DOWNLOAD ALBUM (16 TRACKS)

Note: age limit higher for this album (not recommended for people under 16 (instead of "under 14"))

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Here is the May album! And this is the changelog. If a song isn't in the list = same as demo. You know the rest.

01. Leida (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[MIXDOWN] Enhanced volume of vocal SFX
[MIXDOWN] Wet setting of slayer reverb enhanced

The SFX sounded weird on some devices, now this will sound a bit more decent.

04. Running And Ailing (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
[INSTRUMENT] Removed kicks in final bridge
[INSTRUMENT] Added roll+SFX in bridges and in song final
[MIXDOWN] FIltered capella modified into coupled normal and Doom SFX modified capellas
[MIXDOWN] Corrected instru volume to reduce saturation (Anti Saturation)

I finally found a way to add the schizophrenic effect! Removing the filter and making a double normal capella and a "Doom" SFX capella with Nectar Elements. This makes a sort of interesting dissonance.

05. Rainfalls (feat. GUMI)
[INSTRUMENT] Atmo pad begins before the beats
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX at the beginning of first verse
[INSTRUMENT] Changed beat pattern at second bridge

06. Do Not Leave (feat. GUMI)
[INSTRUMENT] Added Sytrus bass
[INSTRUMENT] Added roll+SFX at second verse/second chorus
[MIXDOWN] Enhanced lead volume and beats volume

07. LACRIMIA (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended first bridge
[INSTRUMENT] Added roll+SFX at the beginning and between the verses
[INSTRUMENT] Added bridge pattern between chorus 1 / verse 1
[INSTRUMENT] Modified beats pattern for verses
[MIXDOWN] Enhanced gated pad volume
[PATCH] Changed the reverb of harmonic parts that were forming a high-pitched residual sound (Anti High-Frequency)

The reverb of the verses is more lighter else a sort of high-pitched sound artefact was coming out the "high cho" capella. This is now corrected since the strong reverb was the culprit.

08. Anti-Birth (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended final bridge

This makes a totally different bridge just before the final chorus. Also, this is the song that is rated "Explicit" and that caused the album rating to be soooo high. There is a full story about it now.

09. Orchid Orchestra (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[EXTENSION] Extended end
[INSTRUMENT] Modified beats pattern at the beginning and at the end
[INSTRUMENT] Added roll+SFX at the beginning
[MIXDOWN] Wet setting of crash roll reverb enhanced

The ending was so much modified that the "marks" of the album version can be disturbing if you kept the demo ones in your memory.

10. Bitterness (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
[EXTENSION] Extended intro
[INSTRUMENT] Added arp pattern in the bridges
[INSTRUMENT] Added SFX in the last bridge
[INSTRUMENT] Arp pitch is one octave higher
[MIXDOWN] Changed Maximus remastering for arp pattern
[MIXDOWN] Remastered gated pad and pad volumes (compensation)

13. Away From Me (feat. Anna Nyui -vivid-)
[EXTENSION] Extended intro
[MIXDOWN] Right channel panning slightly attenued at the end

The attenuation didn't work that much, I did what I could, but the fact it sounded too much in the right channel is... Quite disturbing I would say?

16. Ines (feat. MAYU)
[EXTENSION] Extended end

As for the June and July albums, the full details are written on the discography page. I also need to say that the -Despair Edit- of "Master Mind" has been done last week, but you'll need to wait a little month before being able to listen to it. I let you the whole surprise! A TV version of the -Rebirth Edit- (~1min40) was also done on my side, so if you don't see the 666th work on the blog, no, it's not because the number is "satanic", it's just because the track is private!
No public airing of this short version is scheduled.

Other reminder, June 9th, a cover, still haven't decided which one I'll select... But hey, since this is for sele's birthday, I think I should keep the surprise. So you'll know if "Ref-Rain" or "Re;BIRTH" was covered... On June 9th (probably at midnight (Paris time) / 7 AM (Japan time)).
Working on "Juliana" else. Should be aired on tomorrow, at least I hope. Well, when I say "tomorrow", on May 20th.
Clue: huge impulsive trance track

I don't have any other news to say else. Enjoy well!

Nynthixia

『DALIANA』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170517-00543
LIN (full) : 「598 644 363」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170518-000667
Instrumental - sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Rebirth from Paradise - TRACK 8/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

背後にあるものを見ることができずに、錯覚で生まれた関係
突然粉々に構築された全てのものの前に、彼女は信頼できるだろうと思った
狂気に駆られて、彼女はこの絆を打破するために致命的な嘘をついた
私たちが同じ女性のために共有した感情のために罰せられた

悪夢に苦しんで、信じなかった厄介な真実をもたらした
誰かに頼ることができる壊れた天使として彼女を見ていただけだった
疑いの瞬間に、いつも友人を助ける手を開催した
それで、この小さな恥ずかしがり屋の笑顔を顔に見ることができた

背後にあるものを見ることができずに、錯覚で生まれた関係
突然粉々に構築された全てのものの前に、彼女は信頼できるだろうと思った
狂気に駆られて、彼女はこの絆を打破するために致命的な嘘をついた
私たちが同じ女性のために共有した感情のために罰せられた

