『Anti-Nihilism』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, iZotope Nectar 3 Plus, ExpressFX, iZotope Neutron 3 Advanced, iZotope Ozone 9 Advanced
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 18
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-210620-01251
LIN (full) : 「600 215 008」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-210620-001405
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Melodies of Violence -To Crimson Ashes- - TRACK 5/17

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : crude lyrics, moderate violence
Restricted on : (none)

この獣は自分の刑務所を認識しないよ
常にその存在の無益を探してきていたよ
その不幸についてたゆまず不平を言っているよ
終わりのない季節でその人生に不平を言う

その散らばった考えから何かが欠けているよう
しばらく前に獣から盗まれた人生の意味
肉体はただの乾燥肉だと思ってるだけ
精神はただの乾燥した海だと思ってるだけ

これらの終末論的な現実に染まった粉々になった鏡
空の人類がこれらが存在すると信じたくなかったものだよ
皆卑劣な暴力の重みの下で、沈黙の中で死にかけている
運命が待っていても、彼らにとってもはや重要ではないでしょう

これらの終末論的な現実に染まった粉々になった鏡
空の人類がこれらが存在すると信じたくなかったものだよ
皆卑劣な暴力の重みの下で、沈黙の中で死にかけている
運命が待っていても、彼らにとってもはや重要ではないでしょう

この獣は自分の刑務所を認識しないよ
常にその存在の無益を探してきていたよ
その不幸についてたゆまず不平を言っているよ
終わりのない季節でその人生に不平を言う

その散らばった考えから何かが欠けているよう
しばらく前に獣から盗まれた人生の意味
肉体はただの乾燥肉だと思ってるだけ
精神はただの乾燥した海だと思ってるだけ

This beast doesn't recognize its own prison
It always has been searching for the futility of its being
Tirelessly complaining about its unhappiness
Complaining about its life with a never ending season

Something seems to be lacking from its scattered thoughts
The meaning of life that had been stolen from the beast a while ago
It only thinks flesh is just some dried meat
It only thinks spirit is just a dried ocean

These shattered mirrors stained by the apocalyptic reality
The ones empty humanity never wanted to believe these to exist
They are all dying in the silence, under the weight of a vile violence
No matters the destiny awaiting, it doesn't have importance anymore for them

These shattered mirrors stained by the apocalyptic reality
The ones empty humanity never wanted to believe these to exist
They are all dying in the silence, under the weight of a vile violence
No matters the destiny awaiting, it doesn't have importance anymore for them

This beast doesn't recognize its own prison
It always has been searching for the futility of its being
Tirelessly complaining about its unhappiness
Complaining about its life with a never ending season

Something seems to be lacking from its scattered thoughts
The meaning of life that had been stolen from the beast a while ago
It only thinks flesh is just some dried meat
It only thinks spirit is just a dried ocean

Cette bête ne sait reconnaître sa propre prison
Elle a toujours recherché la futilité de son être
Se plaignant inlassablement de son mal-être
De sa vie dont ne se termine jamais la saison

Quelque semble manquer dans ses pensées éparpillées
La signification de la vie qu'on lui a depuis longtemps pillée
Elle ne pense que la chair n'est qu'un bout de viande desséché
Elle ne pense que l'esprit n'est qu'un océan vide et asséché

Ces miroirs brisés teints par l'apocalyptique réalité
Ceux auxquels l'humanité vide n'a jamais voulu croire qu'ils puissent exister
Ils meurent tous dans le silence, sous le poids d'une vile violence
Peu importe le destin qui les attend, pour eux ce n'est que sans importance

Ces miroirs brisés teints par l'apocalyptique réalité
Ceux auxquels l'humanité vide n'a jamais voulu croire qu'ils puissent exister
Ils meurent tous dans le silence, sous le poids d'une vile violence
Peu importe le destin qui les attend, pour eux ce n'est que sans importance

Cette bête ne sait reconnaître sa propre prison
Elle a toujours recherché la futilité de son être
Se plaignant inlassablement de son mal-être
De sa vie dont ne se termine jamais la saison

