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Necessary Judgement

Posted on January 28 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in No compatibility patch, Normal yandere, Tragedy

『Necessary Judgement』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180127-00739
LIN (full) : 「598 907 699」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180128-000870
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 11/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

彼の体から奪われた息として、金色のかごから飛ぶ鳥として
後悔は一掃さと元気されることなく、遠くに消えている
最後の一時間は突然到着する前にゆっくりと近づいていきている
もしあなたがこの人を恋人にしようとしていなければ、愛しているよね

長い間、あなたが私をこの地獄から追い出すのを待っていた
その間に短い距離しかなかったとき、あなたは何の背後にいたの?
影を越えて見ようとしたが、この光景を期待しなかった
君の両手は自分自身を保持した、悲しみでしか見ることができなかった

ひどい裏切りは悪魔だけが発音することができる言葉で処罰されて
あなたを愛していた人から人生を取り除いて、自身に耳を傾けまたの?
怒りと恐怖は私を拷問するのに止まらず、このようにとどまることができなかった
この霊が闇の中でますます失われるのを見ている間に

彼の体から奪われた息として、金色のかごから飛ぶ鳥として
後悔は一掃さと元気されることなく、遠くに消えている
最後の一時間は突然到着する前にゆっくりと近づいていきている
もしあなたがこの人を恋人にしようとしていなければ、愛しているよね

この光景が私を傷つけていたとしても、見守ることができなかった
抱きしめて、キスして、もっと遠くに想像することを否定した
涙があふれてしまったので、私の考えは絶望によって飲み込まれた
ただし、どうしてか分からない、まだあなたに会いたいと思いる

あなたの存在は、絶え間なく幽霊のように悩ませていた、とても眠れない夜
体はこの嫉妬に疲れていて、誰もできなかった声に耳を傾けた
これらの全ての脅威は私にとって、あなたを理解しようと漠然としていた
でも、今判決だけが運命を救うことができることを知っている

彼の体から奪われた息として、金色のかごから飛ぶ鳥として
後悔は一掃さと元気されることなく、遠くに消えている
最後の一時間は突然到着する前にゆっくりと近づいていきている
もしあなたがこの人を恋人にしようとしていなければ、愛しているよね

これらの苦しい瞬間の後、彼の鮮血が流れ始めたときにあなたを見た
いつかあなたを許されるの? それとも、地面で崩壊しなければならないの?
誰も私たちを判断することはできない、神々はどんな気晴らしも感じない
これらの狂気の瞬間に、沈黙の中で流血すると非難した

Original English text

As a breath taken away from his body, as a bird flying away from the golden cage
Regret is swept away and disappears in a far distance without being invigorated
The last hour slowly approaches, before suddenly arriving
I'd love you if you hadn't tried to get this man be a lover

During a long time I waited for you to get me out of this hell
When there was only a short distance in between, what were you doing behind?
I tried to look beyond the shadows but I never expected this sight
While your two hands were holding themselves, I could only watch in the sorrow

The awful betrayal will be punished with words that only a demon could pronounce
Removing the life from the person who loved you, did you listen to yourself?
The rage and the fear didn't stop to torture me and I couldn't stay like this
While I was watching this spirit being lost more and more in the darkness

As a breath taken away from his body, as a bird flying away from the golden cage
Regret is swept away and disappears in a far distance without being invigorated
The last hour slowly approaches, before suddenly arriving
I'd love you if you hadn't tried to get this man be a lover

Even if this sight was sickening me, I couldn't stop watching
Embracing yourselves, kissing yourselves, I denied to imagine more far
Tears have flown so much, my thoughts were swallowed by despair
And though, I don't know why, I still hope to see you again

Your presence was incessantly haunting me like a ghost, so much sleepless nights
My body was tired of this jealousy and listened to voices that nobody else could
All these threats against me, I vainly tried to understand you
But now I know that only a judgement can save my fate

As a breath taken away from his body, as a bird flying away from the golden cage
Regret is swept away and disappears in a far distance without being invigorated
The last hour slowly approaches, before suddenly arriving
I'd love you if you hadn't tried to get this man be a lover

After these painful moments, I looked at you when his fresh blood began flowing
Would I someday forgive you? Or do I have to collapse on the ground?
Nobody will be able to judge us, gods won't feel any clemency
During these moments of insanity, condemned to bleed in the silence

And French adaptation!

Tel un souffle ôté de son corps, tel un oiseau se libérant d'une cage dorée
Le regret est balayé au lointain et disparaît sans être revigoré
La dernière heure approche doucement, avant d'être sonnée subitement
Je t'aurais aimée si tu n'avais pas essayé de te procurer cet homme comme amant

Pendant longtemps j'ai attendu que tu viennes me chercher depuis cet enfer
Mais que faisais-tu donc derrière moi lorsqu'il ne restait plus qu'un seul pas à faire
J'ai tenté d'observer au-delà des ombres mais rien de ce que je n'attendais n'est arrivé
Alors que vos deux mains se tenaient, je ne faisais que regarder chagrinée

L'affreuse trahison sera punie avec ces mots que seul un démon pourrait prononcer
Oser ôter la vie de l'être qui te désirait, t'es-tu entendue parler ?
La rage et la peur n'ont cessé de me torturer et je ne pouvais pas rester ainsi
Alors que pendant ce temps je remarquais que mon esprit s'était obscurci

Tel un souffle ôté de son corps, tel un oiseau se libérant d'une cage dorée
Le regret est balayé au lointain et disparaît sans être revigoré
La dernière heure approche doucement, avant d'être sonnée subitement
Je t'aurais aimée si tu n'avais pas essayé de te procurer cet homme comme amant

Même si cette scène m’écœurait, je ne pouvais m'empêcher de vous regarder
En train de s'enlacer, s'embrasser, et quant au reste je me refusais à l'imaginer
Mes larmes ont tellement coulé, mes pensées ont été englouties par le désespoir
Et pourtant, j'ignore pourquoi, mais j'espère encore pouvoir te revoir

Ta présence ne cessait de me hanter tel un fantôme, tant de nuits se sont illuminées
Mon corps se fatiguait de cette jalousie et écoutait des voix que nul autre ne pouvait entendre
Toutes ces menaces contre moi, j'essayais en vain de te comprendre
Mais maintenant je sais qu'un seul jugement pourra sauver ma destinée

Tel un souffle ôté de son corps, tel un oiseau se libérant d'une cage dorée
Le regret est balayé au lointain et disparaît sans être revigoré
La dernière heure approche doucement, avant d'être sonnée subitement
Je t'aurais aimée si tu n'avais pas essayé de te procurer cet homme comme amant

Après ces moments de douleur, je t'ai regardée alors que son sang frais commençait à couler
Ne pourrais-je pas un jour te pardonner ? Ou devrais-je à mon tour sur ce sol maudit m'écrouler ?
Aucune personne mortelle ne pourra réellement nous juger, les dieux n'éprouveront pas de clémence
Pendant ces moments de folie, nous sommes condamnées à saigner dans le silence

Explanations...

