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Running and Ailing

Posted on April 19 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Tragedy

『Running and Ailing』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX, iZotope DDLY Dynamic Delay
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170417-00508
LIN (full) : 「598 615 383」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170419-000629
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 4/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

憎しみの感情を静めるために、いくつかの愛を検索している
彼らが聞いている声を黙らせ、幸福を願う
慈悲もなく、後悔もなく、意識の目が空いている
時間の感覚を失った負傷した精神だけが残っている

彼女が苦しんでいる傷や傷は、自分の狂気に追いやられる
彼女の道に入ることを試みる人は、地面に戻った
影の後ろの目で読むことができる狂気の感情
この愛を溺死させた絶望の中で、彼女はまだ病気で走っている

彼女の笑顔を見て、心の中で強い共鳴を作り出していた
管理を失うという最も深刻な恐怖に対して戦おうとしている間
怒りと人生への障害を取り除く決意をもって
女の子は再び叫んで、必死に助けを求めている

彼女が苦しんでいる傷や傷は、自分の狂気に追いやられる
彼女の道に入ることを試みる人は、地面に戻った
影の後ろの目で読むことができる狂気の感情
この愛を溺死させた絶望の中で、彼女はまだ病気で走っている

悲しみは再びお会いするために、任意の希望もなく私の心を壊した
花びらが落ちる前に、あなたが保っていた花を守ろうとした
暗闇の中で完全に崩壊する前に、この痛みを取り除きたいと思った
風が私の想いを燃やして、激しい怒りの炎になった

翼がなければ、あなたが隠れている空に加わることができない
もう罪悪感を感じたくはない、本当にこれを感じる必要はない
この白い肌は赤い鮮血が静脈から流出して染色された
彼らは私を控えたいが、誰かがこの失われた意識を導くでしょう

彼女が苦しんでいる傷や傷は、自分の狂気に追いやられる
彼女の道に入ることを試みる人は、地面に戻った
影の後ろの目で読むことができる狂気の感情
この愛を溺死させた絶望の中で、彼女はまだ病気で走っている

悲しみは再びお会いするために、任意の希望もなく私の心を壊した
花びらが落ちる前に、あなたが保っていた花を守ろうとした
暗闇の中で完全に崩壊する前に、この痛みを取り除きたいと思った
風が私の想いを燃やして、激しい怒りの炎になった

翼がなければ、あなたが隠れている空に加わることができない
もう罪悪感を感じたくはない、本当にこれを感じる必要はない
この白い肌は赤い鮮血が静脈から流出して染色された
彼らは私を控えたいが、誰かがこの失われた意識を導くでしょう

Original English text

Searching for few love to calm down their feelings of hatred
To silence the voices that they are hearing, to hope for happiness
Without any mercy, without any regrets, eyes empty of consciousness
Only a wounded spirit that has lost the sense of the time is remaining

The scars and wounds that she is suffering from, driven to her own madness
The persons trying to get in her way returned back into the ground
The feeling of insanity that can be read in the eyes, behind the shadow
In the despair that drowned this love, she is still sick and running

Looking at her smile was creating a strong resonance in the heart
While trying to fight against the most deep fears of losing the control
With the fury and the determination to get rid of the obstacles to the life
The girl is screaming again, desperately asking for help

The scars and wounds that she is suffering from, driven to her own madness
The persons trying to get in her way returned back into the ground
The feeling of insanity that can be read in the eyes, behind the shadow
In the despair that drowned this love, she is still sick and running

Grief broke my heart, without any hope to see you again
I tried to protect the flower you were keeping, before the petals fell
I wanted to get rid of this pain, before completely collapsing in the darkness
Wind is burning my thoughts, became an intense flame of rage

Without wings, I won't be able to join the sky where you are hiding
I don't want to feel guilty anymore, I don't really have to feel this
This white skin stained with the red fresh blood flowing out of the veins
They want to refrain me, but someone else will guide this lost consciousness

The scars and wounds that she is suffering from, driven to her own madness
The persons trying to get in her way returned back into the ground
The feeling of insanity that can be read in the eyes, behind the shadow
In the despair that drowned this love, she is still sick and running

Grief broke my heart, without any hope to see you again
I tried to protect the flower you were keeping, before the petals fell
I wanted to get rid of this pain, before completely collapsing in the darkness
Wind is burning my thoughts, became an intense flame of rage

Without wings, I won't be able to join the sky where you are hiding
I don't want to feel guilty anymore, I don't really have to feel this
This white skin stained with the red fresh blood flowing out of the veins
They want to refrain me, but someone else will guide this lost consciousness

And French adaptation!