Quelque semble manquer dans ses pensées éparpillées
La signification de la vie qu'on lui a depuis longtemps pillée
Elle ne pense que la chair n'est qu'un bout de viande desséché
Elle ne pense que l'esprit n'est qu'un océan vide et asséché

Lyrics are very inspired by the project Pharmakon, especially from her album "Bestial Burden". It's an album which is very harsh to listen to, lots of very high frequencies, and the lyrics are quite nihilist. Body is just the support of the soul. This time, in "Anti-Nihilism", it's seen from an exterior point of view.
Music: more ambient and industrial. Lots of sounds are being muffled. Lead by MedicineMan, flute by Ivory Winds, bass line by Monark, chords by Noire, all the rest is done with Absynth. Absynth's a master in this music genre.
Used GUMI Power for this one, when "Tantrum" was using GUMI Adult. And the album exclusive track uses both.
This is the last public song you'll get for the part -To Crimson Ashes- by the way, the next song will be with Totoko and will be for the album part -From Azur Abyss-.

『Necronomicon's Hymn』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Nectar 3 Plus, iZotope Ozone 9 Advanced, iZotope Neutron 3 Advanced
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 18
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-210613-01250
LIN (full) : 「600 207 894」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-210613-001404
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Melodies of Violence -To Crimson Ashes- - TRACK 6/17

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : madness references, confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

深淵に潜む獣を目覚めさせているよ
絶望と狂気の叫びが聞こえていたよね
知らなくていいことをたくさん見ていただよね
そして今、魂は闇に滑り落ちていた

旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな
旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな

大海原から嵐が迫り、終末を告げてる
混沌から生まれる、深淵のブラックホールから
狂気にはもう抵抗できない気がしているだよね
この禁断の黒魔術が深淵から目覚めれば

人類は自らの終わりを目撃してる
鮮血と死と絶望の精神的苦痛へ
説明のつかない冒涜が可能になったとき
最強の信仰さえも崩れ落ちるでしょう

旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな
旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな

大海原から嵐が迫り、終末を告げてる
混沌から生まれる、深淵のブラックホールから
狂気にはもう抵抗できない気がしているだよね
この禁断の黒魔術が深淵から目覚めれば

旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな
旧支配者がまどろみから目覚める時
破壊と精神病の嵐の中へ
人類はもはや概念ではないでしょう
どれだけの犠牲が払われてるのかな

I shall awaken the beast hidden in the depths
I heard the cries of despair and insanity
I saw many things I shouldn't have known
And now my spirit has slipped into darkness

When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made
When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made

Storm is approaching from the ocean, announcing its apocalypse
Originating from the chaos, from the abyssal black hole
I feel I won't resist to insanity much longer
Should this forbidden black sorcery awake from the depths

Humanity will witness their own end
Into a mental torment of fresh blood, death and despair
When an unexplainable blasphemy becomes possible
Even the strongest faith will fall down

When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made
When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made

Storm is approaching from the ocean, announcing its apocalypse
Originating from the chaos, from the abyssal black hole
I feel I won't resist to insanity much longer
Should this forbidden black sorcery awake from the depths

When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made
When the Great Ancient Ones will wake up from their slumber
In a storm of destruction and mental illness
Humanity will no longer be a concept
How many sacrifices are being made

Je dois réveiller la bête cachée dans les profondeurs
J'ai entendu les cris de désespoir et de folie
J'ai vu tant de choses que je n'aurais jamais dû connaître par cœur
Et maintenant dans l'obscurité a plongé mon esprit

Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués
Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués

La tempête approche de l'océan, annonçant son apocalypse imminente
Venant du chaos, du trou noir abyssal
Je sens que je ne résisterai pas plus longtemps à ce mal
Que cette magie noire interdite se réveille des profondeurs insolentes

L'humanité témoignera de sa propre fin
Dans un tourment mental de sang frais, de mort et de désespoir
Lorsqu'un blasphème inexplicable devient possible enfin
Même la foi la plus puissante n'en aura le pouvoir

Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués
Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués

La tempête approche de l'océan, annonçant son apocalypse imminente
Venant du chaos, du trou noir abyssal
Je sens que je ne résisterai pas plus longtemps à ce mal
Que cette magie noire interdite se réveille des profondeurs insolentes

Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués
Lorsque les Grands Anciens se réveilleront de leur sommeil profond
Dans une tempête de destruction et de maladies de l'esprit
L'humanité ne sera plus un concept
Combien de sacrifices auront été effectués

What would happen when the Ancient Gods will awaken, humanity will fall down, swallowed by insanity.
Music: it's between the creepy and the Arabic music. The creepy seems a bit normal, H. P. Lovecraft having created a wonderful horror bestiary and mythology, illustrated with waterphones and heavy atmos. The Arabic side refers to the one who wrote the Necronomicon, Abdul Al-Hazred, with many instruments from Middle East countries.
Kanun, tanbur, ney and oud by Middle East, waterphones by Waterharp, choirs by Mysteria and Ancient Voices, other atmo by Absynth.

『Just Because of You』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope Nectar 3 Plus, iZotope Neutron 3 Advanced, iZotope Ozone Elements 9 Advanced
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 18
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-210612-001249
LIN (full) : 「600 207 410」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-210613-001403
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Melodies of Violence -To Crimson Ashes- - TRACK 7/17

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

この情熱的な炎に苦しみすぎていただよ
愛が心を食い尽くして粉々に砕け散った

心の奥底で胸の圧迫を感じていたよ
その間、後ろから人が笑うのが聞こえていた

あなたを愛しているとは言わなかった、これらの感情は悩ませた
彼らの残酷な言葉に傷ついたをただ眺めることができてた

この情熱的な炎に苦しみすぎていただよ
愛が心を食い尽くして粉々に砕け散った

こんな切ない光景は 続かないし持続も出来ない
あなたにも二度と苦しまないと約束しているよ

いつかこの悪い口を黙らせると決めていただよ
痛みは消えてる、やっと自分を隠さずに愛せる

どうしてあなたに夢中になっていると感じるの？心を離れない
ようやく安らかに眠れるような対策をとったほうがいいのでしょう？

この情熱的な炎に苦しみすぎていただよ
愛が心を食い尽くして粉々に砕け散った

こんな切ない光景は 続かないし持続も出来ない
あなたにも二度と苦しまないと約束しているよ

絶え間なく私を悩ませて、痛みは消えなかった
だから君を殺した、このように私に苦しまない

精神的に壊れた今、すぐに君に加わって
異世界に転生するよ永遠に幸せでしょう

I suffered too much from this passionate flame
Love has devoured my heart, shattered into pieces

Deep within I was feeling the oppression on my chest
Meanwhile I heard people from behind, laughing from us

I never said I loved you, but these feelings were haunting me
And I could just look at ourselves being hurt by their cruel words

I suffered too much from this passionate flame
Love has devoured my heart, shattered into pieces

Such a painful sight couldn't continue or be sustained
I promise neither you neither I will suffer ever again

I decided someday to make these bad mouths shut up
The pain will go away, I'll finally be able to love you without hiding myself

But then why do I feel I am being obsessed with you? You don't leave my mind
Should I take the measures so I can finally rest quietly?

I suffered too much from this passionate flame
Love has devoured my heart, shattered into pieces

Such a painful sight couldn't continue or be sustained
I promise neither you neither I will suffer ever again

You are incessantly haunting me, pain didn't go away
So I killed you, like this you wouldn't suffer from me

Now mentally broken, I'll join you soon
We'll rebirth in another world, and we'll be eternally happy

J'ai trop souffert de cette flamme passionnée
L'amour a dévoré mon cœur, en morceaux brisés

Au plus profond de moi, je sentais sur ma poitrine l'oppression
Et j'entendais les gens derrière nous, qui en riaient sans faire plus attention