Story: there are actually two yanderes. The first one (the heroine, the song is from her point of view) is in love with the second one, who is herself in love with the rival of the first one.
Music: arp pad by PoiZone, bassline by Transistor Bass, strings by Sakura, pad by V-station, bell synth by M1 and lead by GMS.

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Aithnea

Posted on January 27 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in No compatibility patch, Normal yandere, Psychological, Tragedy, Yangire

『Aithnea』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180125-00738
LIN (full) : 「598 904 864」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180125-000869
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 5/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yangire/yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)


This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

ワタクシの隣の魂は高さから落ちることができなくなってしまった
一人で泣いて、あなたに電話して、痛みを感じている
違いにもかかわらず、あなたを完全に知っているよ
でも、あなたの存在がなければ、もはや生き残ることができない

それ以来、何年も経過しており、あなたのことを聞いている
あなたの体が地面で寝ていても、精神は決してワタクシを去らなかった
幸せに生きたいだけだ、愛する人を見つけたかった
もう何をすべきか分からず、あなたの個性とワタクシの仲間が加わった

持っていた全てのこの優しさは、背中の後ろを一掃された
その危険を知っていたので、これ以上無視することはできない
犠牲になる人を子供に頼む義務がある
でも、なぜそんなに愛した人でなければならなかったの?

ワタクシの隣の魂は高さから落ちることができなくなってしまった
一人で泣いて、あなたに電話して、痛みを感じている
違いにもかかわらず、あなたを完全に知っているよ
でも、あなたの存在がなければ、もはや生き残ることができない

精神が合併した、あなたはまだこの鮮血が流れているのを見たいと思って
彼女を殺すことができなかった、あなたの希望は満足しなければならなかった
これらの間違いを修復したい、あなたがこの体から出て欲しい
もう何も制御しない、一方、あなたの微罪に従いる

身元は、同一の実体主体がそれらを結びつけている間に分かれて
何が起こったのか後悔して、あなたがまだここにいるなら、終わるでしょう
この痛ましい叫び声で、あなたがもう暗闇の中で泣いているのを聞きたくない
あなたは全てが以前と同じになると思いるの?

あなたがワタクシの考えをどのように崩壊させたのかまだ分からない
鮮血によって汚された、呪われた狂気によって破壊されている
ワタクシたちはお互いのために戦っている体の両方の囚人
そして、取られた決定は、永遠の悲しみをもたらすだけだ

ワタクシの隣の魂は高さから落ちることができなくなってしまった
一人で泣いて、あなたに電話して、痛みを感じている
違いにもかかわらず、あなたを完全に知っているよ
でも、あなたの存在がなければ、もはや生き残ることができない

精神が合併した、あなたはまだこの鮮血が流れているのを見たいと思って
彼女を殺すことができなかった、あなたの希望は満足しなければならなかった
これらの間違いを修復したい、あなたがこの体から出て欲しい
もう何も制御しない、一方、あなたの微罪に従いる

Original English text

The soul next to me has been lost falling from the heights
Remained to cry alone and to call you, I feel so much pain
I know you perfectly, despite the differences
But without your presence I can't survive anymore

So many years have passed since, and I keep hearing you within
Even if your body is sleeping on the ground, your spirit never left me
I only wanted to live happy, I wanted to find someone to love
I didn't know what to do anymore, your personality and mine joined themselves

All this kindness that I had, behind the back was swept away
I knew the incurring danger, and I can't ignore this anymore
Being obliged to ask to a child the person who will be sacrified
But why did it have to be the person I loved so much?

The soul next to me has been lost falling from the heights
Remained to cry alone and to call you, I feel so much pain
I know you perfectly, despite the differences
But without your presence I can't survive anymore

Our spirits merged and you still want to see this fresh blood flowing
I couldn't kill her, but your wishes had to be satisfied
I want to repair these mistakes, I want you to get out from this body
I don't control anything anymore, and meanwhile I obey to your misdeeds

Our identities got separated while the same corporeal entity unites them
I regret so much what happened, this would be over if you were still here
I don't want to hear you crying in the darkness anymore, with this painful scream
Do you think everything can be the same as before?

I still don't understand how you have corrupted my thoughts
Stained by fresh blood, being destroyed by a cursed insanity
Both prisoners of a body we're fighting for each other
And decisions that have been taken are only bringing an eternal sorrow

The soul next to me has been lost falling from the heights
Remained to cry alone and to call you, I feel so much pain
I know you perfectly, despite the differences
But without your presence I can't survive anymore

Our spirits merged and you still want to see this fresh blood flowing
I couldn't kill her, but your wishes had to be satisfied
I want to repair these mistakes, I want you to get out from this body
I don't control anything anymore, and meanwhile I obey to your misdeeds

And French adaptation!

L'âme étant à mes côtés a été perdue en tombant d'infâmes hauteurs
Restant seule à pleurer et à l'appeler, je ressens tellement de douleur
Je te connais absolument par cœur, malgré nos différences
Mais je ne peux plus désormais survivre en ton absence

Tant d'années ont passé désormais, et je continue de t'entendre au fond de moi
Même si ton corps dort désormais sur le sol, ton esprit ne m'a jamais quittée
Je voulais seulement vivre heureuse et trouver quelqu'un à aimer en plus de toi
Je ne savais plus quoi faire, ta personnalité et la mienne se sont mélangées

Toute cette gentillesse que je possédais, derrière mon dos venait de s'écrouler
Je savais le danger que j'encourais et je ne peux plus l'ignorer désormais
Devoir demander à un enfant le nom de la personne qu'il devra sacrifier
Mais pourquoi est-ce tombé sur la seule personne que j'aimais ?