時間が過ぎていて、彼女の目は自分自身をだんだん空にしているようだった
実際の怒りを隠す悲しみ、そして脇の下にある憎しみ
復讐の冷たい風に残って、起こっていたことを知らずに
最後に、私たちの両方に大きな痛みを引き起こしているものを発見する前に

あまりにも遅く背を向けた、馴染んだ顔でこのひねった表情を見る前に
「あまりにも多くの時間のうちに同じ運命を共有したよね？」
意識が暗闇の中で消え去る前に、力は私の体を離れていた
彼らはこの未来の楽園から近く、過去の影を放棄した

A relationship born in an illusion, without being able to see what is behind
I thought she would be trustable, before everything that I built shatters suddenly
Driven into madness, she used a fatal lie to break down this bond
Punished because of some feelings that we both shared for the same woman

Tormented by a nightmare, bringing a troubling truth that I didn't believe
I was only seeing her as a broken angel who could rely on someone
In the moments of doubt, I always held a hand as to help a friend
Then I could see this little shy smile on the face

A relationship born in an illusion, without being able to see what is behind
I thought she would be trustable, before everything that I built shatters suddenly
Driven into madness, she used a fatal lie to break down this bond
Punished because of some feelings that we both shared for the same woman

Time was passing by, and her eyes seemed to empty themselves more and more
Grief hiding actual rage, and the hatred that was growing aside
Left in the cold winds of revenge, without knowing what was happening
Before I finally discovered what was causing so much pain to both of us

I turned the back too late, before seeing this twisted expression on a familiar face
"We shared the same destinies during too much time, right?"
The strength was leaving my body, before the consciousness fades in the darkness
They were close from this future paradise, abandoning the past in the shadows

Une relation née d'une illusion, sans voir ce qui était derrière caché
J'ai cru que je pouvais lui faire confiance, avant qu'elle ne brise tout soudainement
Enivrée par la folie, elle a usé d'un mensonge fatal pour casser le lien nous unissant
Punie à cause de sentiments pour une même femme que nous avions aimée

Tourmentée par un cauchemar, amenant une vérité troublante que j'ai toujours ignorée
Je ne la voyais qu'en tant qu'ange cassé qui aurait besoin de quelqu'un
Dans les moments de doute, comme une amie je lui ai tendu la main
Alors je pouvais voir sur son visage ce petit sourire se former

Une relation née d'une illusion, sans voir ce qui était derrière caché
J'ai cru que je pouvais lui faire confiance, avant qu'elle ne brise tout soudainement
Enivrée par la folie, elle a usé d'un mensonge fatal pour casser le lien nous unissant
Punie à cause de sentiments pour une même femme que nous avions aimée

Le temps passait, et ses yeux semblaient de plus en plus se vider
Le chagrin cachant sa rage, et la haine qui grandissait en elle silencieusement
Délaissée dans les vents glacés de la vengeance, sans savoir ce qui allait se passer
Avant de découvrir ce qui causait cette douleur que l'on ressentait tant

Je me suis retournée trop tard, avant de voir l'expression tordue que son visage montrait
"Nous avons partagé les mêmes destinées pendant trop longtemps, pas vrai ?"
Mon corps était drainé de toute force, avant que ma conscience ne s'évanouisse dans l'obscurité
Elles étaient proches de ce futur paradis, abandonnant dans l'ombre le passé

"Juliana" may be a sister song soon for this one.
Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, pluck by Sytrus, lead by Xpand!2 with some sort of hard supersaw. This was intended to be trance at first, but it turned out to be more dance-type.
Story: I may tell it with "Juliana" when I'll make the song. But the text already gives a long, long clue about the whole thing.

『Ariana』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170514-00541
LIN (full) : 「598 641 338」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170515-000665
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Rebirth from Paradise - TRACK 2/13

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

声は同じ言葉、毎晩同じ考えを繰り返している
痛みは何度も何度も続き、同じ文章で嫌がらせをしている
もう何も感じることができず、意識を他の誰かに与えるだけです
自分の思い出がなくても、周りの他の人たちからのほんの一部

内側に燃えている憎しみと感覚に直面ている
彼はいつも犠牲にかかわらず、私を守りたがっていた
檻の中で、目の恐怖は、彼女はまだ見ていた
未来は保留中だったが、私の希望はまだ与えられていなかった

致命的な瞬間に起こったことの前で逃げることができなくても
彼女は同じ若者によって、涙と叫び声で取り去られた
彼が気にしなかった地面の血は、ゆっくりと流れ続けた
何も見たことがない場合でも、何か私を残して感じていた

声は同じ言葉、毎晩同じ考えを繰り返している
痛みは何度も何度も続き、同じ文章で嫌がらせをしている
もう何も感じることができず、意識を他の誰かに与えるだけです
自分の思い出がなくても、周りの他の人たちからのほんの一部

この瞬間から全てが壊れている、空虚が残っている
彼がしたことは許されない、彼女は彼の犯罪を罰することができなかった
この恐ろしい男からの可能な復讐を恐れている
彼女は彼女の悲しみを隠して、他のことを言っていないと批判した