Je n'ai jamais dit que je t'aimais, mais ces sentiments continuaient de me hanter
Et je ne pouvais que nous regarder, par leurs mots cruels blessées

J'ai trop souffert de cette flamme passionnée
L'amour a dévoré mon cœur, en morceaux brisés

Une vue si pénible ne saurait continuer ou être supportée
Je te promets que ni toi ni moi ne souffrirons plus jamais

J'ai décidé un jour que ces méchantes bouches soient réduites au silence
La douleur s'en ira, et je pourrai t'aimer sans cacher mes sentiments intenses

Mais alors pourquoi je me sens obsédée par toi ? Sans que tu ne quittes mon esprit
Devrais-je prendre les mesures nécessaires pour pouvoir rester tranquille à vie ?

J'ai trop souffert de cette flamme passionnée
L'amour a dévoré mon cœur, en morceaux brisés

Une vue si pénible ne saurait continuer ou être supportée
Je te promets que ni toi ni moi ne souffrirons plus jamais

Tu me hantes inlassablement, et la douleur n'est pas partie
Alors je t'ai tuée, je n'auras ainsi pas à souffrir de mes envies

Maintenant mentalement brisée, bientôt je te rejoindrai
Nous renaîtrons dans un autre monde, et serons heureuses à jamais

It's been a while for yandere huh?
A girl very obsessed with a woman, thinking that if she would get rid of the ones laughing from them, her mind would be quiet... But then comes the obsession, and she finally kills the one she loved so much, not wanting her to suffer anymore.
Music: trance/pop. Plucks with FLEX, atmo with Iris 2, the rest uses Super 8.

Hello, Nynthixia here

I told about it a bit on Twitter, but also a bit on the blog, it was the idea to merge the CD31.5 (currently in production) and the CD32. This will be the case.

These two albums will be released as separated archives but on the same day. This is why I shift the release date of CD31.5 that was first intended to be during July to what would be closer to September or October. So you'll have some time without any album.

The two albums will both be called "Melodies of Violence". These will be divided into two sides depending of their themes:

- CD31.5 has the subtitle "To Crimson Ashes". The album contains lots of songs about violence, death, despair. It's the darkest side of the two. It will feature Nyui (so the songs "Simulacrum" and "Ripped Reaper"), Meiji, Wistaria, Bibi, Zunko, MAYU, GUMI, Tei, Itako, Sayu and Momo. It will contain 17 tracks.
- CD32 has the subtitle "From Azur Abyss". The album will contain a sort of series centered about antic sirens and mermaids, their love stories and their love tragedies. But it will also feature some clearer songs of mythologies, punishments... Not as dark as in the other album though. It will feature CUL (for the last Muse song), Itako, Kiritan, Kaori, Tianyi, Saki, Totoko, a track with Meiji alone and, if it happens on time, normally KAFU should be there with her two private tracks. It will also contain 17 tracks.

CD31.5 includes all deadlined songs from March to June when CD32 is focused on deadlined songs from July to a part of August. There are chances when the 2 will be released, a good part of CD32.5 will be advanced, especially for deadlined songs.

Concerning Meiji's deadline on August 8, I confirm the song will be released on the 8th. However I'll have to create the song before the 8th.

Concerning instruments, all the Komplete collector edition is complete. I'm watching over some other libraries, but I'm waiting for their price to be lowered. More probably on November then. VEGAS update will be done on August like usual.

See you in less than a week for Tei's song!

