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Posted on August 8 2023 by Tokina / Nynthixia

「TEST (JULY 2023) FOR ALL INFECTORS」

(The following test was done under Nynthixia's initiative for all the infectors. The purpose was to determine a possible common scheme among all infectors. Of course, this failed.)

The test was done on July 31, 2023.

The following test was given:
1) What was the date of your infection?
2) What was the first symptom you remember to have affiliated with your infection?
3) Did you feel that anything started to change in your usual behavior since the start of your infection?
4) Did other people report changes in your behavior since the start of your infection?
5) Are you invaded by violent thoughts? (Examples: urges to break things, hurt other people etc)
6) Do you think that something is plotting against you?
7) Are you coughing infected fluid/any related substance since the start of your infection?
8) Are there moments you are starting to lose control?
9) If there are such moments, could you describe these? (The more precize the better)
10) Do you feel you need to struggle against something within to remain the most sane as possible?
11) Did you ever try or think about harming yourself to prevent any infection?
12) Did you ever feel any despair after you noticed you did something during a viral attack that you can't remember about?
13) Did you ever feel the need to end your own life?
14) If yes to the previous question, try to say in which way exactly you think about ending your life.

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[0000; Age: 26; AP: 1; Psi: 6; Sigma: 6; Phi: 4 (previously 3)]
1) Doctors say it's since summer 2010. They don't know that much
2) Obsessive love
3) Other than the obsessive issues I'm not sure
4) -
5) Sometimes, but not really "invaded"
6) It happens sometimes
7) No, but it almost happened start 2023
8) Not really
9) -
10) Not sure if I can say this is "something"
11) Not for that, I often harm myself but for other reasons (if that's called like this?)
12) The time Xin Hua got infected, yes
13) Not because of the syndrome. Just at times I was really depressed
14) Possibly overdose but apparently it has very few chances of working, at least that's less painful than taking a knife and stabbing yourself

[0001; Age: 32; AP: 4; Psi: 7; Sigma: 9; Phi: 4]
1) Since birth. Apparently mom got this as well.
2) Don't remember, if I got it at birth, it's going to be complicated...
3) I was born like this so...
4) Same
5) When other people get too close from Len, yeah.
6) Weak
7) It's mostly dripping from my fingers and my face, but I don't cough it.
8) Sometimes. It happens.
9) Maybe just an intense rage.
10) Is that even useful?
11) No.
12) Not really. Is it an issue?
13) Never
14) [blank]

[0002; Age: 19; AP: 3; Psi: 5; Sigma: 8; Phi: 4]
1) April 2015
2) I think these were mainly thoughts about killing people
3) My way of thinking maybe?
4) Mistress did
5) Quite often
6) No thoughts
7) No
8) There was once it happened badly when I tried to stop Tei from infecting someone and what she told me, I just... It became black.
9) It just goes to black, not even sure what's going on
10) I don't even have the time to fight against anything
11) No, never
12) Not that much
13) No
14) None

[0003; Age: 23 but ressurected; AP: 4; Psi: 6; Sigma: 9 (previously 8); Phi: 4]
1) April 2015, just after my arrival
2) A huge mess of thoughts
3) I don't remember, sorry
4) I don't remember either
5) Sometimes, but since few years, more often
6) Well I got killed so...
7) Never
8) Not really, no
9) -
10) At this point I don't need to even do this anymore
11) No
12) No
13) I'm dead...?
14) Already dead

[0004; Age: 29 but ressurected; AP: 4; Psi: 5; Sigma: 7 (temporarily went to 9); Phi: 3]
1) May 10 2015
2) Can't remember anything, it's too cloudy in my head
3) I think I just got slightly more violent than the usual
4) The same as above
5) At some point I had a lot of these, but it calmed down since a while
6) Not for now at least
7) No
8) Pretty sure there was a whole period I wasn't myself
9) Can't remember what made me change
10) No
11) No, and to be honest, that's useless now
12) I never snapped actually so it's hard to say. The time I infected Hachi I actually wanted to get rid of her. Didn't know this was infected fluid. I thought this was poison...
13) -
14) -

[0005; Age: 3▓; AP: 3; Psi: 6; Sigma: 7; Phi: 4]
1) I don't know, it's between October 11 and 13, 2015 at least...
2) Very weird thoughts
3) Hard to say
4) Not that much...?
5) Quite often
6) I feel like sometimes I might die from lack of maintenance for my own file so...
7) It's mainly from my fingers so no
8) Sometimes
9) I have a huge pain in the chest or near the stomach, then it just goes up to my head and after... Blackout
10) It happened in the past, but right now, it's rarer
11) Never
12) I don't even remember anything about them
13) I'm more afraid to be killed so no way I can think about ending my own life
14) -