Cherchant un peu d'amour pour calmer ses haineux sentiments
Pour faire taire les voix qu'ils entendent, espérer le bonheur
Les yeux vidés de conscience, sans regrets, sans cœur
Ne demeure plus que seul un esprit blessé qui a perdu le sens du temps

Les cicatrices et les blessures qui l'ont conduite à sa propre folie, dont elle a souffert
Les personnes qui tentent de se mettre en travers de sa route retournant en poussière
Dans ses yeux derrière une ombre, ce sentiment de folie peut se lire
Dans le désespoir ayant noyé cet amour, encore malade et continuant de courir

Regarder son sourire créait une forte résonance dans son cœur
Afin de ne pas perdre le contrôle, elle se bat contre ses plus intenses peurs
Avec la furie et la détermination de se débarrasser des obstacles à sa vie
La fille demande désespérément de l'aide incessamment crie

Les cicatrices et les blessures qui l'ont conduite à sa propre folie, dont elle a souffert
Les personnes qui tentent de se mettre en travers de sa route retournant en poussière
Dans ses yeux derrière une ombre, ce sentiment de folie peut se lire
Dans le désespoir ayant noyé cet amour, encore malade et continuant de courir

Le chagrin a brisé mon cœur, te revoir m'est désormais hors de portée
J'ai tenté de protéger la fleur que tu tenais, avant que les pétales ne soient tombés
Je voulais me débarrasser de cette douleur, avant de complétement m'effondrer dans l'obscurité
Le vent s'enflamme en rage, brûlant mes pensées

Sans ailes, je ne pourrai plus rejoindre le ciel où tu te cachais
Je ne veux plus ressentir cette culpabilité, je n'ai plus à sentir cette peine
Cette peau blanche tâchée par le sang frais rouge coulant de mes veines
Ils veulent me retenir, mais quelqu'un d'autre guidera cette conscience égarée

Les cicatrices et les blessures qui l'ont conduite à sa propre folie, dont elle a souffert
Les personnes qui tentent de se mettre en travers de sa route retournant en poussière
Dans ses yeux derrière une ombre, ce sentiment de folie peut se lire
Dans le désespoir ayant noyé cet amour, encore malade et continuant de courir

Le chagrin a brisé mon cœur, te revoir m'est désormais hors de portée
J'ai tenté de protéger la fleur que tu tenais, avant que les pétales ne soient tombés
Je voulais me débarrasser de cette douleur, avant de complétement m'effondrer dans l'obscurité
Le vent s'enflamme en rage, brûlant mes pensées

Sans ailes, je ne pourrai plus rejoindre le ciel où tu te cachais
Je ne veux plus ressentir cette culpabilité, je n'ai plus à sentir cette peine
Cette peau blanche tâchée par le sang frais rouge coulant de mes veines
Ils veulent me retenir, mais quelqu'un d'autre guidera cette conscience égarée

Explanations...

Because we all agree that yanderes are really ill people in their heads, right? You know it.
I first intended to make the fast bridge one octave lower to give a sort of schizophrenic effect, but IA doesn't sing very well on these notes so... But at least, you know this detail now! (And yes if you really want to know, people with this disorder can have a monotone talking and disorganized thoughts (it's not just a story of split personnality or hallucinating))
Who is who? A bit difficult because there are several point of views. The fast parts are from the point of view of the yandere herself, for sure. But the others... Maybe some witnesses.
And don't even try singing (at least in Japanese) the fast parts, I don't think this is humanly possible...
Music: continuous pluck by Harmless, simple supersaw pluck by Xpand!2... All the rest is Harmor. I don't know how to qualify this electro to be honest... This is so unclassifiable!

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Killing Shadows

Posted on April 14 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Psychological, Tragedy

『Killing Shadows』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170413-00507
LIN (full) : 「598 609 994」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170414-000627
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 2/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : suicide
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

闇の中に投獄され、思考と思い出は霊から退いた
恐怖を抑圧しようとしても、まだ前進することはできない
怒りと悲しみ以外の何も感じない、背後を見ていない
内のこの灼熱感を除いて、何も覚えていない

状況を垣間見ることなく全てが速すぎた
夢からではなく、錯覚からではなく、何も知らなかった
ちょうど癒されない痛みについて彼女の言葉を聞いた
この小さな狂った声は、いつでも私を嫌がらせしていた

闇の中に投獄され、思考と思い出は霊から退いた
恐怖を抑圧しようとしても、まだ前進することはできない
怒りと悲しみ以外の何も感じない、背後を見ていない
内のこの灼熱感を除いて、何も覚えていない

沈黙は断片的に粉々になって、私の考えを取り除きた
彼女はどんな気持ちも無視してこの女性が危険だと言った
この狂気に耳を傾けようとしなかったが、痛みはより強くなっていた
それから、この影が私の持つ全てを消していくのを見た

恐怖で圧倒され、もはや何をすべきかを知らずに
絶望と涙に溺れている間、希望がなくなった
決してあなたを救うことができなかった、彼女は十分な時間を与えなかったので
もし私が罰せられるならば、この拷問を永遠に取り除くでしょう...

