『Cyanide Lilies』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170102-00451
LIN (full) : 「598 500 060」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170102-000567
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Tears of the Rose - TRACK 15/15

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

毎日と毎晩、同じ傷によって魂が傷ついている
致命的な内訳まで同じ悪夢が繰り返し繰り返されている...

光の中に歩く貧しい無実の女の子は、その存在を感じなかった
彼女の後ろに、歪んだ思考でいっぱいのこの邪魔な精神
すでに怪我をした精神の深みに侵入するまでの最終的な操作
彼女の静脈に流れ込む毒として、残りの意識を殺して

彼女自身の憎しみの幻想によって操作される
この壊れた魂が最終的に最悪の衝動に従う前に...

光の中に歩く貧しい無実の女の子は、その存在を感じなかった
彼女の後ろに、歪んだ思考でいっぱいのこの邪魔な精神
すでに怪我をした精神の深みに侵入するまでの最終的な操作
彼女の静脈に流れ込む毒として、残りの意識を殺して

彼女は最終的に地面に落ちた、彼女の考えはもはや同じではなかった
強烈な怒りと絶望でいっぱい、彼女は抵抗するほど強くなかった
流れる鮮血を見て、完全に無力で絶望的です
恐怖は激化し、隠された怒りは決して消え去ることはありません

あなたがまだ生きている限り、闘争は同じままです
誰かがあなたを最終的に殺した場合、これらの考えは消えているの？

それが始まった瞬間から謝るのは遅すぎる
同じ継続拷問中毒私の正気...

The soul being hurt by the same wounds everyday and everynight
The same nightmare repeats again and again until the fatal breakdown...

The poor and innocent girl walking into the light didn't feel the presence
Behind her, this disturbing spirit full with distorted thoughts
An ultimate manipulation until invading the depths of an already wounded spirit
As a poison flowing in her veins, killing any remaining consciousness

Manipulated by the illusions of her own hatred
Before this broken soul finally obeys the worst impulsions...

The poor and innocent girl walking into the light didn't feel the presence
Behind her, this disturbing spirit full with distorted thoughts
An ultimate manipulation until invading the depths of an already wounded spirit
As a poison flowing in her veins, killing any remaining consciousness

She finally fell down on the ground, her thoughts weren't the same anymore
Filled with intense rage and despair, she wasn't strong enough to resist
Looking at the fresh blood flowing, totally powerless and desperate
The fear intensifies and the hidden rage never fades away

As long you are still living, the struggle will stay the same
If someone finally kills you, will these thoughts disappear?

It's too late now for apologizes, since the moment it began
The same continuing torture poisoning my sanity...

La même âme par les mêmes blessures chaque jour et nuit est blessée
Le même cauchemar se répète encore et encore jusqu'à la fatale tombée...

La pauvre et innocente fille marchant dans la lumière n'avait pas senti la présence
Derrière elle, cet esprit perturbant rempli de pensées déformées
Une ultime manipulation jusqu'à envahir les profondeurs de son esprit déjà blessé
Comme un poison coulant dans ses veines, tuant tout ce qu'il reste de sa conscience

Manipulée par sa propre haine et de ses illusions
Avant que cette âme brisée n'obéisse aux pires impulsions...

La pauvre et innocente fille marchant dans la lumière n'avait pas senti la présence
Derrière elle, cet esprit perturbant rempli de pensées déformées
Une ultime manipulation jusqu'à envahir les profondeurs de son esprit déjà blessé
Comme un poison coulant dans ses veines, tuant tout ce qu'il reste de sa conscience

Elle est finalement tombée sur le sol, ses pensées avaient déjà changé
Remplie d'intense rage et de désespoir, elle n'était pas assez forte pour résister
Regardant le sang frais couler, totalement impuissante et désespérée
La peur s'intensifie et la peur cachée ne s'évanouit jamais

Tant que tu seras toujours vivant, la bataille restera inchangée
Si quelqu'un finit par te tuer, serais-je débarrassée de ces pensées ?

