『Athanasia』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160909-00383
LIN (full) : 「598 379 910」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160909-000496
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Forsaken - TRACK 8/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

唯一の可能な真実として嘘を参照することができるだけ
私が深い絶望に陥る作る残酷な運命に直面している
あなたの言葉を少なくとも一つより多くの時間を聞きたかった
この甘い声が永遠に忘却の彼方に消える前に...

まだこの世界唯一の錯覚か夢だったと思うしてみました
ただし幻滅は構築したこの視覚を破りました
いつも狂気と悲しみのこれらの視覚に信じることを拒否された
何があなたの激しい痛みを引き起こしていましたか？

唯一の可能な真実として嘘を参照することができるだけ
私が深い絶望に陥る作る残酷な運命に直面している
あなたの言葉を少なくとも一つより多くの時間を聞きたかった
この甘い声が永遠に忘却の彼方に消える前に...

彼女の顔に涙が連続して流れるとその理由を知らない
彼の腕の中で、彼女はまだこの恐ろしい痛みを感じていた
この男は全ての苦しみの理由である場合、あなたは復讐されます
その後再び幸せになると私に戻ってくるだろう

いつもこの言葉を待っていただけ重い沈黙があった
意味のないこれらの思考に関係なく本当だったかわかりませんでした
場合にのみあなたが本当にこの過去について考えていたかを知ることができます
一人ではないだろうと私はこの絶望のうちになります...

Only able to see the lies as the only possible truth
Facing to a cruel fate making me falling into a deep despair
I wanted to hear your words at least one more time
Before this sweet voice disappears into the oblivion forever...

I still tried to think this world was only an illusion or a dream
But the disillusion broke this vision that I was building
I always denied to believe into these sights of madness and sadness
What was causing your intense pain?

Only able to see the lies as the only possible truth
Facing to a cruel fate making me falling into a deep despair
I wanted to hear your words at least one more time
Before this sweet voice disappears into the oblivion forever...

The tears on her face continuously flowing and I don't know why
Even in his arms, she was still feeling this horrible pain
If this man is the reason of all your suffering, you will be avenged
Then you will be happy again and come back to me

I always waited for these words but there was only a heavy silence
I didn't know what was true regardless these thoughts without any meaning
If only I could know what you were really thinking about this past
I wouldn't be alone and I would be out of this despair...

Ne pouvant que voir les actuels mensonges comme la seule possible vérité
Faisant face à un destin cruel me faisant perdre toute foi
Je voulais encore entendre tes mots au moins une seule fois
Avant que cette tendre voix ne disparaisse dans l'oubli à jamais...

J'ai toujours essayé de penser que ce monde n'était qu'un rêve ou illusoire
Mais la désillusion a brisé cette vision que je m'étais bâtie
J'ai toujours refusé de croire en ces vues de tristesse et de folie
Quelle était la cause de cette intense douleur, de ce désespoir ?

Ne pouvant que voir les actuels mensonges comme la seule possible vérité
Faisant face à un destin cruel me faisant perdre toute foi
Je voulais encore entendre tes mots au moins une seule fois
Avant que cette tendre voix ne disparaisse dans l'oubli à jamais...

Les larmes qui coulaient incessamment sur son visage sans que je ne sache pourquoi
Même dans ses bras, elle ressentait encore cette horrible douleur
Si cet homme est la source de tes souffrances, je vengerai ton cœur
Alors tu seras de nouveau heureuse et tu reviendras vers moi

J'ai toujours attendu ces mots mais seul un lourd silence est demeuré
Je ne savais pas ce qui était vrai malgré ses pensées insensées
Si seulement je pouvais connaître ce que tu pensais vraiment par rapport à ce passé
Je ne serai peut-être pas seule et je pourrais sortir de ce désespoir où j'ai été enfermée...

Sister song of "JINOLIA". Point of view from the stalker/yandere.
A full story should be published soon in English to explain everything, because both of these songs don't give much details.
Music : Toxic Biohazard for the pads and the lead. This is a semi-lead song, that means I removed the lead for the choruses. Ah, and if you want to reproduce an .ust/.vsqx... Don't begin directly on the first line of measures as other songs, there is a little shift (of one 1/16 length note, due to the pad pattern), that made the song more complicated to make, obliged to modify the beats. Hard kick by Sytrus (and this is the same one as in "Patricia" and "Painful" for info).