Original English text

Imprisoned in the darkness, the thoughts and memories retired from the spirit
Trying to repress the fears, I can't still move forward
Feeling nothing more than wrath and grief, while not looking behind
I don't remember anything, except for this burning sensation within

Everything happened too fast without having any glimpse on the situation
I didn't know anything, not from a dream, not from an illusion
I just heard her words about a pain that couldn't be healed
This little insane voice was harassing me at any moment

Imprisoned in the darkness, the thoughts and memories retired from the spirit
Trying to repress the fears, I can't still move forward
Feeling nothing more than wrath and grief, while not looking behind
I don't remember anything, except for this burning sensation within

Silence has been shattered into pieces, taking away my thoughts with it
She was saying that this woman was dangerous while ignoring any feelings
I tried to not listen to this madness, but the pain was becoming more intense
Then I saw this shadow coming to erase everything I had

Oppressed by the fears, without even knowing what to do anymore
The hope was gone, while I was drowning into the despair and the tears
I was never able to save you, because she wouldn't give enough time
If I had to be punished, I'll get rid of this torture forever...

And French adaptation!

Emprisonnée dans les ténèbres, les pensées et souvenirs me sont retirés
J'essaie de réprimer mes peurs, mais je ne peux toujours pas avancer
Ne sentant rien de plus que la colère et le chagrin, sans regarder derrière moi
Je ne me souviens de rien, sauf de cette sensation brûlante en moi

Tout est arrivé trop vite sans que je n'aie eu le temps de remarquer la situation
Je ne savais rien, ni d'un rêve, ni même d'une illusion
J'ai juste entendu ses mots à propos d'une douleur ne pouvant être soignée
Cette petite voix folle qui à tout moment ne cessait de me harceler

Emprisonnée dans les ténèbres, les pensées et souvenirs me sont retirés
J'essaie de réprimer mes peurs, mais je ne peux toujours pas avancer
Ne sentant rien de plus que la colère et le chagrin, sans regarder derrière moi
Je ne me souviens de rien, sauf de cette sensation brûlante en moi

Le silence a été brisé en morceaux, emmenant avec lui mes pensées
Elle disait que cette femme était un danger, en ignorant mes sentiments
J'ai essayé de ne pas écouter cette folie, mais la douleur s'est intensifiée
Quand j'ai vu cette ombre effacer tout ce que j'avais à présent

Oppressée par les peurs, sans savoir que faire désormais
Alors que je me noyais dans les larmes et le désespoir, l'espoir s'était envolé
Parce qu'elle ne m'a pas donné assez de temps, je ne pouvais pas te sauver
Si je devais être punie, je me débarrasserai de cette torture à jamais...

Explanations...

Just to warn: this is NOT yandere. It really looks like yandere, but it's not (that explains why still forbidden on piapro). The heroine has just a split personnality, but that's all.
Music: pad by PoiZone, leads by Morphine.

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Ortensia

Posted on April 12 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Tragedy

『Ortensia』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170409-00506
LIN (full) : 「598 606 706」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170411-000626
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 3/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

過去の壊れた約束からの冷たい空気の中の言葉
作った錯覚を打ち砕いて嘘をついて明らかにした
私の中の幸福のこの壊れやすい感覚は小さな断片に砕かれ始めた
世界を散乱されている瀕死の花から落ちる花びらのよう

これらの苦しい言葉を聞くことさえ理解したくはないでした
この現実を受け入れたことはないでしたが、それを認めなければなりませんでした
あなたは彼がただの友達だと言ったけど、それは嘘だよね?
この人はあまりにも重要です、あなたは彼を失うことを恐れた

過去の壊れた約束からの冷たい空気の中の言葉
作った錯覚を打ち砕いて嘘をついて明らかにした
私の中の幸福のこの壊れやすい感覚は小さな断片に砕かれ始めた
世界を散乱されている瀕死の花から落ちる花びらのよう

この憎しみはより速くより速く成長していた、私の思考は混乱していた
精神が窒息していた、全てを失うと感じた
この男を殺すと、残っている唯一の友人になりますよね?
あなたの嘘は砕け散って、あなたに満足してくれるでしょう

何も許されず、何も本当に止めることはできなかった
彼の魂が飛んでいる間、この残りの体はまだ地上で眠っていた
私があなたに戻ったとき、この嫌な感覚が消えていないと感じた
あなたに最後の別れを伝える時間さえなかった...