彼女は外出することができない場所から沈黙の刑務所で苦しんで
どちらも悲しみに罪を犯し、激怒はゆっくりとしている
それから彼の声は、いつも同じ言葉を繰り返して私に電話した
「もし彼が殺されたら、自由になり、あなたの運命を見つけるでしょう」

幸福でいっぱい、私たち全員に新たな自由を提供している
握手を感じている、彼女の全身で恐怖が響きている
彼女の目から隠された、鮮血は裏切り者の精神の中から噴出して
しかし、まだあなたについて考えを止めることができず、毎日祈ります

The voice keeps repeating the same words, the same thoughts every night and day
The pain is continuing again and again, harassed by the same sentences
I can't feel anything anymore, giving the consciousness only to someone else
Without any memories of myself, just some from the other people around

Facing to the hatred and this sensation that is burning inside
He always wanted to protect me, regardless the sacrifices
Inside the cage, the terror in the eyes, she was still watching
The future was pending, but my wish wasn't granted yet

Without being able to escape in front of what happened at a fatal moment
She was taken away, with the tears and the screams, by the same young man
The blood on the ground that he didn't care continued to slowly flow
Even if I haven't seen anything, I was feeling as something leaving me

The voice keeps repeating the same words, the same thoughts every night and day
The pain is continuing again and again, harassed by the same sentences
I can't feel anything anymore, giving the consciousness only to someone else
Without any memories of myself, just some from the other people around

Everything has been broken since this moment, emptiness was the only thing remaining
What he has done was unforgivable, and she couldn't punish his crimes
Too afraid about a possible revenge from this hideous man
She rathered hiding her sadness and not daring saying anything else

Tormented in a prison of silence from where she can't go out
Both condemned to the grief, the rage is building within slowly
Then his voice called me again repeating always the same words
"If he gets killed, I'll be free and you will find your fate"

Filled with happiness again, offering a new freedom to all of us
I feel the shaking hands, the fear resonating in her whole body
Hidden from her eyes, the fresh blood is gushing out of the traitor spirit
But I still can't stop thinking about you and will pray everyday

La voix continue de répéter les mêmes mots, jour et nuit les mêmes pensées
La douleur continue encore et encore, les mêmes phrases ne cessaient de harceler
Je ne peux plus rien sentir, donnant ma conscience à une autre moi
Sans souvenirs de moi-même, juste d'autres autour de moi

Face à la haine et à cette sensation qui brûle en moi
Il a toujours voulu me protéger, malgré les sacrifices à effectuer
Dans la cage, la terreur dans les yeux, elle regardait devant soi
Le futur attendait, mais mon souhait ne s'était pas encore réalisé

Sans pouvoir s'échapper devant de ce qui est arrivé à ce fatidique moment
Ce même jeune homme, avec les larmes et les cris, l'a emmenée
Le sang sur le sang dont il se fichait continuait de couler doucement
Même si je n'avais rien vu, j'ai senti quelque chose me quitter

La voix continue de répéter les mêmes mots, jour et nuit les mêmes pensées
La douleur continue encore et encore, les mêmes phrases ne cessaient de harceler
Je ne peux plus rien sentir, donnant ma conscience à une autre moi
Sans souvenirs de moi-même, juste d'autres autour de moi

Tout a été cassé depuis un bon moment, le vide était la seule chose qui restait
Ce qu'il avait fait était impardonnable, et elle ne pouvait le punir pour ce qu'il avait fait
Trop peur d'une possible vengeance de la part de cet homme hideux
Elle a préféré cacher sa tristesse et ne plus laisser parler que ses yeux

Tourmentée dans une prison de silence d'où elle ne peut s'en aller
Toutes les deux condamnées au chagrin, la rage se construit en nous doucement
Alors sa voix m'a appelée et les mêmes mots se répétaient
"S'il se fait tuer, je serai libre et tu trouveras ton destin finalement"

Remplie à nouveau de bonheur, offrant une nouvelle liberté à chacun d'entre nous
Je sens ses mains trembler, la peur dans tout son corps résonner
Caché de ses yeux, le sang frais jaillissant du corps du traître qu'il a été pour nous
Mais je ne peux m'empêcher de penser à toi et tous les jours je continuerai de prier

About the instru itself, it was first intended to be the one for the song "Semira" (song that was intended for Momo Momone) but because of the 1/16 sequence, I had no choice but to set this to another singer that has a better sensibility and the best one in the current "to-do" list was... Yukari. Not the best one of all the VBs I have because short notes problems, but from the 4 ones I had on the list, she had the less problems to correctly sing a 1/16 phoneme.
Also, normally it should be aired since yesterday evening but got some problems.
Music: sequence (only verses) and arp pad by Toxic Biohazard, sequence pad (all the rest of the song) with a Kontakt 5 instrument (no need to search that far away) and lead by Xpand!2.
Story: I think I should write a full one because this is very complicated. The heroine (Ariana) had a brother, who really loved her (I need to precize this is "normal family love") and who was ready to do anything to make her happy... Even if it includes killing someone. Sadly, he got beaten by the rival and finally died. Not only by doing this he got the heroine's lover totally scared of him, and also psychologically broke the heroine down who wants to kill him not only because he has her lover, but also because he killed her brother... And then, maybe a happy ending? The lover discovered that the man who kept her "captive" has been murdered (by the heroine of course but she doesn't know it and she will never) before being gotten back by Ariana.