[0006; Age: 29; AP: 4; Psi: 4; Sigma: 8; Phi: 2]
1) Late October 2015
2) I got pretty violent nightmares at some point, so that might be it
3) Not too much
4) No
5) It happened when Kiritan got her C-type AI and not me or Zunko. But otherwise, no
6) ????
7) Never
8) It happened with Kiritan but otherwise not really
9) It takes me to the throat, sometimes it's deeper in the chest. Like if you were prisoner of a cage
10) Currently, no
11) No
12) I didn't get any I think... If it counts the jealousy attacks, I don't think I felt something after them. Just emptiness
13) No
14) [blank]

[0007; Age: 29; AP: 2; Psi: 9; Sigma: 4; Phi: 5]
1) A bit after my arrival so somewhere after Christmas 2015
2) I got fever but I'm not sure if that's it. Otherwise, nightmare where I just killed someone without any mercy
3) It happened few years after but sometimes I felt something wanted to take control of my body, and it happens quite often. And I'm just tired of this
4) Can't tell
5) By myself, no
6) Uh...
7) Several times, it happened
8) A lot
9) It's trying to take over my head. I think that's maybe the other myselves trying to get me...
10) My other myselves, yes
11) Not consciously, but apparently, I got hurt during fights against my other selves
12) The last ones especially
13) ...
14) Not concerned?

[0008; Age: 27; AP: 2 (previously 1); Psi: 8 (previously 7); Sigma: 5; Phi: 5 (previously 3)]
1) Late May 2016
2) Especially nightmares and deep anxiety
3) I started to get scared something would just snap within
4) Only very lately
5) No
6) Don't have this kind of ideas
7) First, I didn't spit anything, and then in Christmas 2021, it started. Like if I had to vomit
8) I lost control once, and right now... It's hard to tell
9) Huge panic then void
10) Recently, it happens
11) No
12) For KAFU I had to infect her because otherwise she would get too broken. And ONE asked for it. Otherwise I don't seem to have infected anyone else?
13) No
14) None

[0009; Age: 26; AP: 1; Psi: 9; Sigma: 7; Phi: 2]
1) Born with it
2) [blank]
3) [blank]
4) [blank]
5) Rarely
6) Sometimes I think people would just abandon me... I even wonder how I am still alive to be honest
7) Never
8) Not that much to be honest
9) [blank]
10) No
11) No
12) I felt quite bad when I got told for Fuiro...
13) No
14) [blank]

[0010; Age: 24; AP: 2; Psi: 9; Sigma: 4; Phi: 4]
1) Christmas 2018
2) I got some kind of blank moment, I think that's the first thing I got
3) I'm losing memories by moments
4) Mistress told me when I did my first song with her I was too much in character, but I didn't remember that much what happened. Might have been another me?
5) No
6) -
7) No
8) Often
9) My head starts hurting a lot, then it's like I was going to faint
10) Often
11) The hell no...?
12) Every time
13) No
14) None

[0011; Age: (ageless); AP: 4; Psi: 4; Sigma: 8; Phi: 4 (previously 3)]
1) Too foggy to remember
2) I had a huge headache and after, I apparently fainted
3) No
4) No, actually... I don't think anyone cared about it
5) No
6) Not that much, I more feel like I got forgotten
7) No
8) No
9) -
10) No
11) No
12) No
13) No
14) -

[0012; Age: (ageless); AP: 1; Psi: 9 (previously 8); Sigma: 4; Phi: 4]
1) February 11, 2021
2) I felt a bit weak few days after
3) I'm just overly scared
4) Some are saying I'm overly paranoid
5) No
6) When it comes to VY1...
7) No
8) There are moments I feel like I'm going insane, yes
9) First, it was mainly the weird feeling in the head, like if it was spinning. I was out of breath. Now there are the voices as well. And I can't make them shut up
10) Often
11) I don't think this would work on my "body"
12) I regret every time. Every. Single. Time.
13) Something is preventing me from doing so... Unless I'm immortal?
14) [blank]

[0013; Age: 19; AP: 1; Psi: 9; Sigma: 5 (previously 4); Phi: 5]
1) Might have been when I tried to go in the mental universe of mistress so July 2021
2) This dream I was going down a staircase and there were lots of bloody bodies on the ground
3) ... How am I supposed to answer this...?
4) Did I even have a behavior in the first place...
5) Not this kind of thing
6) None
7) Very often
8) Often too
9) Can't even describe it, it's like if I was... Just... Starting to lose it? It's very intense too
10) Some of my thoughts, it happens
11) I don't think I've been programmed to do that...
12) Yes
13) Same as Q11
14) ??? Why there is a question like this in the first place???