L'âme étant à mes côtés a été perdue en tombant d'infâmes hauteurs
Restant seule à pleurer et à l'appeler, je ressens tellement de douleur
Je te connais absolument par cœur, malgré nos différences
Mais je ne peux plus désormais survivre en ton absence

Nos esprits ont fusionné, et tu as cette envie de voir le sang frais couler encore
Je ne pouvais pas la tuer, et pourtant tes souhaits devaient être satisfaits
Je veux réparer cette erreur, je veux que tu sortes de mon corps
Je ne maîtrise plus la situation, et pendant ce temps j'obéis à tes méfaits

Nos identités se sont scindées alors que la même entité corporelle les réunit
Je regrette tellement ce qu'il t'est arrivé, si tu étais là tout serait fini
Je ne veux plus t'entendre pleurer dans l'obscurité, avec un cri de douleur déchirant
Penses-tu qu'il serait possible que tout redevienne comme avant ?

Je ne comprends pas comment tu as pu corrompre mes pensées
Tâchées par le sang frais, se faisant détruire par une maudite folie
Nous sommes deux prisonnières d'un corps que nous ne cessons de nous disputer
Et les décisions qui ont été prises ne mènent qu'à une tristesse infinie

L'âme étant à mes côtés a été perdue en tombant d'infâmes hauteurs
Restant seule à pleurer et à l'appeler, je ressens tellement de douleur
Je te connais absolument par cœur, malgré nos différences
Mais je ne peux plus désormais survivre en ton absence

Nos esprits ont fusionné, et tu as cette envie de voir le sang frais couler encore
Je ne pouvais pas la tuer, et pourtant tes souhaits devaient être satisfaits
Je veux réparer cette erreur, je veux que tu sortes de mon corps
Je ne maîtrise plus la situation, et pendant ce temps j'obéis à tes méfaits

Explanations...

So I aired this on the morning (French time) instead of midnight because of the album. But of course this song was prepared well in advance (well the codes tell you that both the instru and the full song were done on the 25th!).
Also lyrics first written in French way before doing the instru!
This is the answer song of "Muriel". But if the last one was pretty light and more sorrowful, this one is a bit more agressive and violent.
-Story (beware long part!)-
What actually happened is that two twin sisters got their spirits merged into one body, when one of the sisters died (you know that in "Muriel" because she is the one who died). Once they were both in the other girl's body, the mess begins. The two sisters have different personalities: Aithnea is generally a very calm, very polite person (note the "watakushi" instead of "watashi" in Japanese ver, but that's the same pronoun but with a more polite tone), very nice, who wouldn't hurt anyone. As for Muriel... She is quite a psychopath, darker than her sister and a bit more insane. Now they're fighting each other to get the consciousness of the body.
Another possible interpretation: Aithnea, too much in despair to have lost her sister, decided to create another personality and integrate a psychotic Muriel then regretted it.
The two possible stories are official. The first one has more fantastic touches (and I mean here touches of magic), the second one is more psychological. If you consider that in the first hypothesis Aithnea accepted to let her sister's soul enter in her body just so that they can still be together beyond death, that can work.
Else, between yangire and yandere, but honestly I have doubts.
This is inspired from Enzerika and Demonika's stories in "Horobi no Yurikago" (official EN title: "Cradle of Ruin") so yeah, lots of spoilers, woopsie. (From what I understood at least)
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Music: this has a bit of "CLIONE" spirit. Ah and this is impossible to sing (especially fast parts). Bassline by Transistor Bass, bells by M1, plucked synth by FM8, arp lead by GMS and the Slayer guitar.

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CD18 "Death Seeker" - January albums (2/2)

Posted on January 26 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia

DOWNLOAD THE ALBUM (13 TRACKS)

Hello, Nynthixia there!

And here is the second January album! The first one featured CUL, Yukari, Lily, IA, Oniko and Stella. The second one is with Lily, Yukari, MAYU, GUMI and Tei.

Here is the changelog:

Death Seeker (feat. MAYU)
[INSTRUMENT] Added bridge chords during choruses and before first chorus

SILVENA (feat. MAYU)
[EXTENSION] Extended end with modification

Arlena (feat. GUMI)
[PATCH] Corrected a case of abrupt end for first riser

What You Deserve (feat. Lily)
[INSTRUMENT] Added pluck during verse 1
[INSTRUMENT] Added bells during choruses and last intro part
[INSTRUMENT] Modified bells placement in outtro

Linda (feat. Lily)
[INSTRUMENT] Added impact before ending part and at middle of final intro part
[INSTRUMENT] Added second beats pattern in second part of final intro part

Asylum of Dreams (feat. GUMI)
[INSTRUMENT] Added crash roll and impact before last chorus and at middle of last chorus

MADALENA (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[INSTRUMENT] Bridge pattern now also plays during choruses

MAELISSA (feat. MAYU)
[MIXDOWN] Raised volume of gated pad
[MIXDOWN] Modified trance gate pattern
[PATCH] Added sweeps at intro to repair synchronization problem

Enemy Mine (feat. MAYU, Sukone Tei)
[PATCH] Fixed saturation of after-chorus parts (AS* program)
Same LIC code

* Anti-Saturation

 

I have 2 more songs to air this week. The first one will come this morning, it's "Aithnea" with IA. Why this morning and not at midnight? Even if I finished the song on Thursday (I was so much motivated for this one that I couldn't resist) I rathered letting some time for the album and then the song would come next, without having any penalty for any country. If I did it on the afternoon it would be aired on the 28th for Japanese people for example. Time differences really make this hard.

As for the MQube incident on last Sunday it's repaired. The thing that happened is that when I tried to upload the remix to MQube I got stuck with a server error (= MQube down) so I decided to upload it on Soundcloud until MQube gets online again. So now everything is back to normal.

Little dates to remember:

Later on this day: "Aithnea" (IA)
January 28th: one of the remaining demos to do for "Unseen"
February 5th, February 13th, February 14th, February 22nd: deadlines for songs of March album (Stella/Kiritan/kokone/Lily)

No cover on February, since the "Blood Error" remix replaced it. They will return in March.

Ah and Nyui will appear in the April album. She already has 2 scheduled songs on March 30th and April 5th, and I have an idea for one song for her. (ref to the post of the song "Unseen", with Yukari as vocals).

 

So enjoy this album and see you later in the morning (French time of course) for a song with IA!