Nynthixia

『Crimson Retribution』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, iZotope Nectar 3 Plus, ExpressFX, iZotope Ozone 9 Advanced, iZotope Neutron 3 Advanced, Vocal Doubler
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 18
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-210530-01246
LIN (full) : 「600 198 407」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-210530-001400
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Melodies of Violence -To Crimson Ashes- - TRACK 12/17

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : murders
Restricted on : (none)

あなたが犯した全ての暴力に対して、決して許さないよね
とって最愛の全てを失った、今あなたは支払う必要がある
その行為がそれ以上の結果をもたらさなかったと思っていたの？
平和がもう選択できないなら、君の火と私と戦うでしょう

傷つけすぎた、あまりにも多くの血を吐いてた
終わりだよ、深紅の報復を差し上げているよ

もう何が起こるか気にしないでしょうよ、とにかく粉々になっていた
やむを得ないことが行われると、二度と変わらないことを知っている
神々を信じているにもかかわらず、血なまぐさい戦争に入ると
精神が憎しみに侵略されると、神は無益になっているよね

傷つけすぎた、あまりにも多くの血を吐いてた
終わりだよ、深紅の報復を差し上げているよ

傷つけすぎた、あまりにも多くの血を吐いてた
終わりだよ、深紅の報復を差し上げているよ

For all the violences you have committed, I'll never forgive you
I have lost everything being the dearest to me, now you'll have to pay
Did you think that acts didn't have further consequences?
I'll fight your fire with mine, if peace isn't the choice anymore

You have wounded me too much, I spitted too much blood
Now this is over, and I'll give you crimson retribution

I won't care anymore about what will happen to me, I'm shattered anyway
Once unavoidable has been done, we both know it will never change again
Despite believing in gods, once we go into the bloody war
They become futilities as your spirit gets invaded by hatred

You have wounded me too much, I spitted too much blood
Now this is over, and I'll give you crimson retribution

You have wounded me too much, I spitted too much blood
Now this is over, and I'll give you crimson retribution

Pour toutes les violences que tu as commises, je ne saurai le pardonner
J'ai perdu tout ce qui m'était le plus cher, maintenant tu vas devoir payer
Pensais-tu que tes actes étaient sans conséquences ?
Je combattrai ton feu par le mien, si la paix est un choix qui n'a plus son importance

Tu m'as trop blessée, j'ai craché trop de sang
Mais maintenant c'est terminé, et je donnerai ton pourpre châtiment

Je me ficherai de ce qui va m'arriver, de toute façon je suis totalement cassée
Une fois l'inévitable déjà commis, nous savons bien qu'il ne changera plus jamais
Même si on croit en des dieux, une fois partis dans la guerre de sang
Alors que ton esprit est envahi par la haine, ils ne sont plus que futilités maintenant

Tu m'as trop blessée, j'ai craché trop de sang
Mais maintenant c'est terminé, et je donnerai ton pourpre châtiment

Tu m'as trop blessée, j'ai craché trop de sang
Mais maintenant c'est terminé, et je donnerai ton pourpre châtiment

Someone avenging herself by killing the one who badly hurt her in the past.
Music: pad and bridge sequence by Serum, plucks by GMS and lead by Hybrid Keys.

『Tantrum』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, iZotope Nectar 3 Plus, ExpressFX, iZotope Neutron 3 Advanced, iZotope Ozone 9 Advanced
Tracks mixing: Vegas Pro 18
Synthesizer : FL Studio 20
LIC (instru) : 12FR-210522-01245
LIN (full) : 「600 193 611」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-210525-001398
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Melodies of Violence -To Crimson Ashes- - TRACK 3/17

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : murder reference
Restricted on : (none)

この内なる怒りを深く感じていくよ
少しずつ体をむさぼり食うていくよね
周りの他の誰かを探していないときよ
絶望して泣いてる、血は沸騰している
あなたを殺すのを止めているのは何のよ？
傷つけてるのを防いでいるのは何のよ？
頭の中で悪夢と戦った時から
もうきちんと考えることができないよね

悪魔としてただのタントラムを発射し、多くの人が苦しんでいたでしょう
内なる野獣が世界で目覚め、邪魔をしているのものを破壊する
竜巻が過ぎて廃墟だけを残してしまったら後悔するには遅すぎて
後戻りすることはなく、二人はそれについてかなりよく知ってく

鏡のように君を粉々に砕きたい
私の反射を何百回も見るでしょう
もう自分に集中できないようだったよ
もうあなたの言葉をつかまないようだった
あなたを殺すのを止めているのは何のよ？
傷つけてるのを防いでいるのは何のよ？
今私を放っておいて欲しいだけだよ
他の誰も傷つくことはない約束して