『Chimene』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160902-00376
LIN (full) : 「598 375 782」
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160905-000488
Instrumental + sung version
Catalog ticket
Album : Forsaken - TRACK 2/16

Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
Not recommended for people under... : 14
Reason : yandere content
Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

 

いつもあなたと一緒にいることに感謝するとき瞬間について覚えている
まだ自分の考えを信頼錯覚に閉じ込められた
誰を傷つけたいと思ったことはないけど選択肢を持っていなかった
これらの創傷からの痛みはゆっくりと成長したが

個別の人生に分離された冒頭に同じ運命
再び会うまではお互いが一緒になっているため同じ関心がされて
いつも自分の弱点や強みについて十分に知っていた
あなたはまだ私を取り巻くこのような錯覚を信じていたが

いつもあなたと一緒にいることに感謝するとき瞬間について覚えている
まだ自分の考えを信頼錯覚に閉じ込められた
誰を傷つけたいと思ったことはないけど選択肢を持っていなかった
これらの創傷からの痛みはゆっくりと成長したが

いつもあなたの甘い思い出での素敵な女の子でした
一方で私の考えは次第に遅く狂気に暗くしました
あなたがこの女の子と何をしていた手遅れに理解した
もうこれらの感情を隠さないしあなたを許したことはないでした

まだ考えながらあなたの妹はあなたがやっていること許してくれる
その後あなたの素朴な精神によって構築されたような錯覚を破壊された
でもこれらの甘い言葉で、私の決定は永遠に同じままになります
あなたは良い選択をした場合、何も失っていないだろう...

I remember about the moments when I always appreciate being with you
Trapped into an illusion where I still trust your thoughts
I never wanted to hurt anybody but I didn't have the choice
While the pain from these wounds was slowly growing

The same fates at the beginning which were separating into distinct lives
Until meeting again each other being together because of a same interest
I always knew enough about your weaknesses and strengths
While you were still believing this illusion surrounding me

I remember about the moments when I always appreciate being with you
Trapped into an illusion where I still trust your thoughts
I never wanted to hurt anybody but I didn't have the choice
While the pain from these wounds was slowly growing

I was always a nice girl in your sweet memories
While my thoughts were progressively darkening into a slow madness
I understood too late what you were doing with this girl
I didn't hide these feelings anymore and never forgave you

While still thinking your sister would forgive what you have done
Then I was destroyed the illusion built by your simple-minded spirit
Even with these sweet words, my decision will stay the same forever
If you made the good choice, I wouldn't have lost anything...

Je me souviens des moments où j'ai toujours apprécié être à tes côtés
Enfermée dans une illusion où j'ai toujours cru à tes pensées
Je n'avais jamais voulu blesser qui ce soit mais tu ne m'as pas laissé le choix
Avec la douleur de ces blessures qui grandissait doucement en moi

Les mêmes destins au début qui se séparaient en deux distinctes vies
Jusqu'à nouveau se rencontrer l'une l'autre avec un même intérêt
J'ai toujours bien connu les forces et les faiblesses qui te définissaient
Pendant que tu croyais encore à l'illusion qui entourait mon esprit

Je me souviens des moments où j'ai toujours apprécié être à tes côtés
Enfermée dans une illusion où j'ai toujours cru à tes pensées
Je n'avais jamais voulu blesser qui ce soit mais tu ne m'as pas laissé le choix
Avec la douleur de ces blessures qui grandissait doucement en moi

Dans tes doux souvenirs, j'étais toujours cette gentille fille que tu voyais
Pendant que mes pensées s'assombrissaient doucement dans une latente folie
J'ai compris bien trop tard ce que tu faisais avec cette fille si jolie
Je n'avais plus caché ces sentiments et ne t'ai jamais pardonné...

Quand tu pensais que ta sœur allait te pardonner pour ce que tu as fait
J'ai brisé ce que ton esprit naïf avait construit comme illusion
Même avec ces doux mots, ma décision restera la même à jamais
Je n'aurais rien perdu si tu avais pris la bonne décision...

I think the lyrics have a better quality than the music for this one, and the reason it took so long to be finished was mainly because of my fatigue. I didn't find any idea of lyrics when I composed the instru and... I just finished it tonight.
Music : pad with TBio, pluck by Morphine and lead by T-Force.
Story : Chimene and her brother had a happy childhood, began different lives then they fell in love with the same girl. While the brother is very nice, Chimene becomes very jealous and began considering her brother as a rival, while trying to maintaining the image of the "sweet little girl" during a good moment... Until her jealousy explodes into rage.
"No matter if you are a member of her family, you would never be forgiven."