『Master Mind -Rebirth Edit-』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170510-00529
LIN (full) : 「598 635 607」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170510-000653
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Rebirth from Paradise - TRACK 1/13

Rating : Questionnable - Q
Not recommended for people under... : 10
Reason : confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

現在の世界が崩壊したとき...
誰が後ろに再び建てることができる？
あなたの目が閉じているとき...
誰が傷ついた記憶の遺跡に落ちた？

いつもあなたのそばにいたいと思っていました
絶望的な外観の前に最高のことを望む
少しでも希望がある限り、まだあきらめないで
そして、誰も実際に制御を持っていない...

彼らが邪悪な手で操作されたとき...
呪いの背後にある犯人は誰ですの？
希望が失われたように見えるとき...
誰が世界の未来のために戦っていたの？

いつもあなたのそばにいたいと思っていました
絶望的な外観の前に最高のことを望む
少しでも希望がある限り、まだあきらめないで
そして、誰も実際に制御を持っていない...

邪悪な思考がそれらを侵したとき...
殺人犯の絶望によって支配される
大惨事の責任は誰でしたの？
これらの家族の誰も知らないという答え

いつもあなたのそばにいたいと思っていました
絶望的な外観の前に最高のことを望む
少しでも希望がある限り、まだあきらめないで
そして、誰も実際に制御を持っていない...

When the present world collapsed...
Who can build again behind?
When your eyes are closing...
Who fell into the ruins of damaged memories?

I always wanted to be by your side
Wishing for the best before the despairful appearance
Don't give up yet, as long there is some hope
Then nobody has really the control...

When they were being manipulated by evil hands...
Who were the culprits behind the curse?
When hope seemed to be lost...
Who was fighting for the future of the world?

I always wanted to be by your side
Wishing for the best before the despairful appearance
Don't give up yet, as long there is some hope
Then nobody has really the control...

When evil thoughts invaded them...
Controlled by a murderer despair
Who was the responsible for the catastrophe?
An answer that nobody in these families will know

I always wanted to be by your side
Wishing for the best before the despairful appearance
Don't give up yet, as long there is some hope
Then nobody has really the control...

Quand le monde présent s'est effondré...
Qui pourra reconstruire ce qui a été cassé ?
Quand tes yeux se sont fermés...
Qui est tombé dans les ruines de mémoires endommagées ?

J'ai toujours voulu être à tes côtés
Souhaitant le meilleur avant l'apparition du désespoir
N'abandonne pas encore, tant qu'il reste de l'espoir
Alors personne ne peut rien contrôler...

Quand les méchantes mains les manipulaient...
Qui étaient les coupables derrière cette malédiction ?
Quand l'espoir semblait être hors de portée...
Qui combattait pour le futur de ce monde ?

J'ai toujours voulu être à tes côtés
Souhaitant le meilleur avant l'apparition du désespoir
N'abandonne pas encore, tant qu'il reste de l'espoir
Alors personne ne peut rien contrôler...

Quand elles ont été envahies par de cruelles pensées...
Contrôlées par un désespoir meurtrier
Cette catastrophe, qui l'a causée dans ce cas ?
Une réponse que personne dans ces familles ne connaîtra...

J'ai toujours voulu être à tes côtés
Souhaitant le meilleur avant l'apparition du désespoir
N'abandonne pas encore, tant qu'il reste de l'espoir
Alors personne ne peut rien contrôler...

File for story unavailable.
If I don't consider the last mix of the song "Lamia" and the mix of "ELYSIUM" with Meiji, yes indeed this is the longest original work I made (6;42!). And the way of working was very different, more OST-type and closer to the normal Japanese songs (that you hear for Japanese animes by the way). Finally, mixing up some trance and a bit of pop elements. Really, I can't really set this song into a music genre.
There will be another edit, the -Despair Edit- one, with Lily and Ritsu, but it will be album exclusive. I'll try to make it less longer than the -Rebirth Edit-, promised! (laughs)
Music: the gated pad and the pad with Toxic Biohazard, strings with Xpand!2, hard kick with Sytrus, crystal lead with Kontakt 5 (Kinetic Treats), choirs with the DSK plugin, other lead with Harmor (that is pretty slight).
Also, piapro upload cancelled due to the fact it may be considered as an OST.

『Your Fault』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170508-00528
LIN (full) : 「598 634 890」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170509-000652
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 12/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

ろうそくは、両側から愛と憎しみの間に裂けて燃えている
この感情はとても痛い、お互いに向かう意思決定に立ち往生している
ちょうどあなたを抱きしめたい、私に恋しかったこの暖かさを感じて
この痛みにうんざりしている、ちょうど平和な生活を望んでいた...

時間とともに腐敗した精神として、どこに行くのか知らずに歩いていた
障害についてしか認識していなかった、何も重要ではなかった
ほとんど何も見えない、暗い雲が私の考えを侵していた
この運命を崩壊させる悲惨な気持ちを背後に残す

ろうそくは、両側から愛と憎しみの間に裂けて燃えている
この感情はとても痛い、お互いに向かう意思決定に立ち往生している
ちょうどあなたを抱きしめたい、私に恋しかったこの暖かさを感じて
この痛みにうんざりしている、ちょうど平和な生活を望んでいた...