悪魔としてただのタントラムを発射し、多くの人が苦しんでいたでしょう
内なる野獣が世界で目覚め、邪魔をしているのものを破壊する
竜巻が過ぎて廃墟だけを残してしまったら後悔するには遅すぎて
後戻りすることはなく、二人はそれについてかなりよく知ってく

この内なる怒りを深く感じていくよ
少しずつ体をむさぼり食うていくよね
周りの他の誰かを探していないときよ
絶望して泣いてる、血は沸騰している
あなたを殺すのを止めているのは何のよ？
傷つけてるのを防いでいるのは何のよ？
頭の中で悪夢と戦った時から
もうきちんと考えることができないよね

悪魔としてただのタントラムを発射し、多くの人が苦しんでいたでしょう
内なる野獣が世界で目覚め、邪魔をしているのものを破壊する
竜巻が過ぎて廃墟だけを残してしまったら後悔するには遅すぎて
後戻りすることはなく、二人はそれについてかなりよく知ってく

I deeply feel this inner wrath
Devouring my body bit by bit
And when I'm not searching for anyone else around
I just cry in despair, my blood is boiling
What is stopping me from killing you?
What is preventing me from hurting you?
Since the time I've been fighting against the nightmare in my head
I'm just not able to think properly anymore

As a demon I'd launch just a tantrum and many would have suffered
Inner wild beast wakes up in the world to destroy everything standing in its way
It's too late to regret once the tornado has passed and left only ruins
There's no turning back and both of us know pretty well about it

I'd want so much to just shatter you into pieces like a mirror
And I'll see my reflection hundreds of times
I couldn't seem to focus on myself anymore
I didn't seem to grab any of your words anymore
What is stopping me from killing you?
What is preventing me from hurting you?
I just wish you to leave me alone now
And no one else will be hurt I promise

As a demon I'd launch just a tantrum and many would have suffered
Inner wild beast wakes up in the world to destroy everything standing in its way
It's too late to regret once the tornado has passed and left only ruins
There's no turning back and both of us know pretty well about it

I deeply feel this inner wrath
Devouring my body bit by bit
And when I'm not searching for anyone else around
I just cry in despair, my blood is boiling
What is stopping me from killing you?
What is preventing me from hurting you?
Since the time I've been fighting against the nightmare in my head
I'm just not able to think properly anymore

As a demon I'd launch just a tantrum and many would have suffered
Inner wild beast wakes up in the world to destroy everything standing in its way
It's too late to regret once the tornado has passed and left only ruins
There's no turning back and both of us know pretty well about it

Je sens cette rage intérieure profondément
Dévorer mon corps progressivement
Et quand je ne cherche personne aux alentours
Je pleure de désespoir, mon sang bout
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de tuer ?
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de te blesser ?
Depuis le temps que je combats le cauchemar en moi se cachant
Je ne peux plus penser correctement

Comme un démon je lancerai une rage et tant auraient souffert
Ma bête sauvage intérieure se réveille dans le monde et détruit tout à sa portée
Une fois la tornade n'ayant laissé que ruines il est trop tard pour regretter
Nous le savons très bien qu'il est impossible de faire marche arrière

J'aimerais tellement te briser tel un miroir en éclats
Et y voir mon reflet des centaines de fois
Je n'ai plus l'air de pouvoir me concentrer sur moi
Je n'ai pas pu plus saisir de mots venant de toi
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de tuer ?
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de te blesser ?
Je souhaiterais que tu me laisses tranquille désormais
Et personne ne sera blessé je te le promets

Comme un démon je lancerai une rage et tant auraient souffert
Ma bête sauvage intérieure se réveille dans le monde et détruit tout à sa portée
Une fois la tornade n'ayant laissé que ruines il est trop tard pour regretter
Nous le savons très bien qu'il est impossible de faire marche arrière