Original English text

Words in a cold air from broken promises in the past
Revealed through a lie breaking down the illusion that I built
This fragile sensation of happiness within me began being shattered into little pieces
As the falling petals from a dying flower that are being scattered through the world

I never wanted to understand, not even listening to these painful words
I never accepted this reality, but was forced to admit it
You said he was just a friend, but it's a lie right?
This person is too much important, you were afraid to lose him

Words in a cold air from broken promises in the past
Revealed through a lie breaking down the illusion that I built
This fragile sensation of happiness within me began being shattered into little pieces
As the falling petals from a dying flower that are being scattered through the world

This hatred was growing faster and faster, my thoughts were confused
Spirit was suffocating, I felt that I would lose everything
If I kill this man, I will be the only friend remaining, right?
Your lies will be shattered into pieces, then I'll be happy with you

Nothing could be forgiven, nothing could really be stopped
While his soul is flying, this remaining body was still sleeping on the ground
When I came back to you, I felt that this hateful sensation didn't disappear
I didn't even have the time to tell you a last farewell...

And French adaptation!

Les mots dans un air glacé de promesses brisées dans le passé
Révélées à travers un mensonge brisant l'illusion que je m'étais bâtie
La fragile sensation de bonheur en moi a commencé à être brisée
Comme les pétales tombant d'une fleur mourante partout dans le monde éparpillées

Je n'ai jamais voulu comprendre, ni même ces pénibles mots, je n'ai jamais voulu l'écouter
Je n'ai jamais accepté cette réalité, mais je n'ai pas eu d'autre choix que de l'admettre cependant
Tu disais qu'il n'était juste un ami, mais tout ceci n'est qu'un mensonge pas vrai ?
Tu avais juste peur de la perdre parce que pour toi il était très important

Les mots dans un air glacé de promesses brisées dans le passé
Révélées à travers un mensonge brisant l'illusion que je m'étais bâtie
La fragile sensation de bonheur en moi a commencé à être brisée
Comme les pétales tombant d'une fleur mourante partout dans le monde éparpillées

La haine en moi grandissait de plus en plus vite, la confusion avait envahi mes pensées
Mon esprit suffoquait, j'ai senti que j'allais perdre tout ce que j'avais
Si je tue cet homme, je serai la seule amie qu'il te reste, pas vrai ?
Tes mensonges seront réduits en morceaux, avec toi mon bonheur deviendra réalité

Rien ne pouvait être pardonné, rien ne pouvait vraiment être arrêté
Alors que son âme s'est envolée, son corps restant sur le sol dormait
Lorsque je suis revenue à toi, j'ai senti que cette détestable sensation ne s'était pas évaporée
Même un seul au revoir, je n'ai pas eu le temps de te le crier...

Explanations...

Originally I had to air this yesterday evening but things didn't happen like I expected, so here it is in the morning. Well, morning, only in France since it's afternoon in Japan.
Music: pad by Sytrus (new yummy food for this synth by the way!), gated pad by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Xpand!2.
Story: that isn't said in the song is that the heroine actually kidnapped her rival and blackmailed her lover by saying if she was caring more about her, she wouldn't kill the man. Pretty good censoring, right? (No, actually, that's because I didn't really know how to put it with the current lyrics, so now you know the details.)

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Rainfalls

Posted on April 9 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Miscellaneous

『Rainfalls』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170406-00505
LIN (full) : 「598 603 743」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170408-000625
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 5/16

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

忠実な魂によって美しさを反映した輝く目
信じられないほどの笑い声とこれらの不当な言葉にもかかわらず
外観は間違っている、この世界はただの錯覚である
忘却の中で消え去る前に、何の意味もなく夢の上に建てられた

悲しみに溺れている    内の激しい痛みと戦って
錯覚よりも強い    それを幻滅に打ち砕く

涙が何度も流れている    この話は終わりです
しかし、まだあきらめない    降雨のような感情

たとえあなたがそれを言いたくないとしても、まだ理解している
あなたのこの表現は嘘ではない、実際にこの感覚をよく知っている
あなたは私が傷つけるだろうと思ったが、もう何もない
まだ希望が残っている限り、崩壊しない

悲しみに溺れている    内の激しい痛みと戦って
錯覚よりも強い    それを幻滅に打ち砕く

涙が何度も流れている    この話は終わりです
しかし、まだあきらめない    降雨のような感情

悲しみに溺れている    内の激しい痛みと戦って
錯覚よりも強い    それを幻滅に打ち砕く

涙が何度も流れている    この話は終わりです
しかし、まだあきらめない    降雨のような感情

Original English text

Sparkling eyes reflecting the beauty through their loyal souls
Despite the deceptive smiles and these untruthful words
Appearances are mistaken, this world is just an illusion
Built on a dream without any sense before vanishing in the oblivion

Drowning in the sadness
Fighting against the intense pain within
I am stronger than the illusion
Breaking it into a disillusion

Tears are flowing again and again
This story comes to an end
But I refuse to give up yet
Feelings stabbing like rainfalls

Even if you don't dare saying it, I still understand
This expression of yours that can't lie, I actually know too well this sensation
You thought I would be hurt but this is nothing anymore
I won't collapse as long I still have some hope remaining

Drowning in the sadness
Fighting against the intense pain within
I am stronger than the illusion
Breaking it into a disillusion

Tears are flowing again and again
This story comes to an end
But I refuse to give up yet
Feelings stabbing like rainfalls

Drowning in the sadness
Fighting against the intense pain within
I am stronger than the illusion
Breaking it into a disillusion

Tears are flowing again and again
This story comes to an end
But I refuse to give up yet
Feelings stabbing like rainfalls

And French adaptation!