Hello, Nynthixia there!

I can't believe the album hasn't been delayed because I had a technical problem... It is on time!

As you know there are 2 albums for this month, one for September 3rd with songs for Lily, Yukari, Ritsu (and a few kokone and IA as guests), one for September 24th with songs for IA, kokone, Totoko and Tei.

DOWNLOAD CLASSIC ALBUM VERSION (13 TRACKS)

So this is the first one. Due to the fact it is an "inter seasons" album, there is only a classic version.
Tracks 2, 3, 4 and 5 are season 2 songs. All other songs are from season 3.

And this is the changelog of the tracks which are different from their demo version. If you don't see them listed, that means the album version is the same as the demo. Remember : the changes can be a patch (repairing errors in a music), mixdown changes, extensions (most of time) and there can be instrument changes as well.

02. Beyond the Death (feat. Yukari Yuzuki)
[EXTENSION] Extended the beginning + fixing hats

05. Re;Turn (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning, bridge chorus 1/verse 1, end

06. Turn Back (feat. Ritsu Namine)
[INSTRUMENT] Added panned crashes at the end and in the last part of the last verse
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning
[INSTRUMENT] Added the voice SFX before the last verse

08. Melonora (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning and end

09. Out of Time (feat. Lily)
[EXTENSION] Extended beginning
[INSTRUMENT] Added kicks during all beats parts
[INSTRUMENT] Added a SFX just before the first chorus
[MIXDOWN] Reduced the ending silence

Yeah, for this one, not many changes. Several instrus were a few too long (often when it's more than 4:30 length). However, the lengths of "Re;Turn" and "Melonora" are the most significative improvements. Each of them wins about 40s!

Other news :

1) My Zunko has been received on Monday but her unlock will still be on October 11th. I needed to know the arrival date in case of trouble with the package of the reseller of the box. So you need to wait mid-October before I air some tracks featuring Zunko. I still don't have lyrics plans for her, I still have a few time, but I'll think about it soon. The first album which would feature her would logically be the December one, which will also include tracks with Itako and Kiritan.

2) I had several questions about doing concerts but I hope I will be very clear on it. In order to do this, I need to create a commercial license for the songs (which is currently impossible because the license I use does not permit that), to request a commercial license from each company for each Vocaloid used, to change the singers for several songs (because some UTAUs don't have a commercial license), and finally a room to do this. So I won't do any concerts with my songs, sorry. I rather my works still be "free to use"* for VOCALOID and UTAU users. This is a mess to me, and I want to keep the things easy. Easier for me, easier for you all! (^_^)
* What I mean by "free to use" is using by respecting all the conditions of course. It's not for pissing you off, it's to assure that people who want to do a work on these songs can do it for free without having any troubles. So please don't be mad at me for this, I do this to protect you.

3) "Cenders" will soon be on album status, I'll work on booklet and album tracks (knowing that at least one album track is done but still private). For the people who were wondering, no, "Cenders" has no meaning in English, this is a "between French and English word", the English word being "ashes" and the French one "cendres". Just inverted two letters of the French word. After for the song title "Black Cenders", if I decided to set it without the caps, this is a few normal, "black" being an English word (promised). I maybe a few broke up my rule of "words written with caps"... But no problem I guess. Also if you read the song titles translations table and that you see that "Black Cenders" is translated into French while one of the English words isn't English... This is normal.

4) Still have no news about changing (or not) the slow pace. I have at least less time to work on songs (if you want to know the details I lose a complete afternoon compared to last year), I'll try to follow the usual pace (2/3 songs a week) and if I notice this is too difficult, it will be "1/2 songs a week". There is also a possibility to change the pace of a week of end October or beginning November, but no further news about it, and it probably won't be the fastest pace (maybe the moderate one I used for summer holidays).

5) Concerning "ReLief" and "Re;2" covers : I set up the air date on September 18th (it's on a Sunday). I'll see if I fix up some things. The instru version which will be used will be the piapro one but modified with the real song to get the missing voice SFX.

I think this is all.

Enjoy the album!
Nynthixia