Nynthixia

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Unseen

Posted on January 23 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in No compatibility patch, Psychological, Tragedy, Yangire

『Unseen』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180123-00737
LIN (full) : 「598 902 405」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180123-000868
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 1/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : murder and madness references, yangire content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)


This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

場所は狂気で満たされている、叫び声は絶えず共鳴ている
声は誰もが狂ったように駆り立てていて、どんな希望の魂も空にして
天国は傷ついた魂が怒りを落ち着かせるのを待っている
この宇宙の生き物は、全世界を浄化するための犠牲を求めている

ほんの少しの幸せを望んでいた、地獄と永遠の狂気に終わった
私の精神が暗闇の中に残っている間、魂は光に上がる
この場所は最終的に私を壊した、これらの恐怖はあまりにも多かった
自分自身に病気になる前に狂気を見ることしかできなかった

これは私を悩ましたい歪んだ夢なのでしょうの?
呼び出しに抵抗しなかった、全てが間違ってよ

誰もが苦しめるこの痛みから全員を癒したいと思っていた
体が崩壊し始めた、幽霊は声を聞いて声を聞こえた
彼らが狂っていると思わないなら、すぐに来るだろう
負傷した精神は悪夢の迷路で失われた、死は唯一の救いだ

誰も脅威を見ることはなく、最後の息を聞くだけ
幽霊の悲鳴が人生を終わらせるために来て

Original English text

The place is filled with insanity and the screams resonate incessantly
The voice is driving everyone insane and empties the spirits of any hope
A paradise is waiting for the wounded souls to calm the rage down
The creature of this universe asks for sacrifices to purify the whole world

I only wanted some happiness, I ended into an infernal and eternal madness
Souls ascending to the light while my spirit remains in the darkness
This place finally broken me, these horrors was too much
I could only see insanity before getting sick myself

Is this only a distorted dream wanting to haunt me?
I didn't resist to the call, everything is wrong

I wanted to heal everyone from this pain nobody could sustain
The body began to disintegrate and the ghost obeyed the voice from beyond
If they didn't show themselves insane, it would come soon
Wounded spirit would get lost in the nightmare maze, death is the only salvation

Nobody sees the threat and only hears a last breath
Ghostly scream is coming to end your life

And French adaptation!

L'endroit empli de folie et les cris résonnant incessamment
La voix rend tout le monde fou et vide les esprits de tout espoir
Un paradis attend les âmes blessées pour calmer la colère qu'ils ont pu avoir
La créature de cet univers demande des sacrifices pour purifier le monde nous entourant

Je ne voulais qu'un peu de bonheur, j'ai fini dans une folie infernale et éternelle
Les âmes montent vers la lumière alors que mon esprit reste dans les sombres sentinelles
Cet endroit a achevé de me briser, ces horreurs ne pouvaient plus être supportées
Je ne voyais que folie avant d'en être aussi touchée

Est-ce un rêve déformé voulant seulement me hanter ?
Je n'ai pas résisté à l'appel, tout semble être erroné

Je voulais soigner tout le monde de cette peur que personne ne pouvait supporter
Mon corps à commencé à se déliter et le fantôme a obéi à la voix de l'au-delà
S'ils ne se montraient pas fous eux-mêmes, l'heure ne tarderait plus à sonner
L'esprit blessé se perdrait dans le labyrinthe du cauchemar, seule la mort nous sauvera

Personne ne voit la menace et n'entend que le souffle dernier
Un cri fantomatique arrive pour faire tomber votre vie de l'échiquier

Explanations...

Who already tried Yukari on dubstep? Because she sounds really great (Lin VB).
Story: "Dead by Daylight" based-theme. This one is focused a bit more on the Nurse. She was actually a young woman working in an asylum. But more time passed, more she saw horrid things and she finally snapped. She thought that patients had to be purified to be freed from their madness. "End the suffering" kind of. And in the game, all the killers have to feed a sort of entity with sacrifices. This actually won't be the only song which will have this game as a theme. The Nurse is not my favorite (I still like her very much) and the one I really, really love (clue: also a woman), will have a song on March. When you'll see it, you'll notice why this choice.
Music: pads (gated, atmo) and screaming lead/chords by Toxic Biohazard, growl synths by GMS. This has a ghostly atmosphere, exactly what I wanted for the Nurse. Because, clearly... She's quite represented as a ghost. Also, for this music, this is actually dubstep, but there are more trance touches than in "Bloody Infection" (dubstep song having the game "Deceit" as theme).

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Tara

Posted on January 22 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Psychological

『Tara』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180122-00736
LIN (full) : 「598 901 477」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180122-000867
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 8/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : self-harm references
Restricted on : piapro (not recommended)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

精神が崩壊していると感じて、痛みが悪化して、体が破壊されて
温かい血が流れ続け、叫び声は重い沈黙の中で共鳴している
これらの考えはものではなく、この幽霊は純潔をそのままにしておく必要があるよ
傷から腐ったこの体から出て、夜の陰で消えて

叫ぶ刃が近づいてきて、もはや隠れるべき場所を知らない
言葉は精神から脱出したくない、痛みは私の中に残っている
苦痛と苦しみの悪夢を囚人にしているよ、それから逃げたい
誰もその錯覚を粉砕することはない、運命だけを変えることはできない

精神が崩壊していると感じて、痛みが悪化して、体が破壊されて
温かい血が流れ続け、叫び声は重い沈黙の中で共鳴している
これらの考えはものではなく、この幽霊は純潔をそのままにしておく必要があるよ
傷から腐ったこの体から出て、夜の陰で消えて

暗い霧の中で消え去る前に、彼の顔を最後に見た
傷は治癒することはできない、精神は休むことはできない、悪夢は続ける
暗闇と苦しみによって支配されるこの宇宙の中で、ついにあなたを聞くことができるの?
目を覚ましてもう痛みを感じずに別の現実に戻っていきたいよ

孤独は私を覚醒させた後も追いつくことができなくなった
苦しみの幽霊は絶え間なく私を傷つけ、拷問は彼らを驚かせ続ける
この体はすぐに消え、この精神がこの地獄の世界から解放されなければならない
可能な限り全ての努力をしてこの邪悪な存在と戦い続けるつもり

Original English text

I feel the spirit disintegrating, pain is worsening and the body is being destroyed
Warm blood continues flowing, and the screams are resonating in the heavy silence
These thoughts aren't mine, this ghost must leave the innocence untouched
Get out from this body rotten by wounds, disappear in the nightly shadows