あなたの顔にこの笑顔を見ていて、とても身近な感じでした
これらの手があなたを私から遠ざけるのを見る前に、幸せに感じた
叫ぶことなく、あなたはこの瞬間に私を忘れてしまった
それ以来、痛みが始まり、絶望の中で私の精神が破壊された

最終的にあなたを受け入れることができる瞬間、全てが破壊された
鮮血は地面に流れて、寒さになる前に暖かさを与えて
私の思考は直面した悲しい真実を見て、ゆっくりと再構成された
もうこの運命を消すことができず、暗闇の中で泣くと非難された...

La la la...

A candle is burning, from both sides, torn between love and hatred
This feeling hurts so much, I'm stuck with decisions going against each other
I just wanted to embrace you, feel this warmth that was missing to me
I'm tired of this pain, I just desired to have a peaceful life...

As a spirit corrupted with the time, I was walking without knowing where to go
I was only being aware about an obstacle, nothing else was important
I can't barely see a thing, dark clouds had invaded my thoughts
Leaving behind a bitter feeling shattering this fate into parts

A candle is burning, from both sides, torn between love and hatred
This feeling hurts so much, I'm stuck with decisions going against each other
I just wanted to embrace you, feel this warmth that was missing to me
I'm tired of this pain, I just desired to have a peaceful life...

I was seeing this smile on your face that felt very familiar
I was feeling happy, before seeing these hands taking you away from me
Without even screaming, you just forgot me at this moment
Since then the pain began, breaking down my spirit in the despair

At the moment I could finally embrace you, everything was destroying itself
Fresh blood flowing to the ground, giving its warmth before becoming cold again
My thoughts were slowly reassembling, seeing the sad truth that I was facing
I know that I can't erase this fate anymore, condemned to cry in the darkness...

La la la...

Déchirée entre l'amour et la haine, une bougie brûle des deux côtés
Ce sentiment est tellement pénible, coincée avec décisions qui se contredisent sans arrêt
Je voulais juste t'embrasser, sentir cette chaleur qui me manquait
Je suis fatiguée de cette douleur, je souhaitais juste avoir une vie remplie de paix...

Comme un esprit corrompu avec le temps, je marchais sans trop savoir où aller
Je n'étais au courant que d'un obstacle, plus rien d'autre ne m'importait
Je ne pouvais presque rien voir, les sombres nuages ont envahi mes pensées
Laissant derrière cet amer sentiment briser ce destin en morceaux éparpillés

Déchirée entre l'amour et la haine, une bougie brûle des deux côtés
Ce sentiment est tellement pénible, coincée avec décisions qui se contredisent sans arrêt
Je voulais juste t'embrasser, sentir cette chaleur qui me manquait
Je suis fatiguée de cette douleur, je souhaitais juste avoir une vie remplie de paix...

Je voyais ce sourire sur ton visage qui me semblait si familier
J'étais alors heureuse, avant de voir ces mains t'emmener loin de moi
Sans même hurler, à ce moment tu m'as juste oubliée
Depuis la douleur a commencé, brisant dans le désespoir l'esprit qu'il restait en moi

À ce moment où je pouvais enfin t'embrasser, tout commençait à se fissurer
Le sang frais coulant sur le sol, offrant sa chaleur avant de se refroidir peu après
Mes pensées se rassemblaient doucement, voyant la triste vérité à laquelle je devais me confronter
Je sais que je ne pourrai plus effacer ce destin, condamnée dans les ténèbres à pleurer...

La la la...

Last demo of "Running and Ailing".
The date was actually scheduled to match Saccu's birthday (the voice provider of Meiji).
Music: pad and pluck by Toxic Biohzard, bridge with Autogun, lead with Harmor, and there is Slayer. And now that I learnt (finally!) how to do the automation clips without doing it manually by registering, you may see some of these more often! (There is one with the cutoff of the pluck at the beginning)

『Do Not Leave』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170507-00527
LIN (full) : 「598 634 062」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170508-000651
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 6/16

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

 

債券が強くなる前の最初の友人である
これが途中で何の障害もなく永遠にあると信じていた
何かが起こっているならば、いつもあなたを守ると約束した
この世界の消滅まで、天国の反対側に到達するまで

行かないで    これらの質問は答えなし
行かないで    これらの感情は隠されて
控えることなく、互いに信頼できることを知っている

行かないで    この愛は砕け散った
行かないで    絶望は精霊に侵入する
あなたを一人のままにしたかったことがないので、あなたは逃げない

あなたの顔が無限に見えるのを見たとき、思考で失われた
あなたがその状況をあきらめ、全てを後ろに残したがっているかのように
悲しみと戦うためにどのように、あなたを助けるためにどのように知らなった
しかし、我々は困難に対抗しなければならない