Les yeux brillants reflétant à travers leurs âmes loyales la beauté
Malgré les sourires trompeurs et les mots mensongers
Les apparences sont trompeuses, ce monde n'est qu'illusion
Qui avant de s'évanouir dans l'oubli, était construit sur un rêve sans fondations

Me noyant dans le chagrin
Combattant contre la douleur intense enfin
Je suis plus forte que l'illusion
La brisant en désillusion

Les larmes continuent de couler sans fin
Cette histoire arrive à sa fin
Mais je refuse d'abandonner cependant
Comme la pluie qui poignarde, ces sentiments

Même si tu n'oses pas le dire, je le comprends
Cette expression qui ne peut mentir, je connais cette sensation que trop bien
Tu pensais que je serais blessée mais ce n'est plus rien
Tant qu'il me reste de l'espoir, je ne m'effondrerai pas maintenant

Me noyant dans le chagrin
Combattant contre la douleur intense enfin
Je suis plus forte que l'illusion
La brisant en désillusion

Les larmes continuent de couler sans fin
Cette histoire arrive à sa fin
Mais je refuse d'abandonner cependant
Comme la pluie qui poignarde, ces sentiments

Me noyant dans le chagrin
Combattant contre la douleur intense enfin
Je suis plus forte que l'illusion
La brisant en désillusion

Les larmes continuent de couler sans fin
Cette histoire arrive à sa fin
Mais je refuse d'abandonner cependant
Comme la pluie qui poignarde, ces sentiments

Explanations...

Sorry about the waiting, I had no idea for the lyrics but I quickly had the music in my mind.
Music: pop style music. Pads by PoiZone, arp and pluck by Harmor, kicks by Sytrus.

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Re;Boot

Posted on April 6 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Tragedy

『Re;Boot』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170405-000504
LIN (full) : 「598 601 220」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170406-000624
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Night Angels - TRACK 3/18 (Tei) 17/18 (Lily)

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

私を苦しめているこの感情に対する憎しみ
時間の経過とともに感覚が増している、傷が悪化している
あなたが今私を嫌っていることを知っている、間違いを修復するために戻ってみたい
この粉砕された人生の全てを後悔している

いつも真実を伝えることを恐れ、この愛について嘘を言っていた
あなたは離れて実行する前に、私を信じていないかもしれないことを考えて
あなたは叫んでいたこれらの言葉をほとんど聞いていなかった
あたかも私のことを気にかけていないかのように、ただの錯覚のように

私を苦しめているこの感情に対する憎しみ
時間の経過とともに感覚が増している、傷が悪化している
あなたが今私を嫌っていることを知っている、間違いを修復するために戻ってみたい
この粉砕された人生の全てを後悔している

落ち着かない激しい痛みから影の後ろに苦しんでいる
絶望から泣き、痛みは一度も止まらずに続けてた
まだそこに立っていたときに、なぜあなたはこれらの気持ちを持っていたの?
どのような間違いこのような残酷な刑罰に値するために行っているの?

この白い手は、流れていた鮮血で色付けされている
あなたの涙が彼の傷を治そうとしたが、それは遅すぎた
あなたがすでに去ってしまったことを謝罪する時間がなかった
この痛みとこの悲しみに苦しんで、全てを後ろに残すまで...

Original English text

The hatred towards this feeling that kept torturing me
The sensation is growing with the time, the wounds are worsening
I know you are hating me now, I want to go back to repair the mistake
I regret everything even this shattered life

I was always telling lies about this love, too afraid to tell the truth
Thinking that you may never believe me before running away
You were barely listening to these words that I was screaming
As if I was just an illusion, as if you were not caring about me

The hatred towards this feeling that kept torturing me
The sensation is growing with the time, the wounds are worsening
I know you are hating me now, I want to go back to repair the mistake
I regret everything even this shattered life

Suffering behind the shadows from an intense pain that I can't calm down
Crying from despair, the pain continued without stopping even once
Why did you have these feelings for him when I was still standing there?
What mistake I have done to deserve such a cruel punishment?