Screaming blades keep approaching and I don't know where to hide anymore
Words don't want getting out from the spirit, pain remains inside of me
I'm prisoner of a nightmare of pain and torture, I want to escape from it
But nobody will shatter the illusion, I can't change the fate alone

I feel the spirit disintegrating, pain is worsening and the body is being destroyed
Warm blood continues flowing, and the screams are resonating in the heavy silence
These thoughts aren't mine, this ghost must leave the innocence untouched
Get out from this body rotten by wounds, disappear in the nightly shadows

I saw their face one last time, before vanishing in the dark mist
Wounds can't be healed, spirit can't rest, the nightmare keeps going
Can you finally hear me in this universe governed by darkness and suffering?
I want to wake up and come back to another reality, without feeling any pain anymore

Loneliness became impossible to sustain, chasing after me even awake
The ghost of the suffering are incessantly haunting me, and torture continue to amaze them
This body will soon disappear, and if this spirit has to be freed from this infernal world
I'll continue to struggle against this evil entity with all the possible efforts

And French adaptation!

Je sens mon esprit se déliter, la douleur empire et mon corps se détruit
Le sang chaud continue de couler, et mes cris résonnent dans le silence
Ces pensées ne m'appartiennent pas, ce fantôme doit laisser tranquille mon innocence
Sors de ce corps pourri par les blessures, disparais dans les ténèbres de la nuit

Les lames hurlantes continuent d'approcher et je ne sais plus où dois-je me cacher
Les mots ne veulent pas sortir de mon esprit, la douleur reste au fond de moi confinée
Je suis prisonnière d'un cauchemar de torture et de douleur, je veux m'en échapper
Mais personne ne sera là pour briser l'illusion, et seule je ne pourrai changer la destinée

Je sens mon esprit se déliter, la douleur empire et mon corps se détruit
Le sang chaud continue de couler, et mes cris résonnent dans le silence
Ces pensées ne m'appartiennent pas, ce fantôme doit laisser tranquille mon innocence
Sors de ce corps pourri par les blessures, disparais dans les ténèbres de la nuit

J'ai revu son visage une dernière fois avant qu'il ne s'évapore dans le sombre brouillard
Les blessures ne peuvent guérir, mon esprit ne peut plus reposer, et continue ce cauchemar
Peux-tu enfin m'entendre depuis cet univers où seules les ténèbres et la souffrance sont reines ?
Je veux pouvoir me réveiller et retourner dans une autre réalité, sans avoir à ressentir de la peine

La solitude me devenait insupportable, me poursuivant même lorsque j'étais éveillée
Les fantômes de la douleur me hantent sans cesse, et ma torture continue de les émerveiller
Ce corps disparaîtra bientôt, et si cet esprit doit être libéré de ce monde infernal
Je continuerai de combattre contre cette entité maléfique tant bien que mal

Explanations...

French lyrics have been written first for this one as well.
And the song has a huge dissonance between a dreamy and light instrumental and dark and gloomy lyrics.
Music: lead by M1, pads and arp pad by Hybrid, pluck by Morphine.

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DIMPHNE

Posted on January 21 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in No compatibility patch, Tragedy

『DIMPHNE』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180121-00735
LIN (full) : 「598 900 683」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180121-000866
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 12/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : murder, possible yangire content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

鏡の各側面からは、どこ静かな生活が咲いている
この家族を生きているという希望は突然消えるようになった
ただ幸せになりたいと思っていた、この夢は粉々になり、絶望に陥た
考えていた最後の願いは、あなたをもう一度見ることができたことだ

非常に長い時間を探した、この沈黙の中で何も見つけ出していなかった
ほんの少しの思いが残っていて、この復讐の気持ちを持っていた
空からいくつかの叫び声を聞いて、誰もこの呪われた場所で休んでいない
神の命令に従うだけで、他の言葉を無視し続けているよ

いつもあなたを見つけて、もう一度あなたを抱きしめたいと思った
そしてあなたの人生を消したこの人は、私たちは一緒にいることはできない
あなたは彼を決して赦されない、彼に向かって無慈悲になるでしょう
後悔の叫び声が共鳴すると、すでに遅すぎるでしょう

鏡の各側面からは、どこ静かな生活が咲いている
この家族を生きているという希望は突然消えるようになった
ただ幸せになりたいと思っていた、この夢は粉々になり、絶望に陥た
考えていた最後の願いは、あなたをもう一度見ることができたことだ

夜の間、この夢は戻ってきた、ついにこの錯覚であなたを見ることができた
あなたが消えてしまう前に、手はお互いに触れ合っていた
幻覚ではなく真の世界であなたと一緒になりたかった
入ることのできないこの宇宙から戻ってくることは決してないと知った

そして最後に暗闇の中であなたの血を流した人を見つけた
後悔を感じることなく、彼の視線はどんな感じでも空いていた
追求は終わったけど、これまでのところ安心していなかった
ずっと前に失ったものは、誰もこれらを回収することはない

私の幸福は、求めて止めることができなくても、永遠に失われてしまった
これらの努力は無駄に残り、復讐はこれらの願いを養わないでしょう
悲鳴が頭の中で決して止まらない、これらの世界は依然として分離されている
ずっと前に全てを失ってしまった、もうこの現実に抵抗することはできない

Original English text

From each side of the mirror, where quiet lives are blooming
The hope maintaining this family alive suddenly began to fade away
I just wanted to be happy and this dream shattered, I fell into despair
The last wish I was thinking about was being able to see you again

I searched for a very long time, I wasn't finding anything in this silence
Only few thoughts remained, with this feeling of revenge
I hear some screams from the sky, and nobody is resting in this cursed place
I'm just obeying to divine orders, and I keep ignoring other words

I always wished to find you and embrace you once again
And this person who erased your life, we can't be together
You never forgave him, and I'll be merciless towards him
When the screams of regret will resonate, it will be already too late

From each side of the mirror, where quiet lives are blooming
The hope maintaining this family alive suddenly began to fade away
I just wanted to be happy and this dream shattered, I fell into despair
The last wish I was thinking about was being able to see you again

During a night this dream came back, I finally could see you in this illusion
Our hands almost touched each other, before you disappeared
I wanted to be together with you in the true world, not in a hallucination
I knew that you would never come back from this universe I can't enter

Then finally in the darkness I found the man who made your blood flowing
Without feeling any regret, his gaze remained empty of any feeling
The pursuit came to an end, but I didn't feel relieved so far
The things that I lost a long time ago, nobody will retrieve these

My happiness has been lost forever, even if I can't stop seeking for it
These efforts will remain vain, revenge won't feed these wishes
The screams will never stop in my head, and these worlds will still be separated
I have lost everything a long time ago, I can't resist in this reality anymore

And French adaptation!