Je sens cette rage intérieure profondément
Dévorer mon corps progressivement
Et quand je ne cherche personne aux alentours
Je pleure de désespoir, mon sang bout
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de tuer ?
Qu'est-ce qui m'empêche de te blesser ?
Depuis le temps que je combats le cauchemar en moi se cachant
Je ne peux plus penser correctement

Comme un démon je lancerai une rage et tant auraient souffert
Ma bête sauvage intérieure se réveille dans le monde et détruit tout à sa portée
Une fois la tornade n'ayant laissé que ruines il est trop tard pour regretter
Nous le savons très bien qu'il est impossible de faire marche arrière

Better not angry this heroine.
Music: quite dark and atmospheric music with some violence in the background. Atmo by Waterharp, dulcimer by Arcane, choirs by Ancient Voices, gamelans by Balinese Gamelan, tongue drum by MedicineMan, wubs and VFX by Serum.
Project requires Frequency Splitter - no compatibility patch below 20.8.2

Hello, Nynthixia here

Yesterday evening I've been informed that Native Instruments decided to half the prices for Komplete, including their upgrades, which put my upgrade to the final version of Komplete at almost €300 instead of almost €600. I took this upgrade on sale. However, there will be a delay for having everything, and this is due to a phone data limitation. Most of the instrument packages are very huge (between 17 Go and almost 32 Go!) which make the phone battery hard to sustain, and might eat up the 70 Go of phone data I initially have per day. The downloads will thus be done on next Tuesday at my work place, using the same method I did for getting back Stradivari Violin's iso file when the other hard drive's files were not retrieved yet.

The concerned instruments by this shifted download are:
Amati Viola (almost 22Go)
Guarneri Violin (almost 23Go)
Stradivari Cello (a bit more than 23Go)
Symphony Series Brass Ensemble (~27Go)
Symphony Series Brass Solo (~17.5Go)
Symphony Series Percussion (~27Go)
Symphony Series Strings Ensemble (more than 31Go)
Symphony Series Woodwind Ensemble (more than 30Go)
Symphony Series Woodwind Solo (almost 20Go)

I let you calculate how many Gos it does. Way too much! And I was forced to have a download upgrade, so I can't use a hard drive to get my isos... I need to download everything I don't have!

By the way speaking of hard drive, for information, the recovering is approaching the end. The only remaining folders are the downloads folder (it's been 4 weeks it's trying to save it) which is approaching the end of the copying of missing files, and the install folder (it's a folder near the root including all installers used when setting up a new computer or after a computer reset). The rest has been retrieved.

Other buying done after the mid-May:

1) Waterharp. You'll hear it in next GUMI's song, but it's a Kontakt library for a waterphone. I got it for quite cheap because it was in sale (got it for €33!) and I started using it a little bit in VOCALOID/UTAU projects, but also with the A49 to explore the sounds. Will be used either for atmospheres either for more percussive sounds.
2) I bought iZotope appreciation bundle, which is an offer at $49 (no taxes included) -> €49 with all taxes. As well as VocalSynth in a separate shop, in a bundle of less than €100. VocalSynth will be a bit harsher to use since I more used it in a project that has nothing to do with the one I'm doing for VOCALOID and UTAU, because it has the issue on some presets to make the voice unintelligible. But someday I'll master the beast, it's just a question of time.

Concerning the albums:

- CD31.5 - I have 6 songs left to do, 3 private and 3 public. The songs for June 5th and 7th are ready. I'll just have to do songs with Tei, GUMI and Itako. The 3 private songs won't feature IA or ONE due to their alpha status, which is very early development so they'll never be ready for the mid-June, so private tracks that were replaced will feature Zunko and MAYU. I keep the surprise for the third one.

- CD32 - The production will start either near the very end of June either near the very start of July. This one will be a themed album. The album will also include the last track of the Muse series.

- there is currently no plans for a CDHS3 for now, I have some ideas but never went to concretize them. Maybe soon?

See you in 2 days for "Tantrum" with GUMI!

Nynthixia