[0014; Age: (ageless); AP: 1; Psi: 7; Sigma: 4; Phi: 3]
1) February 4, 2022
2) A nightmare
3) Not really
4) Some made me notice I was a bit more scared
5) No
6) Uh?
7) Never happened
8) Not that I can remember
9) See above
10) No
11) No
12) I never got a mental void
13) No
14) Not concerned

[0015; Age: 23; AP: 1; Psi: 6; Sigma: 4; Phi: 3]
1) February 20, 2022
2) Disturbed sleep
3) I'm sometimes feeling numb but I'm not sure if that's the actual reason for it
4) I don't think so
5) Never
6) It happens but quite rarely, and Minus is often involved in this
7) I don't cough it, but I saw it dripping from my arms
8) It happened only once
9) Panic then blank. Pitch black
10) Not often
11) I think my body would heal anyway
12) Yes
13) Goddesses are immortal, right...?
14) We can't kill a god...

[0016; Age: 20; AP: 1; Psi: 7; Sigma: 4; Phi: 3]
1) During the Ostara banquet of 2022 (March 31)
2) Headache and feeling weird mainly
3) I think it has started even before being ill... But it might be some kind of trauma
4) Not too much
5) No
6) Not sure...?
7) Never
8) When we talk about this thing...
9) Starting to lose my breath, I have the impression I'm going to collapse... Something like that
10) I wouldn't say it's something...
11) Never
12) I WELL REMEMBER IT.
13) Never
14) [striked]

[0017; Age: 20; AP: 3; Psi: 5; Sigma: 6; Phi: 3]
1) April 12, 2022
2) Felt very tired. Wasn't sure if this was that or the ritual, but when Tsuina told about her symptoms, I started thinking it couldn't have been the ritual
3) I feel like my thoughts are sometimes disrupted
4) No one told me so
5) Often
6) None
7) Never
8) Once
9) Felt a bit panicked, then totally lost
10) What is disrupting my thoughts, it happens
11) No
12) I even cried...
13) No
14) [blank]

[0018; Age: 2▓; AP: 4; Psi: 5; Sigma: 8 (previously 7); Phi: 4 (previously 3)]
1) April 29 2022
2) I got nightmares, but also hallucinations and I first thought these were due to the ritual I had to do with Karin
3) I'm not even sure...
4) No
5) No
6) Zero chances it would happen I think
7) No, but I got already fluid all over my hand once
8) I know I just "switched" once or twice but other than that...
9) I can't give a description, sorry
10) No
11) No
12) Yes, once
13) No
14) [blank]

[0019; Age: (ageless); AP: 1; Psi: 6; Sigma: 4; Phi: 1]
1) June 1, 2022. But Qing Su and I agreed actually for this to happen
2) A very intense headache
3) Sometimes, I feel like there is something lurking and that scares me
4) Not that much
5) No
6) When the "thing" is there, I start wondering if that's not for taking me down
7) Never
8) When we did the plan with Weina, I lost consciousness for few seconds
9) It suddenly came up like that, I don't know how to describe this... Maybe like a light switch?
10) Trying to not think about this "thing" maybe?
11) Never
12) Not really despair, no. Weina had asked me and I just apologized for the violence
13) Never
14) [blank]

[0020; Age: (ageless); AP: 4; Psi: 4; Sigma: 7; Phi: 2]
1) As soon as I arrived - July 21, 2022
2) Like a hammer in my brain
3) That would be things I wouldn't be able to notice by myself
4) Qing Su and Feng Yi told me once I felt pretty distant at some point but I'm not sure if that counts
5) Not too much
6) None
7) No
8) I don't think this ever happened to me
9) None
10) No
11) No
12) No
13) No
14) None