De chaque côté du miroir, où des vies paisibles pouvaient s'épanouir
L'espoir qui maintenait notre famille a soudainement commencé à s'évanouir
Je voulais juste être heureuse et ce rêve s'est brisé, sombrant dans le désespoir
Le dernier souhait que j'avais à l'esprit était de pouvoir un jour te revoir

J'ai cherché pendant si longtemps, et je ne trouvais rien dans ce silence
Seules quelques pensées étaient restées dans mon esprit, ainsi que le sentiment de vengeance
J'entends des cris depuis le ciel, et personne ne trouve le repos dans cet endroit maudit
Je ne fais qu'obéir à des ordres divins et ignore tout ce qui a été dit

J'ai toujours souhaité te retrouver et pouvoir te serrer dans mes bras
Et cette personne qui t'a ôté la vie, m'empêchant d'être avec toi
Tu ne lui as jamais pardonné, et je n'éprouverai aucune pitié à son égard
Lorsque ses cris de repentance sonneront, il sera déjà trop tard

De chaque côté du miroir, où des vies paisibles pouvaient s'épanouir
L'espoir qui maintenait notre famille a soudainement commencé à s'évanouir
Je voulais juste être heureuse et ce rêve s'est brisé, sombrant dans le désespoir
Le dernier souhait que j'avais à l'esprit était de pouvoir un jour te revoir

Lors d'une nuit ce rêve est revenu, j'ai pu enfin te revoir dans cette illusion
Nos mains se sont à peine effleurées, avant que tu finisses par t'évaporer
Je voulais t'avoir à mes côtés dans la vraie vie, pas dans une hallucination
Je savais que tu ne reviendrais jamais de cet univers auquel je ne peux accéder

Puis enfin dans les ténèbres j'ai retrouvé l'homme qui avait fait couler ce sang
Ne ressentant aucun regret, son regard demeurait vide de tout sentiment
La traque allait enfin pouvoir se terminer, mais je ne me sentais pas soulagée pour autant
Ce que j'ai perdu il y a longtemps, personne ne pourra le ramener maintenant

Mon bonheur a été perdu à jamais, et même si je continue inlassablement de le chercher
Ces efforts resteront vains, la vengeance ne suffira pas à combler ces souhaits
Les cris ne s'arrêteront jamais dans ma tête, et le barrière entre ces mondes continuera d'exister
Depuis longtemps j'ai tout perdu, je ne peux plus résister dans cette réalité

Explanations...

Again, French lyrics were written before the English ones. I think this will happen more and more often, until all songs will be produced this way. And like this, the French lyrics will be prettier (the English version keeps it quite basic).
Story: about a girl who lost her sister because of a man (unknown reason) and decides to avenge her.
(I didn't tag the blog post of the song as "yangire" because there is no real madness.)
Music: bells and lead by M1, gated pad and very low bassline by FM8, clear bassline (the one you hear the most) by Transistor Bass.

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CD17.5 "Dying Rule" - January albums (1/2)

Posted on January 19 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia

CD17.5

DOWNLOAD THE ALBUM (12 TRACKS)

Hello, Nynthixia there.

I don't need to tell many things tonight. Most of the recent news are resumed right here, so don't hesitate to check it out.

This is the changelog for this album!

Emma (feat. CUL)
[EXTENSION] Added second bridge between second chorus and second verse
[INSTRUMENT] Changed beats manipulation
[INSTRUMENT] Added VFX

This song has actually 2 demos: one for the blog (the very first one, the one you can really qualify as a demo), and one for YouTube (which is half-way between blog demo and album version). I just finished the modifications for the album version, and extended a bridge part, which I wanted to do for the album version only, even if I had this idea in my head since a long time ago.

Gaelle (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[INSTRUMENT] Added VFX

I only did this modification to make more clear that this song is the sister song of "Emma".

Calumnies (feat. Yuzuki Yukari, Lily)
[INSTRUMENT] Modified pattern sequence in bridges

The sequence pattern has 3 versions: one with the notes separated, another one with the notes being a bit more linked each other and the last one with a little addition touch. And that's this last one I added in the bridges for this version!

Psycho Liar (feat. Lily)
[INSTRUMENT] Coupled bells to the existant bridge pattern (M1)
[MIXDOWN] Enhanced volume of FM8 bells

Because I wanted to change the bells but I couldn't find anything else sounding good.

JOZEFINA (feat. CUL)
[INSTRUMENT] Added VFX
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX at 2° chorus and 3° chorus

I hesitated to do it for the demo version, really. And I told myself, "nah, would be for the album".

Letha (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[INSTRUMENT] Added riser before each chorus and verse

This song was already great, but I just added some dynamics by adding the riser at some other strategic points. Enjoy!

Shining Shrine (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
[INSTRUMENT] Added bells pattern during choruses

For this one, the change is very, very subtle, especially when the capella is on. But I assure you: yes, I added these bells!

 

So, next surprise. Remix on MQube. I really enjoyed doing this. I worked on it a big part of Thursday evening. And it turned out to be quite great. I hope you won't be disappointed.
Won't reveal the track name before tomorrow though... Let's keep up the fun until the end, OK?

Nynthixia

 

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Muriel

Posted on January 17 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in No compatibility patch, Tragedy

『Muriel』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180117-00733
LIN (full) : 「598 895 611」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180117-000864
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 4/12

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)


This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

二人の若い少女は全てが性格まで反対している
夢と現実との間にこだわった二人の姉妹魂
なぜそこに入るためにこれらの高さから落ちなければならなかったの?
崩壊しているときに、あなたが叫んでいるのを聞いたのはなぜだよ?