This white hand is now colored with the fresh blood that was flowing
While your tears tried to heal his wounds, but it was too late
I didn't have the time to make apologizes that you were already gone
I was suffering from this pain and this grief, until leaving everything behind...

And French adaptation!

La haine envers ce sentiment qui n'a cessé de me torturer
La sensation grandit avec le temps, les blessures empirent autant
Je veux réparer cette erreur, même si je sais que tu me hais maintenant
Je regrette tout même cette vie fracturée

Je mentais toujours à propos de cet amour, trop peur de dire la vérité
Pensant que tu ne me croirais jamais et tu t’enfuirais devant moi
Tu écoutais à peine mes mots que je hurlais
Comme si je n'étais qu'une illusion, comme si tu te fichais de moi

La haine envers ce sentiment qui n'a cessé de me torturer
La sensation grandit avec le temps, les blessures empirent autant
Je veux réparer cette erreur, même si je sais que tu me hais maintenant
Je regrette tout même cette vie fracturée

Souffrant derrière les ombres d'une intense douleur que je ne peux calmer
Pleurant de désespoir, la douleur a continué sans jamais s'arrêter
Même si j'étais là, pourquoi ressentais-tu toujours à son égard des sentiments ?
Quelle erreur ai-je pu commettre pour mériter tel châtiment ?

Cette main blanche colorée maintenant par le sang frais coulant
Alors que tes larmes essayaient de le soigner, mais il est trop tard à présent
Je n'ai pas eu le temps pour m'excuser que tu t'étais déjà envolée
Je souffrais de ce chagrin et cette douleur, je laisse tout derrière moi maintenant...

Explanations...

The song with which I have inverted the place with "Black Days", so that means it would be performed by Lily, but because of "Black Days" lyrics, Tei got "Re;Boot" instead.
This was intended to be yandere in any case though.
Music: pad, filtered gated pad and long pluck by PoiZone, lead and short pluck (at the end) by Toxic Biohazard. I had much difficulties with PoiZone presets by the way... Difficult to find some presets sounding right with some other ones...
And this is the last demo for "Night Angels"! Enjoy!

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Until the End

Posted on April 3 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Miscellaneous

『Until the End』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170402-00503
LIN (full) : 「598 598 882」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170403-000623
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Night Angels - TRACK 6/18

Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
Not recommended for people under... : -
Reason : -
Restricted on : (none)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

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Japanese lyrics

私の目の前に立って、目には決意感がいっぱい
それから彼女は笑顔で答えて、全てが大丈夫だと言った

この絶望的な状況でも、あなたが言っていることを信じたい
まだ希望を保ちながら、未来が幸せに満ちているのを見ている

希望を信じて、最後まで
将来のために、最後まで
希望を信じて、最後まで
それからあなたを信頼している...

まで以上に強く、悲しみや痛みを無視することができ
最終的にあなたを見ることができ、永遠に幸せになるかもしれない

あなたの言葉を聞き、これらの悲しい涙を取り除きたい
理解できないほど多くのものを見ましたが、あきらめない

希望を信じて、最後まで
将来のために、最後まで
希望を信じて、最後まで
それからあなたを信頼している...

希望を信じて、最後まで
将来のために、最後まで
希望を信じて、最後まで
それからあなたを信頼している...

Original English text

Standing in front of me, the eyes full of a determination feeling
Then she is answering with a smile, saying that everything is fine

I want to believe what you are saying, even in this desperate situation
Still keeping some hope, still seeing the future full of happiness

Believe in hope, until the end
For future sake, until the end
Believe in hope, until the end
Then I'll trust you...

Able to ignore the grief and the pain, stronger than ever
I can finally see you, and maybe be happy forever

I want to listen your words and get rid of these sorrowful tears
I saw so many things that could not be understood, but I don't give up

Believe in hope, until the end
For future sake, until the end
Believe in hope, until the end
Then I'll trust you...

Believe in hope, until the end
For future sake, until the end
Believe in hope, until the end
Then I'll trust you...

And French adaptation!

Elle se tient devant moi, les yeux remplis d'un sentiment de détermination
Puis elle dit que tout va bien et avec un sourire elle me répond

Même dans cette situation désespérée, je veux bien te croire
Voyant encore l'avenir rempli de bonheur, cherchant un peu d'espoir

Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Pour le bien de l'avenir, jusqu'à la fin
Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Alors je te croirai enfin...

Pouvant ignorer le chagrin et la douleur, plus forte que jamais
Je peux enfin te voir, et peut-être être heureuse à jamais

Je veux écouter tes mots et me débarrasser de mes larmes de chagrin
J'ai vu tant de choses que je ne peux comprendre, mais je n'abandonne pas enfin

Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Pour le bien de l'avenir, jusqu'à la fin
Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Alors je te croirai enfin...

Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Pour le bien de l'avenir, jusqu'à la fin
Crois en l'espoir, jusqu'à la fin
Alors je te croirai enfin...