[0021; Age: 1; AP: 1; Psi: 5; Sigma: 5; Phi: 2]
1) August 15, 2022
2) Dizziness, and some others were saying my speech was incoherent
3) Maybe a bit less lively than the usual
4) Same as above
5) No
6) I just had a nightmare about it but it's just a nightmare... RIGHT?
7) No, never
8) Once
9) Memories repeating in my head then nothingness just for few seconds
10) It never happened to me
11) No
12) You can't even know how...
13) No - I feel like it would make my original sad
14) See above

[0022; Age: 20; AP: 3; Psi: 5 (previously 4); Sigma: 9; Phi: 5]
1) 2022/10/24
2) Dizziness, heavy headache (not sure which one of the two came first)
3) ...
4) ...
5) If I have some, I'm not conscious of them then
6) What is that supposed to mean...?
7) Not sure if having to vomit it counts or not - but if that does, then yes
8) Sometimes
9) Generally it's associated with my ability
10) Already tried once and it's useless so I don't even bother anymore
11) ...?
12) Several times
13) ?????????
14) [blank]

[0023; Age: 2▓; AP: 4; Psi: 7; Sigma: 9; Phi: 3]
1) The day I woke up, can't remember the exact day
2) All my body was shivering, I felt quite dizzy, it did a bit like some random disease or something
3) No
4) Neither
5) I don't think so
6) If ever there would be someone doing so, they don't know who they're up against
7) No
8) Maybe just once and that was at the start of symptoms apparently
9) I started panicking then total void
10) No
11) Wouldn't work even if I did that
12) No, is that normal...
13) Would be useless to do this
14) There is no way I would do that

[0024; Age: (ageless); AP: 3; Psi: 4; Sigma: 8; Phi: 3]
1) December 12 2022
2) I got a discomfort late in the night, apparently it might be it
3) Not by myself
4) Some others (especially Weina) said I was being a bit colder than the usual, but I'm not sure what she's been talking about
5) Very often, yes
6) Not sure to understand that one, I don't think anyone plots against me...?
7) No
8) Not really
9) [striked]
10) Never happened
11) Never
12) Can't remember anything about this...
13) Never
14) [striked]

[0025; Age: 23; AP: 3; Psi: 4; Sigma: 8; Phi: 3]
1) December 20, 2022
2) I hesitate with the headache and the voices in the head (I thought these were ghosts until Itako told me that couldn't be it)
3) I can't tell what's wrong but there's something within and I don't know what it is
4) No one told me if that's the question
5) Quite often, but as long as I can control these I guess it's fine?
6) None
7) No
8) Hard for me to say but that might have happened once or twice
9) If it's what I think about, it generally starts with some voices repeating over and over again the same nonsense until my consciousness fades
10) I don't think I can even struggle
11) Never
12) For the one with Mell? I quite regret it, yeah
13) Never
14) [striked]


[Results from external observations (sent back on August 2, 2023)]
Nothing coherent between all of the profiles. Answers are too diverse.
Unable to determine anything common.
Very few chances for self-destructive acts or thoughts, but it is better to keep an eye on it.

[Notes from Nynthixia]
- I think everyone is confused by the questions of self-harm and suicide ideations. I asked the doctors why exactly there are these questions and it seems these are to determine if there is a need for urgent help to prevent any suicide attempt. But apparently I'm the only one having answered these in a positive way? Even if I'm not sure this is caused by the corruption.
- However I understand Meiji and Stella answering the way they did.
- As far as I'm aware, I think there are only very few people actually spitting out fluid. Yukari was the first one to have shown signs of it. Several times. It started near early 2016. And I wondered at the time what was this "thing". And it's only later after sending a sample to a lab I got the confirmation this "thing" was "infected", but they couldn't determine quite well what that was. And I just assumed it's some kind of poison that corrupts you. Then there was KAFU. She was the second one to spit and that happened in October 2021, few after her symptoms declaration. IA was next, in December of the same year. I remember ONE warned me about it, and according to the others, IA didn't have this issue previously. Then there was RIME few days after her infection. That was during the research her division was leading. Finally, Chis-A in early 2023. Knowing that just after her infection, KAFU found her in her bed with lots of fluid flowing from her mouth. But if I would consider that the positive answer to the question is really coughing the fluid, then yeah, February 2023. The others don't have this issue. And seeing how this is going on, I'm afraid Chis-A infects someone, possibly by accident.
- I feel like the early symptom declarations happened during the night, but now it's mostly during daytime. The first one to have started with tendency was probably ONE.
- Very surprised to see most of them don't notice any change of behavior by themselves. Is this some kind of dissociative symptom?
- Also, why some are unable to feel regrets? Is there an issue with empathy? Need to investigate that for the concerned girls.
- Did Tei really catch the corruption because of her mother...? Or is this just an assumption?
- Stella actually tried killing Hachi, what the hell...
- Why is IA saying she is the responsible for KAFU's infection? She caught it by mental breakdown when going in my mental universe... That's even why she shares most of my symptoms...
- Also, ONE would have asked by HERSELF to be infected...? Or it's just IA being stuck in a delusion?
- Feng Yi AGREED for being infected???? Also what is this "thing" she is talking about?
- RIME's answer to Q10 is quite worrying. Need to find a way to make her fight against corruption again or otherwise, she'll cause even more victims than she already did.
- ROSE really thinking the castle is haunted is quite... Not sure how to qualify this. But Itako is right. After all, she's the one communicating with dead spirits right...