鏡として、二つの体が融合している間、世界は壊れている
暗闇と光の間で、天使と悪魔の間に戦いが起こる
痛みを訴えている、まだあなたを感じることができる
呪いを起こした狂気といつも闘争しようとする

私たちの間で起こっている絶え間ない戦いを理解していない
両方の姉妹だった、これらの過去の瞬間を一緒に覚えているの?
暗闇の中に消え去る前に、異なった思考が交錯している
紛争は忘れられている、少なくともいつも考えていたことだ

ちょうどあなたに会いたい、この拷問された身体の外側で、なぜできないの?
あなたが管理を持っているときに、暗闇の瞬間、ゆっくりと戻ってくる前に
これらの怒りは幼稚なだけだ、どうしてあなたは今そんなに嫌いの?
再び泣き続けて、続けて、あなたが聞いていないことを知って

鏡として、二つの体が融合している間、世界は壊れている
暗闇と光の間で、天使と悪魔の間に戦いが起こる
痛みを訴えている、まだあなたを感じることができる
呪いを起こした狂気といつも闘争しようとする

鏡として、二つの体が融合している間、世界は壊れている
暗闇と光の間で、天使と悪魔の間に戦いが起こる
痛みを訴えている、まだあなたを感じることができる
呪いを起こした狂気といつも闘争しようとする

Original English text

Two young women that everything opposes until the personality
Two sister souls who have been stuck between a dream and reality
Why did I have to fall down from these heights to get in there?
Why did I hear you screaming when I was collapsing?

As a mirror the world is shattering while our two bodies fusionned
Between darkness and light, a fight occuring between an angel and a demon
I'm crying of pain, and I can still feel you though
Always trying to struggle against the madness which has created the curse

I don't understand the constant fight that has been occuring between us
We were both sisters, do you remember these past moments together?
Different thoughts are crossing each other before vanishing into darkness
Disputes are forgotten, at least that's what I always thought

I just want to see you again, outside of this tortured body, why can't I?
These moments of darkness when you have the control, before I slowly get it back
These angers were only childish, but why do you hate me so much now?
I continue to cry again, cry again, and I know you won't be listening

As a mirror the world is shattering while our two bodies fusionned
Between darkness and light, a fight occuring between an angel and a demon
I'm crying of pain, and I can still feel you though
Always trying to struggle against the madness which has created the curse

As a mirror the world is shattering while our two bodies fusionned
Between darkness and light, a fight occuring between an angel and a demon
I'm crying of pain, and I can still feel you though
Always trying to struggle against the madness which has created the curse

And French adaptation!

Deux jeunes filles que tout oppose jusqu'à la personnalité
Deux âmes sœurs coincées entre rêve et réalité
Pourquoi ai-je dû chuter de haut pour en arriver là ?
Pourquoi t'ai-je entendue hurler lorsque je suis tombée en bas ?

Le monde se brise tel un miroir et fusionne nos corps
Entre lumière et ténèbres, une bataille entre un ange et un démon
Je pleure de douleur, et pourtant je te ressens encore
Toujours en train de lutter contre la folie ayant créé ma malédiction

Je ne comprends pas pourquoi cette bataille incessante entre nous
Nous étions sœurs, te souviens-tu de ces moments qu'ensemble nous avons passés ?
Les différentes pensées se croisent puis s'évanouissent dans l'obscurité
Les disputes sont oubliées, tout de moins c'est ce que j'ai pensé jusqu'au bout

Je veux juste te revoir, en dehors de ce corps torturé, pourquoi ne puis-je pas ?
Ces moments d'obscurité où tu prends le contrôle, avant de revenir lentement
Avant ces colères n'étaient qu'enfantillages, mais pourquoi maintenant me détestes-tu tant ?
Je continue de pleurer, de pleurer, et je sais que pendant ce temps tu ne m'écoutes pas

Le monde se brise tel un miroir et fusionne nos corps
Entre lumière et ténèbres, une bataille entre un ange et un démon
Je pleure de douleur, et pourtant je te ressens encore
Toujours en train de lutter contre la folie ayant créé ma malédiction

Le monde se brise tel un miroir et fusionne nos corps
Entre lumière et ténèbres, une bataille entre un ange et un démon
Je pleure de douleur, et pourtant je te ressens encore
Toujours en train de lutter contre la folie ayant créé ma malédiction

Explanations...

Again, a bit cheated between English and French... FR lyrics have been written first.
Story: about two twin girls. They both had many disagreements and one day one of the twins fell down a cliff. But only her former body died and her spirit entered her sister's body. Now they're fighting each other to get the control. Only problem... The twin who died has very serious mental issues such as psychopathy, while the other one is very sweet and nice.
"Aithnea" will be its sister song from another point of view. "Muriel" is actually from the point of view of the sister who died, but it is actually the less violent song between the two. (To be contiunued on Jan 27th)
Music: pad by FM8, piano by FL Keys, bassline by Transistor Bass, chords by Xpand!2.

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CD18.5 tracklist + next weeks pace decision

Posted on January 16 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia there.

This was actually online on the 2018 discography page since Sunday but I now announce it officially there, CD18.5 tracklist!

The album will be called "Unseen" and will contain 12 tracks (4 for Yukari, 4 for IA, 4 for Meiji and 4 for Ritsu). Only the demos of the second and tenth tracks are out for the moment. So here it is:

CD18.5 "Unseen" - AIR DATE: FEBRUARY 24TH

01. Unseen (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
02. Carene (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
03. Altered Reality (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
04. Muriel (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
05. Aithnea (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
06. Lost Innocence (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
07. Threatening Thread (feat. Namine Ritsu)
08. Tara (feat. Namine Ritsu)
09. CARMINILLA (feat. Namine Ritsu)
10. Bloody Infection (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
11. Necessary Judgement (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
12. DIMPHNE (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)

The scheduled songs are:
- "Unseen" for January 24th
- "Aithnea" for January 27th (yup, the same day as the album "Death Seeker")

All the others, "as soon as it's done".

Also for next week, I hesitated between using the fastest or the moderate pace for working on production. Normally I should go with the tightest one since all my week will be free... But because of my global fatigue, I think I have to reduce it to "between 3 and 6 songs a week" exceptionnally. I don't really want to force myself or else I know this will end badly. I'll still try to do 4 for next week, to advance a bit on the tracklist.

The week after this, back to the slowest pace, but maybe with 3 songs.