Explanations...

Originally it was a rewriting but I really changed the topic and made it happier, so it has nothing to see with the former work.
Music: pad, keys, arp by Harmor, lead by Sytrus. I made a very different style... Actually, it could be the type of music you could listen to on a French radio. Not a Vocaloid-type or UTAU-type of music. No, really.

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The "bunch of news" (reveal!)

Posted on April 2 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia there.

This is a sort of answer post to the previous news. Now let's be honest on "what is a joke" and "what is real", with all the details that I have removed.

1) THE PACE OF APRIL 24TH'S WEEK

This news is accurate.

I learnt it only on Tuesday, that I'll not be in front of the computer for enough time on the Thursday for that week, and I'll not be sure to air a song on that day. So you'll have a song for April 24th, 25th, 26th, 28th, 29th (with the album!) and 30th.

2) THE TRACKLIST FOR MAY

This news is accurate.

The name of the album will be "Running and Ailing" and the air date will be on May 20th. And indeed it will be the first album with a higher age limit because of "Anti-Birth". I don't think there will be other songs that have a such rating... Already enough...

4) THE DATA RECOVERY

This news is accurate (and I think it was the most credible of all).

The problem is that only 60% of my total data is recovered and this is so much the mess that it is taking a lot of time. And I'm still stuck for the other production files that are still being saved! So not before April 17th AT LEAST (that means I can recover my data way later... But surely)?

 

...

And of course, you are waiting for it...

3) THE COVER OF "ELSA-MARIA"

...

April Fools!!!

Of course the one for "REJECT" is real. But the one for "Elsa-Maria"... Hum... How to say? I'm not at ease with this kind of stories, sorry. I have my limits... (^_^)"

(Seriously if I write I'll cover "ELLIE" or "Elsa-Maria", this is a fake. ESPECIALLY if it's on April 1st!)

There will be a cover on May 13th though, but not that song. I haven't decided the song yet, nor the singer but... I have all my time to think about it.

 

 

....

5) BONUS TRACKS

This one is not included in the former post, so it's a real news. There will be the versions of "Stitches" by MAYU and "Rachel" by IA in the April album. They won't be hidden and will be marked as "bonuses". And, maybe if I have an idea, other bonus tracks (alternative versions)?

 

Enjoy, and no worries, April Fools are over. Back to reality for now.
Nynthixia

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CAMILLIA

Posted on April 1 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia in Normal yandere, Tragedy

『CAMILLIA』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170331-00502
LIN (full) : 「598 596 689」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170401-000622
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Night Angels - TRACK 10/18

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

PlayDB entry

Japanese lyrics

空の星は地球から遠く離れた灰に燃えている
まだこの暖かい感情を感じることができる限り、希望は消えていませんでした
これらの傷であなたを見て私は泣かせました、決して彼らを許されない
とても不幸だった、絶望的に崩壊している世界を見ている...

この運命が幻想で、私の目の前で砕けたかったと思っていた
この幸福を信じ続けるなら、苦しみは繰り返されないよね?
一緒に、私たちは何も恐れることなく未来を再構築することができます
すぐに苦しみは終わり、悲しみは永遠に忘れ去られるでしょう

空の星は地球から遠く離れた灰に燃えている
まだこの暖かい感情を感じることができる限り、希望は消えていませんでした
これらの傷であなたを見て私は泣かせました、決して彼らを許されない
とても不幸だった、絶望的に崩壊している世界を見ている...

彼がそこにいたときにあなたが苦しんでいるのを見て、叫んで助けを求めた
数ヶ月前にはまだ甘くて欺瞞的な顔をしていないでした
あなたを救いたいと思っていたが、あまりにも遅れていることに気付きた
あなたをもう一度幸せにしたいと望むことしかできないでした...

彼の炎が吹かれている間、まだ残っている希望を持っていた
地面のほこりに戻って、私の翼はついにこの痛みから解放された
この未来が再び崩壊するのを見て、悲しみが私を閉じ込めた
そして全世界が燃えるのを見るまで、まだ立ち上がるでしょう...

Original English text

The stars in the sky are burning into ashes far away from the earth
Hope didn't disappear, as long I can still feel this warm emotion
Seeing you with these wounds made me cry, I will never forgive them
I was so unfortunate, desperately looking at a world that is collapsing...

I wanted this fate to be an illusion, shattering in front my eyes
The torment won't repeat if I continue to believe in this happiness, right?
Together, we will be able to build again a future without being afraid of anything
The suffering will soon end and the grief will be forever forgotten

The stars in the sky are burning into ashes far away from the earth
Hope didn't disappear, as long I can still feel this warm emotion
Seeing you with these wounds made me cry, I will never forgive them
I was so unfortunate, desperately looking at a world that is collapsing...