Il est désormais trop tard pour s'excuser, depuis le moment où cela a commencé
La même torture continue sans arrêt à empoisonner ce qu'il me reste de santé...

Music: atmo by PoiZone, pluck, lead arp and pad by Sytrus, main arp by GMS. This gives a... Weird dreamy song.
Concerning the capella, this is the first time I used a FL plugin for one of the parts (the choruses), so yeah, I cheated a few with FL to render a part of the capella!
Story: I wanted to write something similar since a little time. The comment is "Things happening in the dreams... Don't happen in real life... Right?". I'm personally asking myself this question... But when it's related to murder, it's scary, for sure. Because of a hidden anger? Don't know myself.
Also, if the lyrics are confusing at some moments, it may be normal. Like "Black;Out", I actually wrote too much sentences for the lyrics, resulting in 4 sentences being removed. However, when I remade the capella, I was careful that the sense of the story didn't lose itself too much.
Other little curiosity... I used both Lily V3 and Lily Native for the fast parts, only Lily V3 for the chorus.
And don't try to sing this. 170BPM, lots of 1/16 notes (even some 1/32 ones)... This will be hard as hell! *laughs* This is one of my fastest songs.

Hello, Nynthixia there!

Happy new year 2017! Hope this year will be better than 2016...

On tomorrow, back to the slowest pace... 2 or 3 songs a week. For a quite long time... I still stood up with the tightest one though. No big surprise for the next week songs... "Cyanide Lilies" by Lily and "Olivia" by GUMI a minima. (Maybe a third song if I have some time?) With that, the demos for February album will be finished.

I'll also work on the album tracks for the January one (air date: January 21st). I wanted to wait for 2017 to make them.

Second new, that you may know: the piapro reset.
Actually, I thought about it more than twice during 2016. I wanted to remove all the former stuff to make some place for the new material. However, I haven't said, I'll make restrictions on the uploads.

- No Tei's songs on piapro (not even an instru!)
- VOCALOIDs, Ritsu, Kiritan, Itako's songs will be the prioritary ones. (Note: for singers other than these ones or Tei, if the song has at least "good" or "excellent" quality, the material may be on piapro)
- All the songs that are forbidden are piapro, if they respect the terms below, may have their instrumental uploaded (case of yandere/yangire/violent songs).
- All the non-yandere, non-yangire songs respecting the terms below will be uploaded in integrality (song+instru+lyrics)

This will avoid the quick saturation of the piapro account (because yes, seems there's one).

Also, the column of piapro material in the lite songlist being now useless, it has been replaced by the rating/age limit column, now telling the age rating of the song.
These are indications giving a hint of "the song is for all audiences or not".

And the former stuff that was on piapro? For the songs themselves, go check their albums. For the instrus, there is a download link here (warning: huge file!).

The covers. I uploaded the cover of "Farewell" (the new sele's song) right there. (Alternative license because of the instru's...) The cover of "BETH" by MAYU is not cancelled, it will be for February 5th on Tmbox.

(And I'll also need to update the remixes/covers section on the blog...)

I also updated the full stories document! Few months ago, I published on my private Twitlonger the French stories of "Melonora" and "Athanasia"/"JINOLIA". Their English versions are now online! (Click in the left menu on the name of the story to go to it)

Quite a lot of surprises... I'll work very hard for this year!