 

And for Lily, Kiritan, Stella and kokone?
No worries, they are for CD19. The demos may be produced at the same time as the ones of the CD18.5, especially for Stella's song (Feb 5th is the deadline). For reminder, deadlines:
- Feb 5th -> Stella
- Feb 13th -> Kiritan
- Feb 14th -> kokone
- Feb 22nd -> Lily

As for Nyui, she's not forgotten since she will have lots of tracks for March and April. I really enjoy working with her (especially vivid VB) so it's not today I'm going to stop!
After as for technical reasons... I just have to be at my own home to work with her. But same goes with Itako anyway.

Last thing. Remix on MQube on January 21st. And I can't fail this one. This replaces February cover (and of course on March I do the same as usual). I won't reveal the name of the song I'm going to remix until you see it though. Nobody has to see it.
Until the day...

 

Please enjoy
Nynthixia

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Carene

Posted on January 14 2018 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Psychological, Tragedy

『Carene』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 15
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-180114-00732
LIN (full) : 「598 892 313」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-180114-000863
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Unseen - TRACK 2/12

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 18.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

まずあなたを愛したが、痛みは私にあなたを忘れさせた
この感覚に反して、逃げずに長時間闘った
これらの思い出が飛んできたとき、あなたに会いに戻った
この痛い気持ちもまた私の中に戻ってきた

逃げようとしたこの気持ちで悩まされた
精神が狂気によって再び襲われるまで、救済はあまり長く続いていなかった
傷は激しさを失ってしまったので、あなたについて考えを止めることはできない
いつもあなたのそばにいたいと思っているよ

まず、常にあなたを良き友人とみなしたよ
話をすることができた人は、打ち明けることができた
それから、この気持ちが到着し、私を無視することに決めた
とても恐れていた、この現実と戦う勇気はなかった

これらの感情が実際に同じままであっても、互いに成長して
前にそんなに多くの事を後悔した、あなたが私を怖がっていることを知って
お詫びしたいと思っていたけど、あなたがそこにいないことを知って
いつかついにあなたと話をすることができるの?

私たちが一緒だった時、まずあなたを良き友人とみなしていた
精神が狂気によって再び襲われるまで、救済はあまり長く続いていなかった
傷は激しさを失ってしまったので、あなたについて考えを止めることはできない
いつもあなたのそばにいたいと思っているよ

暗い夏の夜、沈黙の中で一人でさまよっていた
遭遇しようとしているものを無視した、他のことについて考えなかった
それから、君お互いの手を持って一緒にいるのを見た
この瞬間に私の中で、何らかの正気と無実を失ったと感じた

この痛みを無視することができなかった私を壊して、あまりにも多かった
この愛はあまりにも面倒で、必死にそれを取り戻したいと思っていた
彼の死んだ体が崩壊したとき、あなたが逃げようとしているのを見た
あなたが私をあまり憎んだ瞬間に、どうすればいいの?

Original English text

I first loved you but the pain forced me to forget you
I fought against this sensation for a long time without being able to run away
When these memories flew away, I came back to see you
This painful feeling also began to came back inside me

Haunted by this feeling that I tried to run away from
Relief didn't last very long before my spirit gets attacked again by insanity
The wound has been ravived, and I can't stop thinking about you
I know I always wanted to be by your side

I first always considered you only as a good friend
A person I was able to talk with, I was able to confide
Then this feeling arrived and decided to defy me
I was so afraid and didn't dare to fight back this reality

Growing up separated from each other, even if these feelings actually stayed the same
I regretted so many things before, I know that you're scared of me
I wanted to apologize but I know you won't be there to listen
Will I be able someday to finally talk with you again?

Haunted by this feeling that I tried to run away from
Relief didn't last very long before my spirit gets attacked again by insanity
The wound has been ravived, and I can't stop thinking about you
I know I always wanted to be by your side

During a dark summer night I was wandering alone in the silence
I ignored what I was going to encounter, I didn't think about anything else
Then I saw you being together, holding each other hand
I felt within me at this moment that I lost any sanity and innocence

I couldn't ignore this pain breaking me down, this was too much
This love was too much tiresome, and I so desperately wanted to get it back
When his lifeless body collapsed, I saw you trying to run away
How could I get to a moment you hated me that much?

And French adaptation!

Je t'avais aimée puis la douleur m'a forcée à t'oublier
J'ai combattu pendant longtemps cette sensation sans pouvoir m'échapper
Quand ces souvenirs se sont envolés, je suis retournée vers toi
Le sentiment a lui aussi recommencé à revenir en moi

Hantée par ce même sentiment que j'ai essayé de fuir cependant
Le soulagement n'a duré que peu de temps avant que mon esprit redevienne dément
La blessure a été ravivée, et je ne peux plus m'empêcher de penser à toi
Je sais que j'ai toujours voulu passer plus de temps avec toi

Lorsque nous étions ensemble, je t'avais toujours d'abord considérée comme une bonne amie
Avec qui je pouvais parler, à qui je pouvais me confier
Puis ce sentiment est arrivé et a décidé de me défier
J'ai eu tellement peur et n'ai pas osé affronter cette vie

Ayant grandi chacune de notre côté, même si ces sensations n'ont jamais évolué
J'ai regretté tant de choses auparavant, je sais que tu as peur de moi
J'aurais tellement voulu m'excuser mais je sais que tu ne m'écouteras pas
Mais serai-je un jour capable de te parler ?

Hantée par ce même sentiment que j'ai essayé de fuir cependant
Le soulagement n'a duré que peu de temps avant que mon esprit redevienne dément
La blessure a été ravivée, et je ne peux plus m'empêcher de penser à toi
Je sais que j'ai toujours voulu passer plus de temps avec toi

Pendant une nuit sombre d'été je marchais dans le silence
J'ignorais ce que j'allais rencontrer, et je ne pensais à rien
Puis je vous ai vus ensemble, vous tenant l'un l'autre la main
J'ai senti au fond de moi que j'avais perdu la raison et l'innocence

Je ne pouvais plus ignorer la douleur qui me cassait, c'en était assez
Cet amour m'a fatiguée pendant trop longtemps, et je voulais tant le récupérer
Lorsque son corps sans vie s'est écroulé, je t'ai vue tenter de m'enfuir
Comment ai-je pu arriver à un moment où tu puisses tant me haïr ?

Explanations...

Story: A girl who fell in love with her friend and didn't assume her feelings, until they meet again. But her feelings got her quite quickly.
Music: arp pad by PoiZone, bridge arp and synth by FM8, organ by M1.
I used the Jun/Lin VB for the choruses and verses, and the Lin VB for the fast bridge.

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