行かないで    これらの質問は答えなし
行かないで    これらの感情は隠されて
控えることなく、互いに信頼できることを知っている

行かないで    この愛は砕け散った
行かないで    絶望は精霊に侵入する
あなたを一人のままにしたかったことがないので、あなたは逃げない

行かないで    これらの質問は答えなし
行かないで    これらの感情は隠されて
控えることなく、互いに信頼できることを知っている

行かないで    この愛は砕け散った
行かないで    絶望は精霊に侵入する
あなたを一人のままにしたかったことがないので、あなたは逃げない

Just being friends at the beginning before the bonds went stronger
I believed this would maybe be forever, without any possible obstacle on the way
I always promised that I would protect you if anything was happening
Until the disappearance of this world, until reaching the other side of the heaven

Do not leave
These questions without answer
Do not leave
These feelings being hidden
Knowing that we could trust each other, without refraining

Do not leave
This love shattered into pieces
Do not leave
The despair invade the spirits
I never wanted to leave you alone, so you won't get away

When I saw your face looking in the nothingness, lost in thoughts
As if you wanted to give up on the situation and leaving everything behind
I didn't know how to help you, how to fight against the grief
But we have to stand together against the difficulties

Do not leave
These questions without answer
Do not leave
These feelings being hidden
Knowing that we could trust each other, without refraining

Do not leave
This love shattered into pieces
Do not leave
The despair invade the spirits
I never wanted to leave you alone, so you won't get away

Do not leave
These questions without answer
Do not leave
These feelings being hidden
Knowing that we could trust each other, without refraining

Do not leave
This love shattered into pieces
Do not leave
The despair invade the spirits
I never wanted to leave you alone, so you won't get away

N'être d'abord qu'amies avant que nos liens ne se soient renforcés
J'ai pensé que cela durerait à jamais, sans aucun obstacle que l'on puisse rencontrer
J'ai toujours promis de te protéger si quoi que ce soit venait à arriver
Jusqu'à la chute de ce monde, jusqu'à atteindre le ciel à l'autre côté

Ne laisse pas
Ces questions sans réponse
Ne laisse pas
Ces sentiments rester cachés
Sachant qu'on peut se faire confiance, sans se retenir

Ne laisse pas
Cet amour cassé en pièces
Ne laisse pas
Le désespoir envahir nos pensées
Je n'ai jamais voulu te laisser seule, tu ne voudras pas partir

Lorsque j'ai vu ton visage regarder dans le néant, perdu dans ses pensées
Comme si tu voulais tout laisser derrière moi, tout laisser tomber
Je ne savais pas comment combattre le chagrin, ni même comment t'aider
Mais je sais que l'on doit encore se maintenir pour faire face aux difficultés

Ne laisse pas
Ces questions sans réponse
Ne laisse pas
Ces sentiments rester cachés
Sachant qu'on peut se faire confiance, sans se retenir

Ne laisse pas
Cet amour cassé en pièces
Ne laisse pas
Le désespoir envahir nos pensées
Je n'ai jamais voulu te laisser seule, tu ne voudras pas partir

Ne laisse pas
Ces questions sans réponse
Ne laisse pas
Ces sentiments rester cachés
Sachant qu'on peut se faire confiance, sans se retenir

Ne laisse pas
Cet amour cassé en pièces
Ne laisse pas
Le désespoir envahir nos pensées
Je n'ai jamais voulu te laisser seule, tu ne voudras pas partir

No compatibility patch for FL versions anterior to 12.4.2 b33.
Music: pop style, pads by PoiZone, lead by Morphine, pluck by Transistor Bass. This is quite similar to the instru of "Erased" in its construction (lyrics and instru), but with way more dynamics and at a few higher tempo.

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Happy birthday to MAYU (yeah, third time I'm saying that on the blog)! I have some news about the lost data due to the incident and I have not one, but two tracklists done!

85% of the data is recovered (as on yesterday). If this moves at this pace, since there are still 15% data that are only stuck on the damaged hard drive and that you need 2 weeks to get 5%... Yeah, not before mid or end June. Sorry for saying it will come later and later, but this is not something on which I really have the control. However the good news is that nothing in the production anymore is altered. The last altered thing was the album "Night Angels".

Else, the two tracklists. I said on Twitter it was a nightmare to do because I have to consider the many birthdays of many VOCALOIDs and UTAUloids (Tei, GUMI, Itako) or even some voice providers birthdays (Sayu's).

So some songs had to be scheduled. And thanks to the calculations, I noticed that I had to write two tracklists in advance instead of just one. So these are the 2 next tracklists. I don't give the album title of the first one because I don't know if I'll modify it. Their air dates will be on June 17th and July 15th.
Like this I won't be bothered with the big fatigue of the Japan Expo on July...