I saw you suffering when he was there, screaming and asking for help
While few months before you were still blinded by a sweet but deceptive face
I wanted to save you, but I noticed the situation too late
I could only do a thing to hope making you happy again...

While his flame was being blown up, I was still with a remaining hope
Back to the dust in the ground, while my wings were finally free of this pain
When I saw this future collapsing again, the grief trapped me
And I'll still stand up, until seeing the whole world burning...

And French adaptation!

Les étoiles dans le ciel brûlent en cendres loin de la terre
L'espoir n'a pas disparu, tant que je ressentirai cette douce sensation familière
Te voir tellement blessée m'a faite pleurer, jamais je ne leur pardonnerai
J'étais si malchanceuse, regardant désespérément un monde s'effondrer...

Je voulais que ce destin ne soit qu'illusion, qu'il se casse devant moi
Le tourment ne se répètera pas si je continue à croire au bonheur, pas vrai?
Ensemble, on pourra reconstruire un avenir sans craindre quoi que ce soit
La souffrance prendra bientôt fin et ce chagrin sera oublié à jamais

Les étoiles dans le ciel brûlent en cendres loin de la terre
L'espoir n'a pas disparu, tant que je ressentirai cette douce sensation familière
Te voir tellement blessée m'a faite pleurer, jamais je ne leur pardonnerai
J'étais si malchanceuse, regardant désespérément un monde s'effondrer...

Je t'ai vue souffrir quand il était là, t'ai vue appeler à l'aide et hurler
Alors que quelques mois avant son visage doux mais trompeur t'aveuglait
Je voulais te sauver, mais ce n'est que trop tard que je l'ai remarqué
Je ne pouvais faire qu'une chose pour espérer que tu redeviennes heureuse à jamais...

Alors que sa flamme s'éteignait, un petit espoir encore demeurait
De retour à la poussière dans le sol, alors que mes ailes étaient libres de cette douleur
Quand j'ai vu à nouveau ce destin s'effondrer, le chagrin m'a rattrapée
Et je me tiens encore, jusqu'à voir le monde entier s'effondrer en pleurs...

Explanations...

This is a rewriting of something I made... Almost 3 years ago. Ouch the lyrics quality at that time... So I took the former work and made these new lyrics! The former lyrics didn't tell correctly that it was also a yandere story so I modified that a bit.
Music: pad by Toxic Biohazard, gated pad by PoiZone, gated lead by Harmless and saw lead by GMS. I really wanted a spatial music as in the former project, and it's quite well done...

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Bunch of news (let's play a little game)

Posted on April 1 2017 by Tokina / Nynthixia

Hello, Nynthixia there!

It's April 1st! Do you know what it means? The April Fool!!

I told you before...

I'll do a news post with several points. All of these points will be 100% accurate, but one another will be total fake. And when it will be aired, you can try and guess (on Twitter, maybe easier) what point is the fake one.

So let's go, there is a bunch of news, all of them are true... And one of them is a big big joke. If you know me well, it should be easy.

1) Concerning the week of April 24th, I have to reduce the pace... To the medium one and I'll actually do 6 songs for that week. Everyday but Thursday, where I'll be quite busy.

2) Tracklist for May, with an album that will be rated as "Explicit"... For the first time. Just because of one song.

01. Leida (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
02. Killing Shadows (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
03. Ortensia (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
04. Running And Ailing (feat. IA -ROCKS-)
05. Rainfalls (feat. GUMI)
06. Do Not Leave (feat. GUMI)
07. LACRIMIA (feat. Lily)
08. Anti-Birth (feat. Lily)
09. Orchid Orchestra (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
10. Bitterness (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
11. Hit List (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
12. Your Fault (feat. Gahata Meiji -Lilith-)
13. Away From Me (feat. Anna Nyui -vivid-)
14. Escape Route (feat. Anna Nyui -vivid-)
15. Elvira (feat. MAYU)
16. Ines (feat. MAYU)

I don't have any air date though, maybe for end of May?

3) Concerning the covers... There is still the cover of "REJECT" with Yukari for April 15th, when I'll get back, and maybe one cover of "Elsa-Maria" for May 13th? Haven't decided the singer yet for that last one.

4) For April album and the data recovery... It's not done until mid April at least. So if I don't get back the files before April 22nd, the following tracks:
"Night Angels"
"Laura"
will be automatically in "demo = album version". For "Eve", there is still a chance to do an album version, I'll just have to do again the vsqx, but since the flp was saved... It shouldn't be that hard.

__________________________________________________________________________________________________

OK, so, 3 news are accurate and one is fake. Which number corresponds to the fake? Tell on Twitter (@NynthixiaP)!
This is not too hard, promise.

On April 3rd, I'll make another news to tell which point was fake. Good luck!

Nynthixia

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