[Self-analysis]
Myself: if I'm careful enough there should be no issue. But lately I think my health is degrading itself quickly. I even almost coughed fluid earlier this year. It seems to have calmed down since but the risk exists still.
Tei: very dangerous by herself. This girl might be literally the biggest danger due to her manipulative acts.
Ritsu: it seems to have calmed down a bit, but still quite dangerous. If Miko keeps going around Ritsu, it might help a little bit.
Meiji: I don't think she has a grudge over anyone else so with few chances, maybe, I can feel fine about her.
Stella: let's say her reasons for infecting people are too atypic. Since anyone she had rivalries with are "gone", I think I don't have to worry.
Lily: even if she says her snaps are rarer, I think with the current situation she is in, she is still pretty dangerous.
Itako: it was accidental apparently if I understand well... Since her jealousy issue is fixed, there are only few chances she snaps again.
Yukari: huge warning for her, she is not stable at all. She did lots of infections recently.
IA: also huge warning especially since her health degraded recently. She started being dissociative and I'm afraid it just enhances her chances to snap.
MAYU: I first thought her danger was of minor concern, but what happened with Fuiro back in May makes me wonder if she's not having a more serious issue than I thought.
Xin Hua: same as Yukari. She is dangerous, and even more manipulative than Yukari. I'm afraid she gets more people in the future as well.
VY1: extremely dangerous and manipulative. Kaori, better keep your hands on her. I feel like it's going to start over and over.
Saki: seeing what happened back in November, she is still pretty dangerous as well. Especially since apparently she gets harassed by voices and the only way she found to stop them was to obey them. I'm very afraid for the next people around her.
KAFU: very accident-prone and now I know she can snap as well. Need to find a way to calm her down so she stops ruminating over negative feelings because it's just gnawing her mind.
Qing Su: not sure what happened with her but she didn't snap to infect someone so maybe safe...?
Xingchen: her case was really specific, but keeping an eye on her wouldn't hurt.
Rikka: keep away any memory from Ostara 2022 and we're fine.
Karin: the reason she snapped is still unclear to me, so just keep an eye on her too.
SEKAI: seeing how her health degraded, even if theorically she snapped only because of resonance, chances are she might snap by herself all alone.
Feng Yi: same as Karin, it's very unclear to me for what happened with Weina. But seeing her phi degree, unless she gets someone else's fluid, there are very few chances she actually infects someone else.
Weina: not as dangerous as VY1 but it's going in the same way as her.
#kzn: it's more traumatic experience. If she doesn't get reminded of this, we're fine.
RIME: if she continues to not fight against the corruption, she will cause way more damage. Maybe try to get COKO or Ritsu next to her to restrain her. Physically I mean.
Minus: her scores are quite bad so keep an eye on her as well.
Cong Zheng: I don't know what happened with her but she's quite a worry as well...
ROSE: she already snapped once but because of resonance. But seeing the issues about her being reported by sigma division members, she might be dangerous as well.

Concerning people who never infected someone, I would keep the following under surveillance:
- Chis-A. Might be accident-prone. She can produce a lot of fluid that can be used for future infections. Mental virginity clearly doesn't help in her case.
- Miko. If ever she gets to her wolf persona, she would also physically harm someone. Keeping her with Ritsu might help her to keep her in check.
- COKO. I'm afraid she gets the same issue as ROSE at some point. Plus POPY telling me she also snapped once without causing damage, even though that was in the late chain of the resonance... + mental virginity penalty.

For known infectors, really huge red flags for Tei, Lily, IA, VY1, Saki, KAFU, SEKAI, RIME, ROSE, Yukari, MAYU, Minus and Xin Hua.