CD14 - (title to confirm) Rebirth from Paradise - Air date: June 17th

01. Master Mind -Rebirth Edit- (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
02. Ariana (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
03. Illogical (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
04. When They Call (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
05. ADANTHE (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
06. Sleeping Paradise (feat. Hinomoto Oniko)
07. Juliana (feat. Yurika Sayu)
08. DALIANA (feat. Yurika Sayu)
09. Count and Draw (feat. Yurika Sayu)-> June 7th
10. Bad Reasons (feat. Momone Momo)
11. Three Minutes (feat. Momone Momo)
12. Semira (feat. Momone Momo) -> May 22nd (May 23rd)
13. Master Mind -Despair Edit- (feat. Lily, Namine Ritsu) [BONUS EXCLU] -> you'll never see this one on the blog

CD14.5 - Never Tell Them - Air date: July 15th

01. Can't Trust (feat. GUMI) -> June 26th
02. Pretending (feat. Sukone Tei) -> June 19th
03. LISANA (feat. Tohoku Itako) -> June 23th
04. Never Tell Them (feat. Tohoku Itako) -> June 24th
05. Deadly Candle (feat. Tohoku Itako)
06. ROSAPINA (feat. Namine Ritsu)
07. Fragment (feat. kokone)
08. Hypocrite (feat. Yurika Sayu)
09. NITRINIUM (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
10. Murdering Passions (feat. Lily)
11. Encounter (feat. Tohoku Zunko)
12. Red Raspberry (feat. Tohoku Kiritan)
13. Better than Nothing (feat. Tohoku Zunko, Yuzuki Yukari)

I'll confirm you soon about the title of June's album.

Other dates to retain:

May 8th: "Do Not Leave" (GUMI)
May 10th: "Your Fault" (Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
May 13th: cover of "Kill me, Queen" (Lily, Tmbox only)
May 20th: album "Running and Ailing"
June 9th: cover of "Re;BIRTH" or "Ref-Rain" (Yuzuki Yukari, Tmbox only)

The work pace will be the medium one, between 3 and 6 songs per week and it will be like this on May 8th and the following weeks until August. I think mini 4 per week for the month of May, and after... Wait and see?

I'll try my best to organize myself!

Nynthixia

Edit of May 23rd

『Ines』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170503-00526
LIN (full) : 「598 631 310」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170505-000650
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 16/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

Japanese lyrics

あなたは私の運命を盗んだ、後悔を感じなくても
いつも彼を救うことができずに苦しんでいるのを見ていた
私の中で憎しみが増していたので、失ったものを取り戻したいと思っていた
あなたがこれらの考えを止めようとしても、もはや何も重要ではない

まだ夜のうちにこの声を聞いて、私の名前を呼んでいる
彼がもうあなたのために存在しないとしても、何も忘れることができない
過度の嫉妬を除いて、あなたの正確な感情は何かを理解しないでした
激しい悲しみで、破壊された幸福を期待することはできない

あなたは私の運命を盗んだ、後悔を感じなくても
いつも彼を救うことができずに苦しんでいるのを見ていた
私の中で憎しみが増していたので、失ったものを取り戻したいと思っていた
あなたがこれらの考えを止めようとしても、もはや何も重要ではない

この決定から私を控えることは役に立たず、結果は重要ではない
彼がどこかで私を待っていることを知っている、再び彼に会うでしょう
多分別の世界で私は彼を守らなかったことで許されるでしょう
憎しみは私の心を残して、私は再び幸せを見つけるでしょう

You stole my fate, without even feeling a regret
I was seeing him suffering every time, without being able to save him
Hatred was growing inside of me, I wanted to get back what I lost
Even if you would try to stop these thoughts, nothing is important anymore

I still hear this voice talking during the night, calling for my name
Even if he doesn't exist for you anymore, I can't forget anything
I never understood what were your exact emotions, except for an excessive jealousy
With an intense grief, I can't expect the happiness that was destroyed

You stole my fate, without even feeling a regret
I was seeing him suffering every time, without being able to save him
Hatred was growing inside of me, I wanted to get back what I lost
Even if you would try to stop these thoughts, nothing is important anymore

Refraining me from this decision is useless, consequences don't matter
I know he is waiting for me somewhere, I'll meet him again
Maybe in another world I will be forgiven for not having protected him
The hatred will leave my heart and I'll find again some happiness

Tu m'as volé mon destin, sans même ressentir le moindre regret
Je le voyais souffrir tout le temps, sans être capable de le sauver
La haine grandissait en moi, je voulais récupérer ce que j'avais perdu
Même si tu pensais arrêter ces pensées, l'importance des choses pour moi n'est plus

J'entends encore cette voix me parler la nuit, en train de m'appeler
Même si pour toi il n'existe plus, je ne peux rien oublier
Je n'ai jamais compris quelles étaient tes vraies émotions, hormis cette jalousie qui t'excédait
Avec un intense chagrin, je ne peux atteindre le bonheur que je souhaitais

Tu m'as volé mon destin, sans même ressentir le moindre regret
Je le voyais souffrir tout le temps, sans être capable de le sauver
La haine grandissait en moi, je voulais récupérer ce que j'avais perdu
Même si tu pensais arrêter ces pensées, l'importance des choses pour moi n'est plus

Me retenir de cette décision est inutile, peu importe les conséquences
Je sais qu'il m'attend quelque part, j'irai à ses côtés
Peut-être que dans un autre monde je serai pardonnée pour ne pas avoir pu le protéger
La haine quittera mon cœur et je pourrai retrouver le bonheur en silence

Sister song of "Elvira", point of view from the girl being stalked.
For the story, this is the same as the sister song, so go there!
Music: Except for the slight voice pad that was made with Sytrus, all other synths are made with Toxic Biohazard. However, this instru is actually a second version. I made a previous one the same day as the one I made the instru of "Elvira" (May 2nd) but the synths I used for the sequences sounded too filtered so I changed them and I had to change the synth of the lead because it sounded weird if I kept the same. So you have a bit better song than the "beta", but this is still not the best one I made with MAYU...
But happy birthday to our little yandere VOCALOID!

