthday Stella! (^_^)

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