Enjoy!
Nynthixia

『Last Hope』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-170101-00450
LIN (full) : 「598 499 476」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170101-000566
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Tears of the Rose - TRACK 6/15

Rating : Questionable - Q
Not recommended for people under... : 10
Reason : possible confusing content
Restricted on : (none)

私を放棄しないで、この暗くて寒い絶望に私を残してはいけない
多くの傷にもかかわらず、悲しみと戦おうとした
痛みに直面して、悲しみに抵抗して、まだこの強い感覚を感じている
この最後の希望は私の手の間にまだ立つつもりです

これまで以上に決定された、何も崩壊させることは決してありません
最後の歩哨として、まだ立ち上がるほど強い精神
それから少しの光で私を希望の満ちた運命に導いた
未知の未来に手を持って、再び幸せを見つけました

私を放棄しないで、この暗くて寒い絶望に私を残してはいけない
多くの傷にもかかわらず、悲しみと戦おうとした
痛みに直面して、悲しみに抵抗して、まだこの強い感覚を感じている
この最後の希望は私の手の間にまだ立つつもりです

厳しい現実に直面するために私の目を開いたままにした
私たちの間で起こったことのために、まだ怪我をしていた
いつかあなたが私に戻ってくると確信している
この最後の希望が本当に役に立つと確信している

私を放棄しないで、この暗くて寒い絶望に私を残してはいけない
多くの傷にもかかわらず、悲しみと戦おうとした
痛みに直面して、悲しみに抵抗して、まだこの強い感覚を感じている
この最後の希望は私の手の間にまだ立つつもりです

Don't abandon me, don't leave me alone in this dark and cold despair
I tried to fight against the sadness despite the many wounds
Facing to the pain and resisting to the sorrow, I still feel this strong sensation
I'll still stand up with this last hope between my hands

More determinated than ever, I'll never let anything collapse
As a last sentinel, the spirit still strong enough to stand up
Then a little light guided me to a fate full of hope
Holding the hand to an unknown future, I found again some happiness

Don't abandon me, don't leave me alone in this dark and cold despair
I tried to fight against the sadness despite the many wounds
Facing to the pain and resisting to the sorrow, I still feel this strong sensation
I'll still stand up with this last hope between my hands

I kept my eyes opened to face the harsh reality
I was still wounded because of what happened between us
Someday I'm sure you'll come back to me
I'll be assured that this last hope was indeed useful

Don't abandon me, don't leave me alone in this dark and cold despair
I tried to fight against the sadness despite the many wounds
Facing to the pain and resisting to the sorrow, I still feel this strong sensation
I'll still stand up with this last hope between my hands

Ne m'abandonne pas, ne me laisse pas seule dans le désespoir sombre et glacé
J'ai tenté de me battre contre la tristesse même si j'ai été blessée
Face à la douleur et résistant au chagrin, cette forte sensation que je ressentais
Avec ce dernier espoir dans mes mains, je me maintiendrai

Plus déterminée que jamais, je ne laisserai rien s'effondrer
Telle la dernière sentinelle, l'esprit suffisamment fort pour tenir
Alors vers un destin rempli d'espoir une petite lumière m'a guidée
J'ai trouvé un peu de bonheur, en tendant la main vers un nouvel avenir

Ne m'abandonne pas, ne me laisse pas seule dans le désespoir sombre et glacé
J'ai tenté de me battre contre la tristesse même si j'ai été blessée
Face à la douleur et résistant au chagrin, cette forte sensation que je ressentais
Avec ce dernier espoir dans mes mains, je me maintiendrai

J'ai gardé les yeux ouverts pour faire face à la dure réalité
J'étais encore blessée à cause de ce qu'il nous était arrivé
Un jour je suis sûre que tu reviendras vers moi
Je serais assurée que ce dernier espoir ait été utile pour moi

Ne m'abandonne pas, ne me laisse pas seule dans le désespoir sombre et glacé
J'ai tenté de me battre contre la tristesse même si j'ai été blessée
Face à la douleur et résistant au chagrin, cette forte sensation que je ressentais
Avec ce dernier espoir dans mes mains, je me maintiendrai

Happy new year everyone!
Well, we begin with a song for Momo. As for the rating... There are indeed some confusing sentences. The song has a globally positive background, but still, even if it's about a girl who says she'll never give up to be happy... How can she get someone back? Think about it. There can be the nice ways (the ones intended), and the not good ones...
Music: sequence pads by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Sytrus. With the capella, I have the impression we barely hear the lead track though...