『Elvira』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170502-00525
LIN (full) : 「598 631 309」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170505-000649
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 15/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

Japanese lyrics

絶望を打ち破って、私の前に立っている錯覚を粉砕でしょう
あなたの影の背後に、ゆっくりと幸せな未来に向かって歩いている
これらの白い手はあなたに向かって保持され、まだ待っている
なぜあなたは自分自身を想像した人を愛することをやっているの？

胸の深い痛み、彼が感じることができる唯一のもの
意識は消え始めた、覚えておく時間を持たずに全てを残した
あなたはいつもそれが錯覚だと思ったが、この赤い夢が現実となりました
私たちはまだ地獄の悪夢の後で人生の風を感じる唯一の女性でした

絶望を打ち破って、私の前に立っている錯覚を粉砕でしょう
あなたの影の背後に、ゆっくりと幸せな未来に向かって歩いている
これらの白い手はあなたに向かって保持され、まだ待っている
なぜあなたは自分自身を想像した人を愛することをやっているの？

あなたの考えはもうどこに行くのかを知らずにさまよっていた
現実から切り離された、ただ彼を見ているだけで私は見えない
この忌まわしい精神はあなたを悩ませた、私たちを傷つけた
血が流れる見ているまで、痛みを伴う叫び声が口から出るまで

崩壊していた、地面が強烈な絶望で破壊されているのを見た
鮮血があなたから流れ出して、あなたの精神はすでに消え去っていた
この最後の瞬間まで私が知らなかった世界に既に参加している
終わることができる唯一の約束は、私たちが再び結束することです...

I will break the despair and shatter the illusion standing in front of me
Behind your shadows, I'm slowly walking towards a happy future
These white hands being held towards you, are still waiting
Why still pretending to love a person that you imagined yourself?

A deep pain aching in the chest, the only thing that he could feel
The consciousness began to fade, leaving everything behind without having the time to remember
You always thought it was an illusion, but this red dream became the reality
We were the only women to still feel the wind of the life after a hellish nightmare

I will break the despair and shatter the illusion standing in front of me
Behind your shadows, I'm slowly walking towards a happy future
These white hands being held towards you, are still waiting
Why still pretending to love a person that you imagined yourself?

Your thoughts were wandering, without knowing where to go anymore
Disconnected from the reality, just seeing him and not me
This vengeful spirit was haunting you, hurting both of us
Until seeing the blood flowing, until hearing the painful screams out of the mouth

I collapsed, seeing the ground being destroyed in an intense despair
Fresh blood was pouring from you, your spirit already faded away
Already joining a world that I never knew until this last moments
The only promise that can be done is that we'll be united again...

Je briserai le désespoir et détruirai l'illusion devant moi
Derrière vos ombres, je marche doucement vers un futur empli de gaieté
Ces mains blanches t'attendent, tendues vers toi
Pourquoi continuer de prétendre d'aimer une personne que tu t'es imaginée ?

Une forte douleur dans la poitrine, c'est la seule chose qu'il a ressentie
Sa conscience a commencé à faner, laissant tout derrière sans se rappeler
Tu as toujours pensé que ce n'était qu'une illusion, mais ce rêve pourpre est réalité
Nous étions les seules femmes à sentir le vent après ce cauchemar de la vie

Je briserai le désespoir et détruirai l'illusion devant moi
Derrière vos ombres, je marche doucement vers un futur empli de gaieté
Ces mains blanches t'attendent, tendues vers toi
Pourquoi continuer de prétendre d'aimer une personne que tu t'es imaginée ?

Tes pensées se baladent, sans plus savoir où aller
Déconnectée de la réalité, le voyant lui et pas moi
Cet esprit vengeur te hantait, pour toutes deux nous blesser
Jusqu'à voir le sang couler, jusqu'à entendre les cris pénibles venant de toi

Je me suis effondrée, voyant le sol que l'intense désespoir avait détruit
Le sang frais coulait de ton corps, ton esprit s'était déjà évanoui
Rejoignant déjà un monde que je n'aurais jamais connu jusqu'à ces derniers moments
La seule promesse que je peux te faire est que nous serons de nouveau unies éternellement...

Sister song of "Ines", point of view from the stalker.
Since this is the first song, I'll resume the whole story here for both stories.
Story: Elvira fell in love with Ines and continued to follow her, until she discovered that Ines was dating a young man. She then killed him in front of the eyes of Ines, who felt totally powerless. Since then, Ines continues to see and to hear her lover's voice and ignores Elvira, disconnected from the reality and beginning to have illusions. One day, Ines finally suicides in her madness and Elvira then does the same in despair.
Music: Here, 100% Toxic Biohazard for all the synths, sequence pads... All! For a quality... Between normal and very good. (Don't wonder I'm so severe with myself)
And finally... Happy birthday MAYU!!! <3